Exposing Isolation

I've graduated from therapy with Liz and am starting Animist Minister training today. What a great time it is!

Big pink bubbly wonderful shroom trip!

Why is this so difficult? TW: Emotional Abuse/Depression

This past week has been FULL of love and socializing. It was a real reset for me and I am happy to be exploring this next phase in my growth.

This episode is about having lunch with my mom and step dad and learning some very healing truths. They were also super supportive of my new diagnosis and everything I'm doing with my life right now. 

These are my end of trip thoughts from February 15, 2023. Definitely my most significant insights and shift so far. This also happened to be the 10 year anniversary of Thomas and I meeting.

Thoughts on what it means to be me. Deep yet uplifting episode. I like where this is headed. Take care of yourself.

Please note any and all trigger warnings before listening to this. This was deep, heavy and sad. Please take care of yourself. Know that I am doing well.

Today's episode is about my relationship with disaster and my nervous system dysfunction that keeps me from being able to do the work I feel called to do. Thank you for listening. 

Today I woke up in a mood after yet another rough night of intense dreams to then found out that not online is Russia actively attacking Ukraine but that Florida is passing a law to restrict students from accessing sex and gender information. Great day today all around. I also threw in a ted talk about climate change just to really get my blood boiling. Does this mean I'm finally going to start ha...

Will I be able to do this?!

Today I talk about taking a break from service, wanting to get into product and noticing the limits I still have while exploring what is possible. I'm leaning towards writing articles, product recommendations and working on my cookbook. 

Today's episode is about a breakthrough I'm having. I am noticing that the "break" I'm trying to take at the end of the day involving weed, sometimes alcohol, YouTube videos and snacks is really just setting me up for chaos the next day. I don't feel great, the house is a mess and I just start the cycle all over again to want another "break" again. Instead of denouncing this as just bad, I try to...

This morning I attended another day of Weaving Well Through Illness, a series put on by my teacher Quynn Red Mountain for a small group of us that are living with different, often chronic, health conditions. In today's circle we talked about grief and resentment as well as loss, disappointment and sadness associated with our experiences. I felt inspired to share with you a time where I experienced...

Today's episode is mostly an overview of where I am at, my current goals and mindset and well as a bit of backstory on how I got here. A longer episode than usual, I just really wanted to voice some of the changes I am experiencing in order to feel a bit more grounded in my decisions. 

Today I had the chance to try hypnotherapy for the first time. My facilitator was my new friend Kyle Ross and he led me through a deep dive into my subconscious where I relearned old lessons from a new perspective. Our goal was to explore what is holding me back from being my full self, speaking my mind and being the leader I truly want to be. In all that I also got the strong truth that my inner...

10 years ago my body shut down for the first time. 4 years later it would shut down again leaving me disabled, but this time I really had no idea what was going on or what to do about it. I thought I could just keep pushing through. This is that story. TW - I talk a bit about mental illness and disordered eating in this episode.

Just a down day.

Hello Humans! This episode is kind of all over the place, but it helped me process some of what I am thinking on this new moon. I'm kind of in transition between getting really excited about new ventures and connections while also being nervous about what will happen with old connections, mainly my family. I just want to stay motivated and feel good but there is still plenty of shadow to tend.&nbs...

Hello Humans! Rebecca here again. I am working on a "Starting Shadow Work" 4-week course and part of the curriculum will be finding a journaling option that works best for you. I haven't recorded an episode of Exposing Isolation for many months, but I always found them cathartic and would encourage others to give diary podcasting a try too if they are so inclined. I am going to try and do these mo...

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This week I talk about being on an SSRI, continuing to work on finding a new home, developing the systems to make Sapient Living a success and the latest Parts Work session with Thomas. Facilitated Awareness Session with Rebecca

This morning I met with a new therapist, this time one who is clearly trauma informed. It was a wholly new experience and I look forward to working more with her in the future. Also, Happy Inauguration Day!!

In today's episode I document what it feels like to be at the beginning of a depressive episode. It might be productive, but it isn't very pleasant.  S.2 E.1 Tending Trauma

In today's episode I give an update on priorities, projects and just where I am at right now. I want to focus on my health, but I also need to start making money or at least help Thomas make more so that we can have a home of our own one day.