DNA of a Divorce

DNA of a DIVORCE

Society EN ↓ 277 episodes

Not knowing is the worst! I'll chronicle my decision to divorce or not to divorce in daily diary entries. I'll need perspective, I don't know from where, or from who, but I know I'm MISSING SOMETHING all of the time. I hate that feeling... I’ll discuss everything that is leading up to my decision to stay or leave. I owe that to myself.

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DNA of a Divorce

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RR71 My Wife is now 2-Years Old! She Graduated 01.04.2023 9:50

RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Yikes...I found out there is another level. My wife has more growth potential than I thought.  She might be capable of understanding accountability and ownership. At least to a point.  Maybe I can treat her like a 2-Year-Old?  Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT...

Entry 61 will smith and jada pinkett smith my opinion and will smiths new book 30.03.2023 23:35

will smiths audio book WILL is worth listening to. He tells you WHY he did what he did and most of what he does there. so if "the slap" confused you, we are a ways away from it now. consider what you feel now. RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON *Only Listen...

Entry 60 were we ever on the same page NO BLAME Finding THE PAGE 27.03.2023 27:19

that a HUGE Ephiphany RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON *Only Listen if you want to Gauge how angry you or someone you might have experienced is or was.* Instagram : @divorcediariespodcast Twitter : @divorcediaries2 Patreon YouTube  Anchor  Spotif...

Entry 59 Swallowing the RED PILL is very difficult 23.03.2023 25:59

it's like i'm CHOKING on the damn thing RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON *Only Listen if you want to Gauge how angry you or someone you might have experienced is or was.* Instagram : @divorcediariespodcast Twitter : @divorcediaries2 Patreon YouTube  A...

Entry 58 I am and WAS so WRAPPED UP IN MY WIFE Crippling dependence and INFATUATION 20.03.2023 19:25

INDEPENDENCE is a skill, and everyone must practice it. RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON *Only Listen if you want to Gauge how angry you or someone you might have experienced is or was.* Instagram : @divorcediariespodcast Twitter : @divorcediaries2 Patreon...

Entry 57 Lets talk about VOWS and SEX 16.03.2023 15:18

or maybe worded better....NEEDS and WANTS RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON *Only Listen if you want to Gauge how angry you or someone you might have experienced is or was.* Instagram : @divorcediariespodcast Twitter : @divorcediaries2 Patreon YouTube ...

Entry 56 MY THERAPIST and I DO NOT AGREE 13.03.2023 12:34

it's ok to maybe HOLD a position that is different from your therapist RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON *Only Listen if you want to Gauge how angry you or someone you might have experienced is or was.* Instagram : @divorcediariespodcast Twitter : @divorced...

Entry 55 BIG PROBLEM Therapy is WORKING for ME I learned a new techniqe from my therapist 09.03.2023 29:28

i wonder if there was a BELT SYSTEM in therapy what would I have? RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON *Only Listen if you want to Gauge how angry you or someone you might have experienced is or was.* Instagram : @divorcediariespodcast Twitter : @divorcediarie...

Entry 54 Someone reached out to me inspite of my horrible episodes that are NO LONGER PUBLIC 06.03.2023 19:10

wow....this was unexpected RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON *Only Listen if you want to Gauge how angry you or someone you might have experienced is or was.* Instagram : @divorcediariespodcast Twitter : @divorcediaries2 Patreon YouTube  Anchor  S...

RR70 It's all MY FAULT & Those are the facts. 04.03.2023 26:57

RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe WHO I'm married to WHY my marriage is failing WHERE I went wrong WHAT I do to sabotage myself and others WHEN I changed Is all my OWN DOING - just OWN IT.  Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON *Only Listen if you want to Gauge how angry you or someone you...

RR69 Santa Claus isn't real & Everyone Lies 04.03.2023 16:36

RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe There's fact and fiction. Lies and truths.  We argue with both, and we do both. It's ok, just acknowledge it.  The best questions to ask are, what fictions to I 'believe in'? What Facts make me uncomfortable? What lies do I support and why? What truths do I avoid and why? Once I understood t...

RR68 Fixing my mistakes, and not focusing on my wife's flaws 04.03.2023 34:25

RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Self-Awareness INTROSPECTION OWNERSHIP ACCOUNTABILITY Are all qualities that are lost in my wife. It's made BOTH our lives so much more difficult.   Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON *Only Listen if you want to Gauge how angry you or someone you m...

RR67 The 1-Year-Old Experiment Continues 04.03.2023 31:31

RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe The tried and true path of implementation. It's a hard path to stay on and live within. Treating another adult as a child still seems, CRUEL. I do not feel good knowing that I am strategical, manipulating my wife, based on what I feel she's capable of.  I do LIKE knowing that my wife has maturity...

RR66 Happier Alone, Poker, Work Harder 04.03.2023 27:36

RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe What does alone mean to me, as it relates to marriage? Well, I feel like I'm better alone, but I still NEED an intimate partner.  I am better alone, I work, I diary, I consume podcasts, I pursue more work endeavors, I ALSO NEED someone to have breakfast with, and to be there when I come up for ai...

RR65 Why did I do what I did #badhusband 04.03.2023 22:37

RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe I was just NOT what I should have been to her. The state of this marriage is NOT ALL HER FAULT.  That would be unfair to put ALL of our PROBLEMS on 1 person. Looking back, understanding who I was vs. who I am now is a very important step in my self-awareness journey. Once you go down the rabbit h...

RR64 Marriage was a BAD DEAL for me... 04.03.2023 24:59

RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe It may not, JUST KIDDING, be a bad deal for you. But marriage was just not a good thing for me.  I was young, there were sunk costs I weighed. I couldn't escape the accountability I felt by making a child as a young teenager.  Why should my son have to pay for my errors in judgement. &n...

RR63 BAD Fathers Matter & I as a husband DO NOT MATTER to my wife. 04.03.2023 45:29

RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe The reality is, I don't matter to my wife as much as I thought I did. I was arrogant. I thought I was special. I thought I was worth it, or at least something.  TO MY WIFE It's a hard, and large pill to swallow. Not being wanted, respected, or ultimately loved.  That's my matrimony. It feels...

RR62 SHE CHEATED...and I let her move back into the house! 04.03.2023 34:59

RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Probably one of the biggest mistakes I made, was allowing her to move back in. She CHEATED, SHE LEFT, and I 'let her' come back home. Seriously, now where we are is far worse than before she ever cheated. SUNK COSTS told me I should try to repair and salvage what we were, or could have been. MISTAKES...

RR61 Is Initiave possible in my wife? 04.03.2023 51:58

RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe I've got to accept the reality that any FORWARD momentum for our family will come from the initiative I take.  That's ok. I wish I'd known this before we got married. I wouldn't have asked my wife to DO ANYTHING. It was unfair of me to try and "get my wife" to do anything. That's really difficult...

Entry 53 unpacking my traumas with my therapist | Dear Dad... 02.03.2023 19:46

we all have traumas confronting them honestly, it's very helpful, but HARD RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON *Only Listen if you want to Gauge how angry you or someone you might have experienced is or was.* Instagram : @divorcediariespodcast Twitter : @divo...

Entry 52 I wasn't a priority to anyone...at least IN MY MIND 27.02.2023 13:39

i guess i had to accept another reality. it's ok. better to be alone in the light i guess... RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON *Only Listen if you want to Gauge how angry you or someone you might have experienced is or was.* Instagram : @divorcediariespodca...

Entry 51 my insecurities were OUT-OF-CONTROL AGAIN.mov 23.02.2023 14:39

Losing frame is a really bad thing! RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON *Only Listen if you want to Gauge how angry you or someone you might have experienced is or was.* Instagram : @divorcediariespodcast Twitter : @divorcediaries2 Patreon YouTube  Ancho...

Entry 50 corporal punishment 20.02.2023 15:54

I think it's safe for me go give my opinion on this...I was spanked and it didn't hurt me, but..... RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON *Only Listen if you want to Gauge how angry you or someone you might have experienced is or was.* Instagram : @divorcediari...

Entry 49 this is a catastrophe of excellent proportions and i messed up AGAIN 16.02.2023 15:39

This marriage IS A CATASTROPHE, and yes I messed up again RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON *Only Listen if you want to Gauge how angry you or someone you might have experienced is or was.* Instagram : @divorcediariespodcast Twitter : @divorcediaries2 Patre...

Entry 48 My wife's birthday was yesterday she will always be special to me 13.02.2023 25:40

we HAD something special. that's MY TRUTH. RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON *Only Listen if you want to Gauge how angry you or someone you might have experienced is or was.* Instagram : @divorcediariespodcast Twitter : @divorcediaries2 Patreon YouTube&nbsp...