H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain Ends

YES! You are reading this correctly ... this one is a stand-out episode (well, in my opinion) ... as I don't think many people are talking about Enemas on their podcasts?? My journey is continuing and I am inviting all of you into my inner thoughts and realizations these days ... I always knew I was "OK" sharing a lot of my life with others ... but the tears and laughs and seeing the unhealthy pat...

"I had a bad habit of missing lovers past ... my brother used to call it ... eating out of the trash." Another perfect line from Taylor swift that changes my perspective... or I guess SHOWS me a pattern that I have been guilty of ... and I didn't even realize it was a bad thing. If you have been listening ... I have recently ended a short but important relationship ... it was my first "official" r...

While recording this one... I was pretty spent and exhausted during this recording ... even listening back I can FEEL the heaviness ... As I've been saying since the beginning ... I am sharing my life with you in real-time ...so you are REALLY hearing me here ... and I just hope it helps... to hear my struggles ... this whole thing made me realize that even when I THINK I am living my life a certa...

I woke up on the day of this recording... and I knew immediately I had to share my dream with all of my listeners ... and I ask YOU to share it with anyone you know... especially for those who have lost someone SUDDENLY.... there was no "diagnosis" ... there was no "warning" there was no "You have this much more time to live..." This dream gave me an entirely different perspective on if I were to...

This is a great follow- up to the last PSYCHIC episode .... it starts with me recapping a "True Psychic" I came across on TikTok.... it then turns into a hilarious story about My dad and FLO from Progressive! I also recap the "GYPSY ROSE" episode ... which goes back all the way to 2005 ... when I was scammed out of thousands of dollars by a "street psychic" out in West Hollywood ... This covers a...

THIS???? OMG. YOU GUYS!!! AHHHH!!!! THIS. IS. CRAZY. I don't even know what to say on how to describe this episode .... The only thing I will say ..."YOU CAN'T MAKE THIS SHIT UP." - But, I will let YOU be the judge of that .... Be prepared .... Love Always, Alana

"Uptown .. Funk you UP... Uptown Funk you UP!" ... if you like this song.... don't kill me for butchering it right outta the gate! I contemplate here ... how much I should actually SHARE with the listeners about the things that have been happening to me ... from a Spiritual/Medium side of things ....I am at the point here that I am convinced that I truly have a gift of the "6th Sense." I've always...

GUYS!!! You are NEVER going to BELIEVE this .... I swear... I don't know WHAT IS HAPPENING (as My dad told me I would just continue to REPEAT AND REPEAT AND REPEAT) ... but you MUST listen to this ... The best part?? There was a "PART TWO" that was NOT planned ... that I recorded TWO days later.... I think this story/experience was one of the best I've had so far ... and I am just SO thankful for...

GIRLLLLSSSSS I know you feel me on this one! WHAT IS THE PROBLEM FELLAS??? This one visits the idea on how WE are everything to everyone when they are sick.... but WHO is the one to take care of us? I think there are a lot of things in this one that will resonate with A LOT of my female listeners out there .... I mention this couple that make the FUNNIEST TikTok/Instagram videos... the Husband con...

In the words of Christina Aguilera .... "You make me that much stronger, make me a work a little bit harder, make me that much wiser, so thanks for making me a FIGHTER!" -Yes, you WILL hear me singing these lyrics in this episode.... consider THIS your warning! This one is an interesting one... because I had to stop recording at one point due to street noise... and when I continue, my perspective...

This starts with a "half dead" version of myself picking up my phone to record.... I somewhat come alive, and tell a really crazy "sign" from My Dad ... this one is VERY VERY difficult to believe, and it's a GREAT STORY! Have any of you experienced something after you lost a loved one that was just "IMPOSSIBLE TO EXPLAIN"???? I would love to hear about it! This one I truly think is by FAR the one...

SOUR CREAM IS MY WEAKNESS! This episode was really fun to listen back to... as much as it sounds so silly ... Sour Cream has always brought me A LOT Of Joy... and I can NO longer eat it ... so I talk (or vent) about that ... But one of the main themes here is as I am realizing when I "let go" of the reigns of my life... most importantly my "plans" ... become almost like a SURPRISE... its that imme...

THIS was recorded on TAX DAY... the first April 15th that my Dad ... the best CPA of CPA's ... had the day OFF in over 40 years. It was a rough day... not only for me... but my siblings struggled too. I talk a lot about my Dad's story in this one ... about the signs my Dad sends ... the different ways that things "could have gone" in terms of my Father leaving this Earth ... and how grateful I am...

HANSON. Yes, the boy band... the three brothers from Tulsa Oklahoma with the all-time hit, "Mmmbop." THEY... CHANGED... MY...LIFE. This one was SOOOO fun to record and re-live, I've listened back to it twice, and I just can't stop laughing - so I really hope it makes all of you laugh as well! I know a lot of my listeners had their own "Boy Band" phase .... and you ALSO vividly remember MY HANSON O...

First we had a Stripper Break In ... Then we had a Footloose Audition... and NOW??? Some CRAZY CRAZY Cat stories ... Be prepared to LAUGH OUT LOUD my Friends! Join Myself going back down memory lane with all of my many Kitties.... we always had an orange one... and a gray/black one... I've always felt a magical connection to Orange cats ... and it looks to be that we might have come full circle .....

Taking a DEEP... HARD..... INTENSE Nap ... is something that I feel we all take for granted ... and most of my listeners who have Children ... Jobs... Husbands.... Wives ... Life ... would probably agree with me. (The photo with this episode is of My mom ... and Me as a little girl ... as we know naps post-partum are a MUST HAVE !! This was recorded after a two hour "true" nap ... and I wake up to...

Four Words that we do NOT say enough ... wasn't fully prepared for the emotion that this short recording brought out of me (especially because I was driving.) This is something everyone should listen to ... and really HEAR. We don't give ourselves that break that we somehow seem to give to everyone else ... we take no the burdens, the guilt, the pressure ... just imagine if once in awhile your mom...

I tend to focus on my "Severe Depressive Suicidal Episodes"... but I am learning more about that "Constant State of Depression" - or simply stated "I am Depressed." I visit the differences in both ... and ask the question that perhaps some of us THINK we know the answer to? Which Depression is Worse? I share some stories from my past... involving my work in Sales for DJ production company, somethi...

THIS ... get ready to laugh people!!! I auditioned for the NATIONAL TOUR of Footloose when I was in high school... this visits that adventure ... and also involves a secondary story of when I directed the NYSNC DEBUT in 1998.... The overall theme here is something that I am proud of. I talk about how when these opportunities came around ... I never said to myself "I really hope I win this... Or I...

The title of this episode ... were literally SPOKEN by our Pastor On Easter Sunday. It totally makes sense ... it fits my beliefs, my signs, my faith ... I talk a lot about that word "ABUNDANCE".... right before I recorded this... I said to myself "WHAT EVEN IS ABUNDANCE???" This word keeps coming up ... I am seeing it, I am hearing it ... and then I realize.... it's because I am FEELING it. I inv...

You have to listen to this one to Understand the title! It's recorded after a really "bad" night of missing my Dad ... should we really call these moments "bad" though? I am thinking of that in this moment ... these moments, and they are usually not much more than fleeting... are perhaps the "winks from Earth" that we send to our loved ones in the clouds? Anyway ... I compare the feeling of the wa...

The word "Partner" to describe the person you are with ... Husband, Wife, Girlfriend, Boyfriend... Significant Other.... Always sounded weird to me. But ... today I realize how important it is to have a TRUE PARTNER. I visit a lot of ideas on how you need to be with someone who can be the Stop Sign ... Or Yield Sign in your brain when your mind starts to go down the rabbit hole.... and even more i...

"Dear Younger Me' - by MercyMe. A song that has always been SOOOOO huge ... as the first time I heard it was 2013 during/after my first diagnosed Hypomanic/Depressive episodes of Bipolar Disorder. It always made me cry. ... Today... I hear it... and I still cry, but for different reasons. It's Easter Sunday ... and I reflect on how the idea of being "Sacrificed to Save" ... rings true in numerous...

In the words of the awesome show... "Cobra Kai" ... I am here to FLIP THE EFFING SCRIPT! I think you will all like this one .... It's more upbeat... a few "EFF" bombs ... and a lot of OPINION. I talk in a bit of a lighter way about some serious topics... and hopefully will allow ALL of you to change your perspective ... but instead of crying ... You will be laughing with this one! I also briefly v...

This is an OPEN letter to ALL parents .... If you have any desire to save our Children (and adults) from suicide ... I ask that you please listen to this 7 MINUTE Recording. I want to spread this message more than I have ever wanted anything in my life... I am willing to speak in front of 5 parents .. 500 .. or 5,000. EVERYONE needs to hear this. Not just Parents ... but all humans. I change the p...