Exposing Isolation

I certainly have a lot of things I could be doing, but which will I do? Am I to stay low, pray and let others take care of me or should I find a way, however seemingly impossible, to make a living so as to provide for myself and buy a house with my own effort? Many questions on today's episode.

If you've never heard of the Modern Masculinities Movement, this episode gives you your first taste. 

Today I talk about a site I built, ScentNeutrality.org, which serves to help my community go fragrance free. I also discuss why it is not totally appealing to move out of my grandparent's house. 

I have struggled with disordered eating since I was 14 years old. I am now 28 and I still don't know how to fix it, but damn am I trying!

I simply had to record this extra content today because I just healed some of my parts! In trauma work this means that I am a little bit more free. This is a very long, particularly unique episode. 

Welcome to week 4 of Exposing Isolation. I am so proud of where I've gotten to so far! This episode is about the day I shared with Thomas yesterday and how optimistic I am about the future.

I honestly don't know what is next for me and Thomas. Our latest round of plans has come to an "unfortunately this isn't working and isn't likely to work any time soon" end and will join her dozens of sisters on the pile of "close but no" ideas. Thank you all for being here to discover with us.

Easily the most challenging episode I have ever made. The muse of storytelling woke me at 3:00 AM and would not get off me until I got out of bed just after 4:00 AM to create this piece. This feels like true therapy through art. Now that I've exposed more of my past, I am optimistic that positive change is coming. 

There must be a very important lesson in here somewhere, right? Today I'm already quite lonely and it is barely past 7:00 AM, nothing very new or groundbreaking about that I'm afraid. 

Have I ever told you that I have all my senses in my dreams or that I am usually a captain of some army or league? It's never a dull night in my brain, listen for last night's adventure and a dream from a few years ago that was one of my all time favorites. * I have an upbeat attitude about the dreams today, but it can be very overwhelming to experience these narratives every night and someti...

Today has already been a good and productive day and it is only 10:00 AM. I feel like today I can relax into what is and not worry so much about what was or will be. I'm optimistic and enjoying the process. 

I have to let a lot go. First, I need to know what those things are which means thinking about some very unpleasant things. There is hope and I am feeling more up to the work than yesterday. 

Today is one of the challenging ones. I definitely cry a lot in this episode. 

Thank you and Happy Mothers Day!

Where will I put my energy, the little that I have, in order to create the best life that I can? Choosing how I want to feel seems to be a good first step in figuring this out.

Today I am consideration of my physical space and creating peace in my mind. As within, also without or some such wise concept. Google Memory Reconsolidation for more information.

What do I love? What do I want? How am I teaching Thomas to want things? Find out today.

Today I visited my doctor and made some next step decisions with her and Grandma Mary to try and help me get better. I really appreciate all the council I'm being gifted with these days. 

Happy Birthday Thomas! We might not have gotten along well all day, but we are certainly madly in love and trying our best. I hope you enjoyed the food. <3

My intentions for week 2 of Exposing Isolation.

I don't know where we will live next, but I am definitely thinking about it. 

I am optimistic that today will be a great day even though it is starting out with less than ideal physical symptoms. Today we will be moving the garden shed to the other side of the yard followed by a pizza party for Thomas's birthday. I was eating ginger ALL DAY!

It must be Spring! Today I am thinking about the life I want to pass on to those I get to help raise. 

Have you ever been listening to Exposing Isolation and wondered why I'm isolated? I'm not sure that I meant to, but in today's episode I talk about chemical fragrances and how my body reacts so negatively to them that I have to avoid them as much as I possibly can. 

What a beautiful day in the neighborhood! I'm feeling good today.