Embodied Self Therapy

Healing CPTSD

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Healing CPTSD is a podcast dedicated to healing from childhood trauma and complex PTSD. Join your host, Bianca Winter-Mallari, a trauma informed counsellor, somatic therapist, founder of Embodied Self Therapy and fellow childhood trauma survivor. Here we’ll explore the nuanced world of trauma, unpacking topics such as toxic family systems, intergenerational trauma, attachment, dissociation and shame. We’ll also explore pathways to recovery through somatics and embodiment, nervous system regulation, parts work, community and trauma informed care.

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Latest episode

Jun 14, 2026

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Episodes

89. Agency: Is Life Happening To You or For You? 14.06.2026

In this episode, we'll explore the difference between blame and responsibility, and how trauma can leave us feeling powerless, stuck, frozen, or disconnected from our own sense of agency (minus the toxic positivity or denial of the very real systems and circumstances that shape our lives). And of course, we'll talk about the gradual process of reclaiming your ability to participate in your...

88. Overfunctioning In Relationships 07.06.2026

In this week’s episode of Healing CPTSD, we'll be talking about over functioning in relationships – why trauma survivors often become the caretakers, fixers, and emotional managers, and how these patterns quietly disconnect us from our own needs. We explore how childhood trauma conditions us to associate love with usefulness, emotional labour, hypervigilance, and self abandonment – but most im...

87. Rest As Resistance 31.05.2026

This episode of Healing CPTSD explores why so many trauma survivors struggle to slow down, why rest can feel deeply uncomfortable for the nervous system, and how our worth becomes tied to productivity inside systems that profit from our exhaustion. We talk about trauma, hypervigilance, burnout, late stage capitalism, and the ways we have been conditioned to override our body’s natural rhythms. Thi...

86. Purpose: Why So Many of Us Feel Lost 24.05.2026

Feeling lost? In this episode, we'll be talking about purpose, identity, and why so many trauma survivors feel disconnected from direction, meaning, and themselves. We unpack the pressure to tie purpose to productivity, success, or career achievement, and why healing often creates the capacity to reconnect with curiosity, creativity, play, and possibility again. This conversation is a gentle r...

85. Mastering No Contact (You’re Allowed to Have Boundaries) 17.05.2026

In this week’s episode of Healing CPTSD, we'll be talking about mastering no contact, why boundaries can feel so terrifying for trauma survivors, and how childhood trauma wires us to prioritise connection over authenticity and self protection. We explore the grief that often comes with distancing yourself from family, the guilt and self doubt that can surface, and why so many people stay in ha...

84. Rupture & Repair In Relationships: How To Get Better At Conflict 10.05.2026

In this episode of Healing CPTSD, we'll talk about the cycle of rupture and repair in relationships and why repair, not avoiding conflict, builds trust, safety, and intimacy. With complex trauma, rupture can feel threatening and lead to shutdown, people pleasing, avoidance, or defensiveness, especially without healthy models of repair. I share how I approach repair by pausing when things escal...

83. How To Build Self-Trust 03.05.2026

In this short episode, we'll explore why self trust can feel difficult, especially if you grew up staying small, being shut down, or people pleasing to stay safe, and how to rebuild it. Self trust is not about perfect decisions, but about building a relationship with yourself by listening inward, recognising your needs, and following through on small consistent actions. Breaking small promises...

82. Is It My Intuition, Or Is It My Trauma? 27.04.2026

In this short, we'll explore the difference between intuition and anxiety, and why it can feel so hard to tell them apart. We look at how overthinking can cloud our inner knowing and how coming back into the body can help bring more clarity. I also touch on the role of regulation and creating a bit more space in your day so you can actually hear yourself. A simple, reflective episode if you’ve...

81. Day In The Life As A Therapist In Her Slow Era 19.04.2026

This episode is more of a behind the scenes, day in the life of a therapist – a personal share about what’s been nourishing me lately. Life has been slowing down in some really beautiful ways and I've been leaning into a softer pace of living. I talk about the small rituals and practices that help me stay grounded while running a growing practice. Need to work with a trauma informed therapist?  ⁠⁠...

80. How I Self-Regulate As A Somatic Therapist 12.04.2026

In this episode of Healing CPTSD, I take you behind the scenes on how I self-regulate when I’m spiraling. As a somatic therapist, who tends to get stuck in her head, I ground myself by tuning into simple body sensations . I’ll share the approach and tools that help me reconnect, without overcomplicating things. If you’ve been caught in the headspace lately, come join me and let’s drop back into th...

79. Patriarchy Hurts Men Too: Toxic Masculinity and Healing the Masculine 05.04.2026

Men aren’t the problem — patriarchy is. In this episode, I explore how patriarchy harms men by teaching boys that strength, stoicism, dominance, and achievement define their worth, while vulnerability is unsafe. When normal human needs for connection and support go unmet, that pressure can turn into shame, loneliness, anger, and disconnection, feeding toxic masculinity and making healthy relations...

78. Breaking Up With Being "Good" – From People Pleasing To Authenticity 29.03.2026

In this episode, I talk about what I call “goodness conditioning” — the pressure many of us feel to be easy, agreeable, and not rock the boat. For people with childhood trauma or CPTSD, these patterns often began as survival strategies. Over time this can create a disconnect between what you say yes to and what your body actually feels, often leading to burnout, resentment, and losing touch with y...

77. Anxiety 22.03.2026

In this episode of Healing CPTSD, we unpack anxiety. Rather than focusing on labels or diagnosis, we'll understand anxiety through a trauma informed, nervous system lens, acknowledging it as a survival response. I also walk you through some gentle, practical ways to work with anxiety instead of against it. Need to work with a trauma informed therapist?  ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠BOOK IN YOUR 1:...

76. What Happens After Collapse? The Individual & Collective Body 15.03.2026

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75. Healing Isn't Linear 08.03.2026

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74. F*ck The Patriarchy: Permission To Feel Your Feminine Rage 01.03.2026

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73. What Are We Healing For? Imagining a World That Can Hold Us 22.02.2026

🔥 ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠NEW Global Crisis Holding Sessions | BOOK NOW⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ In this episode of Healing CPTSD, we're exploring the question: what are we actually healing for? With everything happening in the world right now — the rise of right-wing fascism, late-stage capitalism doing what it does best, ongoing colonial harm, and the very real climate crisis — it can feel h...

72. Trauma is Political 15.02.2026

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71. From Survival to Steadiness: Life Update + Setting The Tone For 2026 08.02.2026

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70. 2025 Wrap Up + Thank You 07.12.2025

🎁 SILLY SEASON SURVIVAL GUIDE | FREE DOWNLOAD This episode is a gentle chat to reflect on the year that's been, to say thank you for being here, share some personal life updates and take a soft look ahead at what’s coming in 2026. Healing CPTSD will be taking a break until February, but don't you worry, I leave you with supportive resources you can lean on to get you through the holiday p...

69. Finding Your Sense Of Self 30.11.2025

In this week’s episode, we’re looking at what it really means to have a sense of self, and why it can feel unclear or missing after complex trauma. When survival has shaped your identity, it’s common to lose touch with your needs, preferences, boundaries, and inner voice. We’ll talk about how trauma impacts identity development and explore practical ways to reconnect with who you are now: through...

68. Exploring Embodiment: "How Do I Be In My Body?" 23.11.2025

This episode invites you into a gentle exploration of the concept of embodiment — what it truly means to be in your body , and how you can begin cultivating safety, awareness and self-connection at a pace that honours your nervous system. We dive into how trauma impacts your ability to feel present in your body, why embodiment can feel difficult or unsafe, and the foundational steps that help you...

67. Are You A Highly Sensitive Person? 16.11.2025

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66. HALTS: A Simple Check-In Tool to Support Emotional Regulation 09.11.2025

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65. Your Experience Is Valid: Understanding Emotional Invalidation and It's Impact 02.11.2025

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