Feel It First Podcast

You are starting to get it. Space does not require a life overhaul. It lives in the small moments. The breath before you respond. The pause between one thing and the next. The choice to sit with your kids instead of immediately moving to the next task on the list. And that is real. Those moments matter. But there is something that happens when the nervous system gets one full, uninterrupted hour o...

You have heard it all before. Slow down. Create space. Regulate your nervous system. And honestly it sounds beautiful. In theory. But you have children who need you, clients to show up for, a relationship to tend to, a business that does not pause because you need a reset. The advice that sounds poetic on a wellness account does not always translate to a Tuesday morning when the baby is crying, th...

You are so good at giving. Showing up, contributing, holding things together, making sure everyone around you is taken care of. It feels natural. Easy even. Safe. But receiving? That is a different thing entirely. Its likely you deflect compliments before they fully land. Or you find a way to give something back the moment someone does something for you. Maybe you stay busy so you never have to si...

I know youre not the kind of person to do things by halves. You're resourceful, methodical, and smart. You've been focussed on creating more space in your life for the things that matter to you. To create a life of abundance and success (your version obvs). So, you've done the courses, hired the coaches, read the books, listened the podcasts. You have shown up, done the work, followed the plan. Yo...

You do this work, and you will tolerate less sh*t...and thats a good thing, honestly. You reazlize you're less able to override the feeling that something is not quite "right". You become way more aware of the dynamics you have been accepting, the situations you have been tolerating, the version of yourself you have been showing up as just to keep the peace. And sometimes that clarity is uncomfort...

You look around at your life and you know it is good. You really do. The love is there, the stability is there, the things you worked hard for are there. And yet there is this pull toward something more. More space, more aliveness, more memories with your family, moreof yourself actually present in your own life. Then almost immediately... the guilt shows up. Who are you to want more when you alre...

Theres a weird disorientation that comes from looking around at your life, at the standards you used to hold, the version of yourself you used to be, the things that used to matter, and realising they just do not quite fit anymore. You have just quietly outgrown something. And the strange part is that outgrowing something you built your whole identity around can feel almost as unsettling as losing...

It is sooooo tiring wanting something so much, for so long. It exhausting. You have done everything right. You have shown up, you have tried, you have taken the steps and set the intentions and kept going even when it felt like nothing was moving. And underneath all of that effort there is this quiet but relentless grip. This sense of needing it to work, on a specific timeline, in a specific way....

Have you ever made a vision board, set a goal, built a whole plan around something... and felt a subtle resistance underneath it all? Like your body was not fully on board but you could not figure out why, so you kept going anyway. Maybe it looked right. Maybe it looked like exactly what success was supposed to look like. Maybe everyone around you seemed to want the same thing so you figured the r...

We all know how to do gratitude on paper don't we... You write the list, you say the things, you remind yourself how lucky you are. And something in you just stays flat. I have been there so many times. And for a while I thought it meant something was wrong with me. But here is what I have come to understand. There is a big difference between knowing you are grateful and actually feeling it in you...

Have you ever had the sense that you are somehow missing things that are right in front of you? You're trying. You're smart and capable. But you feel like you are living in a kind of tunnel. Functional, getting through it, but narrow. Like your vision has quietly shrunk without you noticing. That is not a you problem. That is what happens in a body that is carrying too much. When you are at capaci...

You have heard the words. Nervous system. Regulation. Capacity. Window of tolerance. And intellectually you get it. But it has stayed kind of abstract, like something you understand in theory but have never actually been able to locate in your own body. Nobody really describes what it feels like. What you are actually working toward. What the other side of all this work is supposed to feel like wh...

You have been here before. New goal, real motivation, genuine effort. You make the plan, you take the steps, you do the work. And for a while it feels like it is working. And then slowly, you find yourself back in the same feeling. Same pressure, same doubt, same felling of not quite getting there. And you cannot figure out what you are doing wrong. So you go back to the strategy. Maybe that needs...

You did not half heartedly try this stuff. You showed up. You invested time and money and genuine belief. You journaled, you did the courses, you repeated the affirmations, you watched the mindset content. You were not lazy about any of it. And something would shift, for a little while. A breakthrough here, a good few days there. But then you would find yourself back in the same feeling, wondering...

If you have ever found yourself thinking, nothing is actually wrong, so why am I so exhausted, this episode is for you. You know...the bone-deep kind of tired. The kind that sits underneath. For a lot of high functioning women (hi, its me), feeling got quietly set aside a long time ago. Why? Because there was always something more pressing going on. Something to handle, someone to show up for, a p...

You know it is fine. You can list all the reasons it is fine. You have done the journaling, you have reframed it, you have talked yourself through it more times than you can count. And yet something in you still does not feel okay. That gap between what you know and what you actually feel in your body is one of the most disorienting places to live. Because from the outside it looks like resistance...

Its not going to work. The quiet pressure you (or others) put on you to remain high vibe, optimistic and positive, while things could be feeling heavy, clunky, or uncertain. Look at the silver lining. Focus on the positive. Look on the bright side. These won't work for you while you're carrying so much, and holding yourself together. Instead whats going to happen, is youre going to feel pressure....

I've been thinking about something a lot lately. There's this really specific kind of frustration that happens when trying harder used to work… and now it just doesn't. Like you know how to be disciplined. You know how to show up. You've done hard things before. You've built things before. You're not new to effort. But lately it feels like you're putting in the same energy and getting half the mov...

From the outside, my life looked great... ...even looking at it myself, I could say it was great. I had just had a baby, I was running a successful business, I was living in a beautiful part of the world, It looked great. But truthfully, I was struggling big time. Yes. I had all that I had once wished for, but holding it all was exhausting me. I was going through the biggest identity shift I will...

"What do you want?" Seems like a simple question. Yet it feels so loaded. You thought you knew, until you realized that a lot of what is on your vision board is heavily influenced by the outside world.  So when we take away all that outside influence, what is the truth about what you want? "I don't know", was a common asnwer I would get from my clients. And thats normal for the woman who has felt...

For a long time, I thought insight was the answer. If I could just understand why I felt the way I did… If I could connect the dots, trace it back, name the pattern…then surely the emotion would loosen its grip. And sometimes it did. But what I noticed over time was this quiet heaviness that stayed. A kind of emotional residue. I could explain my reactions beautifully. I could articulate my trigge...

You are at CAPACITY. This is why the mainstream surface level manifestation techniques aren't working for you. It's not because you're failing or doing them wrong... ...you're just tired, overwhelmed and unable to hold anything else right now. You body is rejecting change, newness, and expansion...EVEN THOUGH its exactly what you want. You're full, with no room internally. So those manifestation t...

If you still feel reactive, it doesn't mean you're unhealed. It means youre emotionally full. You're holding onto a lot of stored emotion, unprocessed experiences and a nervous system that is flooded...no wonder you're reactive. You're holding your family together, tending to everyones needs, leading emotionally, trying to stay composed, managing the reactions of others, all while building a purpo...

Oh man, its taken me almost 5 months to do this, but I am finally sharing Baby V's birth story. This birth felt redemptive and magical. Im not really sure what to write in the caption to be honest, because theres SO much to tell. One thing I am veryyyyy excited to share is all about her name, my intuition throughout my whole pregnancy, and our reactions to finding out it was a girl not a boy. I kn...

Stop relying on others to get you moving!   After having so much amazing transformation in 6 months with a biz mentor, I thought that was it. I had made it.   But once the container was over, and I was flying solo in my business, things started to wobble…really wobble.   It felt like my business was headed for the ground.   What was going wrong? I was doing all the "right" things. I did everything...