DNA of a DIVORCE

sometimes people are still alive but you have to figuratively remove them in the form of a REAL FUNERAL in your mind. You must mourn the living at times. Also, a long courtship of many therapists, might be required to find THE ONE.  I wish i'd done that before getting married. i should have dated to figure out what worked for me BEFORE i married her. RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible...

The roller coaster of emotions is very real...I don't think I want her back do I? RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON *Only Listen if you want to Gauge how angry you or someone you might have experienced is or was.* Instagram : @divorcediariespodcast Twitter...

RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe I'm not sure what my wife thinks should happen if she keeps getting into more debt. She blames me for her debt. There are things she says that I did that pushed her to get into more debt. But wait...Did I force you to have over $3,000 in Victorias Secret Credit Card debt? I'm not sure that I own a bra...

RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe They Just do, especially when they come from your wife.  Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON *Only Listen if you want to Gauge how angry you or someone you might have experienced is or was.* Instagram : @divorcediariespodcast Twitter : @divorcediaries2 P...

RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe I'm not fully sure my wife is IN, or invested. I'll elaborate by saying, that MY VERSION of IN, most likely doesn't match hers.  It seems like she feels she's a winner, or good wife by simply being married to me. There isn't much of a sense to me that my wife would actually want to receive kudos...

RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe The one year old experiment is still continuing. What is the 1-yr old experiment anyway? This is where I try my best to NOT hold my wife accountable, or ask that she take extreme ownership. When the 1-yr old drops a glass, you don't scold them or make them clean it up. you simply remove them from the...

RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe There's been a lot of consistent complaining. It really kills any positive vibes that may exist between us. We really need to spare the children this kind of turmoil.    Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON *Only Listen if you want to Gauge how angry...

RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe I cannot continue to be a know-it-all. I've got to learn to stay in my lane  Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON *Only Listen if you want to Gauge how angry you or someone you might have experienced is or was.* Instagram : @divorcediariespodcast Twitter...

RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe I've got to remember she's a 1-year old mentally. So, asking her to understand accountability would be like asking a 1-year-old to do my taxes!  I'm frustrated by it all, because my wife IS an ADULT. She also has the capacity to understand.  Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO N...

RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Can we stay on track...? Meh probably not.  I felt better, but maybe I'm forgetting how $#!T things are!  Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON *Only Listen if you want to Gauge how angry you or someone you might have experienced is or was.* Instagram...

RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe I'm not being steadfast enough. Patient enough. Focused enough. Chant with me:  Treat my wife like a 1-year old. Treat my wife like a 1-year old. Treat my wife like a 1-year old. Treat my wife like a 1-year old.  Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON...

RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe There must be an information processing malfunction. Like we are robots or something.  It's like I understand 1 thing and my wife understands something totally different or unrelated.  Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON *Only Listen if you want to...

I've not been the best man, husband, father, or anything else for that matter. I'm trying my best though. Seriously, therapy, diet, yoga, and anything else I can think to try to help REALLY GROW is what I'll do.  RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON *Only...

This is the most childish thing I've ever done. I'm literally a bad guy when I do this to my loved ones.   I've done it a lot. I've pushed people away, and I've hurt them. this is one of my biggest flaws. I hope to keep working through this in my therapy sessions.  RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Subscribe Below: The...

I've always 'felt like' a choice.  I've always felt like, "choose me" and I never really knew why.   Until she said that, "she always felt like she had to make a choice"  between people, and things, etc. I get it now. and i also understand myself better.   I WANT AND NEED TO BE NUMBER 1  RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcedia...

We all throw around the term narcissist, bipolar, crazy, psychotic, or manic.   Maybe we (non-professionals) shouldn't try and diagnose others and their mental states. I did that in the past, but I've got my own shit to deal with. Maybe we all should just do that.  RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Subscribe Below: The...

Detaching from her, and attaching to something new...nothingness. It's been hard.  RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON *Only Listen if you want to Gauge how angry you or someone you might have experienced is or was.* Instagram : @divorcediariespodcast Tw...

you may need some scrap paper to do your own want vs. need list.   Let's make my list together in this entry. It's awesome, I wish I'd made this list long ago. I'd probably be happily married to my wife. #mistakesweremade  RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podc...

Man we ebb and flow through our emotions, I know I did. I can be getting hurt, but I remember the fun we had 10 years ago. I don't ever think about what someone did for me in the past. I've just been an unfair person. I shouldn't try to put people in boxes. Especially not my wife or children.  RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Su...

Yeah a peek behind the curtain that created my F*cked UP @$$  RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON *Only Listen if you want to Gauge how angry you or someone you might have experienced is or was.* Instagram : @divorcediariespodcast Twitter : @divorcediari...

RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe There's a loop that my wife lives within, and I'm outside of it.  Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON *Only Listen if you want to Gauge how angry you or someone you might have experienced is or was.* Instagram : @divorcediariespodcast Twitter : @divorced...

RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Mild success from yesterday's diary entry, so I'm continuing.  My wife is unable to be accountable, and take ownership of her actions.  When I considered who else in the world responds to EVERYTHING in this way, I considered children. Specifically, 1 year old children.  So I'm trying th...

RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe This begins day 1 of treating my wife like a 1-year old. I'll explain the thought process in this diary entry. It's bad, but I think it's a necessary realization that I feel I have come to regarding communicating. We can't keep going on like this.  If I'm right, this could be a game-changer. Whet...

RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Being gaslit is just uncomfortable. It's not fun when someone Gaslights you: Gaslighting is a form of psychological manipulation in which a person or a group covertly sows seeds of doubt in a targeted individual or group, making them question their own memory, perception, or judgment. If you didn't kn...

RED PILL RAGED Episodes | only accessible here: https://anchor.fm/divorcediariespodcast/subscribe Living Paycheck to Paycheck sucks. A lot of us have been there and it's very very uncomfortable.  Downright SUCKS!  Subscribe Below: The TOTALLY RED PILLED RAGED DO NOT REPEAT Podcast on PATREON *Only Listen if you want to Gauge how angry you or someone you might have experienced is or was.*...