It's All My Fault

If ever there were an episode that exposed just how unnecessary this intro blurb is... TensHUnsRye.ziNg Episode 10 of 53

Once again, I offer proof that nobody can derail their own train better than I can... ... and that proof is this recording. In fact, so honed are my skills in this regard that I can even do so from within my dream state. On another planet. Entirely from another life lived. One filled with bliss and harmony and self-love and grace... So definitely not this one. Amirite Israel? And exactly like the...

Hey Hey Hey Universe. You've caught me a bit offguard here. Excuse my mess. I'm celebrating mother's day this year the only way available - by making it all about me. And a little tiny bit about my mom. To be fair, my mom up and ran to the Caribbean with my sister at 430 MST this morning so making today all about her seems a little out of place. How would that even work? Zoom call drinks & din...

This frankenstein monster ends my threepeat - my most recent episodic trilogy - the George Lucas way, with more regret than one knows what to do with. To which I say: Whatevz. Already forgotten about. As if anywhere at all I have limited regrets in life? Come on. Seriously - come on! Let's get going here. We're only living with regrets because collectively we've decided we're okay with it. Well I...

Finally! After many attempts to drill down on money and its emergence as a crucial component of civilized society - here, in this recording, I finally stay on point. Come to any conclusions??? Well, yes. Sort of. Oh I don't really know. Maybe you should decide. MAYBE. Probably not though. Again, it is very much up to you. As it always has been. As it always will be. TensHUnsRye.ziNg Episode 6 of 5...

This recording is work. It was work for me. And it will be work for you. Not physical labor mind you - no no no - that would be easy. No the work involved here is mental and not the fun gymnastics kind of mental - nope this one is dissociative schizophrenia all the way. So. Basically. It's my usual... As it were . Now. As you were. Or make the mistake of listening to this one, and then the next on...

So yeah... I've been AWOL for a bit. If I can be so generous in decribing the gap in recording time I've allowed to pile up like laundry I'm ignoring here in April. Will you grant me the latitude? I knew I liked you... so easy to get along with when I give you no voice. Now how do you feel about folding boxer shorts? Oh that's the line is it? Okay. I can live with that. Hopefully as easily as you...

I know, I know... I heard you okay... ??. I've been going a bit long lately. I get it. So... I thought I'd take it easy like a hotel in California by preparing something a bit more Tik-Tok. In this recording I spend 10:33 of the 12:46 talking about ticks. The rest of the recording is a public service message from some foundation with a ridiculously long name. Then, unexpectedly, we hear from Benji...

My failure to launch yesterday, March 29th, was not intentional. In fact It would have been my guardian angel's 35th birthday were she still with us. It's an event I've been eyeing since Thanksgiving if not earlier. Given her recent passing, I wanted yesterday's recording to express how much I valued her while she was here. I simply could not find the proper tone to match the moment. It just wasn'...

Making it tremble on command? I'm not sure I like the sound of that. But I'm a guy so of course I find that intimidating. However we are not here to get bogged down in a discussion about men and their uncertainties when another season opener for the recording project " It's All My Fault " has just dropped: Season 10 - TensHUnsRye.ziNg Epsiode 1 - But it's March 29th. There's your clue. Of course t...

Recording the season finale of NëiNsensiCaL felt like a tragedy that lost its comedy for all but 13-ish of the minutes. If I had to guess the other 94 minutes aren't all tragedy but the funny parts will be hard to find. It feels like I did a lot of wandering down alleys of immediate regret. How life does. Listen to me. How life does. The truth is that I really have no idea how bad it got in there...

This recording is NëiNsensiCaL's 52nd installment. You now have the full deck of cards. Which means the next episode, #53, adds the joker to the deck while officially closing down the 9th season of my personal vanity project/confession/podcast project: " It's All My Fault ". As such, I want to point out that if ever there were an episode to avoid entirely it's this one . It's almost 82 minutes lon...

It certainly took a while to get my point across in this one. Like 27 hours if you work it all out. I think . Maybe that's just how distracted my efforts have been since my melancholy manhole mishap threw me for a "clean burps" loop. Or maybe it's indicative of how little substantive contribution I'm making now. Without 27 hours to percolate... my cup very much not runneth over. Or. It could be I'...

So getting a bit "crunchy" with my time means I kind of cut this one off short. I know I know I know - there's no time for that with the 8 days of VACA I'm just now rolling in from - I agree this is a bush-league maneuver. But still - timecrunches in this linear sh!tstorm are real. Can't live with that much denial. So if you want to know what can cause me, the chronic-talker-to-myselfer-of-epic-pr...

I used most of the last recording to complain about the human condition we're collectively accepting here on Earth867-5309. The one that has our humanity so unfulfilled right now. And then, like a jerk, I offered nothing in the way of solutions that might help offset this situation. So today, I try and make up for my faux pas with {drumroll please} - Government By Lottery! Seriously! Now how you g...

In the version of english I use to attempt communication with others, the one that today is spoken in the nation currently labeled the United States of America in the spacetime moment that is the "year after the year" Love Was Left on the Cutting Room Floor - in that specific version of reality - I really think the collective nailed it on one word: flaw (s)(ed) and maybe one phrase: "run-on senten...

It's "Saturday Date Night" universe so should we pick up Thai or go out for Italian? Or did you want to grab something to cook together? I'm sorry I didn't hear you... come again. You're what now? You have a what now? You say you have a headache? Really... ? A headache ? That's almost believable given the insanity I'm putting myself through lately... But come on universe - you don't even have a he...

My content delivery method can, correctly I might add , be criticized as long-winded and distracted. As well as desperately in need of an editor. These are AMONG the many other criticisms that might legitimately be expressed of me, my presentation, my technical challenges and my general purpose communicating herein. I know any audience willing to engage with me - the unplugged, unfilitered, uncout...

I would qualify this recording as a "sidebar" effort, if such a category existed, in this project. And given that all parameters contained herein are totally mine to arbitrarily design, well... - Welcome to the Sidebar Part of the Show - Where topic matter is more reactive than proactive... as sidebars are known to be! If you enjoy yourself a USA Today in locations other than airports... well this...

This one is the very definition of "all over the place". And it ends in a flood of emotional distress... so there's that to look forward to. I don't really know where to go with this addendum to an experience that is an hour of me in all of my exposed self thinking hard thoughts about the here and now. Is that your kind of thing? Then sure. Give it a shot. Otherwise? Pass. Pass all the way babay!...

Getting through my long overdue apologies to you, my listener, should have been enough for this episode on its own. But like I'm prone to do, I pile on with 11 beliefs that stretch the imagination to a point I won't blame you for never listening again. Hold it against you, maybe... But blame you? Never! NëiNsensiCaL Episode 43 of 53

It seems as if I'm still on amicable terms with YouTube ©®™. Shocking. I agree. It's been 8.75 days since we got back together As I type this... 2.27.24 at 4:53 MST. after I panicked 2 years ago and ran knowing how much you'd changed and anything between us wasn't sustainable. There's that. You'd think those uploads from 2022 (allegedly) would have been enough for YouTube ©®™ to hand me my walking...

Hello YouTubeiverse. ©™® As "reasons to never listen to me again... ever!!!" go... this recording might have just skyrocketed to number one on that list. I have never felt the need to interject a message intentionally warning tender young ears to stay away from... the disturbing nature of my next thoughts. ... !!! ??? At least I don't remember any such instance. Until now. And you know as well as...

I believe getting lost is a fair assessment of the journey this one offers but the deep thoughts part - that part I'm not so sold on. Not because I'm doing that thing where I'm underselling the depth of my existence to trigger reactions like "dude quit soliciting compliments that way - it's annoying". Nope. At least not this time . Instead, this is a long overdue reconciliation conversation betwee...

First, what if you were thrust into a circumstance that demanded of you a decision be made in the next 30 seconds that could never be undone. With that absurd reality engaged, the choice at hand is this: which, of the many options available currently, would you declare as the one and only fruit option that the simulation will be offering from now going forward until you perish. Meaning there will...