Dissociated

Send us Fan Mail Season 2 | Episode 1 Through Other Eyes: Understanding the Patterns We Didn’t Choose Featuring Amanda Deverich, LMFT Episode Description Season 2 begins with a conversation that changes the way we think about trauma. For so many of us, we know something doesn’t feel right. We repeat the same relationship patterns, struggle to trust, shut down during conflict, or wonder why we reac...

Send us Fan Mail After a period of silence, I’m returning to Dissociated with honesty about why I disappeared… and where we’re going next. In this episode, I reflect on the emotional impact of sharing my story publicly after receiving painful backlash from my mother, who called me a liar after listening to Season 1. I talk about what that did to my nervous system, the fear many trauma survivors ca...

Send us Fan Mail On the outside, everything looked fine. I was working, going to school, building relationships, and following the path I thought I was supposed to take. I was doing what was expected of me… and doing it well.  But internally, I was disconnected. In this episode, I share what it looked like to move through the beginning of adulthood while dissociated—functioning, achieving, and sho...

Send us Fan Mail Why didn’t you leave? Why didn’t you tell someone? Why did you keep the peace? These are the questions survivors hear every day. But they assume something that isn’t true — that leaving is simple, and that telling the truth doesn’t come at a cost. In this episode, I’m unpacking the reality behind those questions. Because when abuse happens inside a family, the choice is rarely jus...

Send us Fan Mail In this episode, I revisit the season after dissociation became my survival strategy and share a layer I hadn’t spoken about before — the moment I stopped only enduring and started pleading. I talk about trying to protect my siblings, parsing language for safety, and the quiet shift that happened when I realized fear didn’t belong to me alone. I share what it looked like to leave...

Send us Fan Mail In this episode, the abuse reaches its most relentless form. Access expands. Protection thins. Fear no longer comes in spikes — it becomes constant. This is the season when summer stopped being a break and became exposure. When responsibility became a trap. When survival stopped feeling temporary and started feeling permanent. And this is where something inside me changed. At the...

Send us Fan Mail In this episode, I continue the childhood timeline and move into the middle years — a period where what had already begun didn’t stop, but quietly adapted. As my body changed and my awareness grew, the harm reshaped itself around me. Boundaries were crossed more frequently, silence became a survival strategy, and daily life continued on the surface while something very different w...

Send us Fan Mail In this episode, I return to my childhood timeline during a period when grooming intensified and survival became something my body learned before my mind could name it. I share how gradual boundary shifts, confusion, and manipulation trained compliance and silence — and how dissociation allowed me to live two lives at once: one that looked normal, and one that existed in fear. CON...

Send us Fan Mail Before returning to the childhood timeline, this episode slows down to explain what was happening inside me while the abuse was unfolding — how my body and brain adapted to survive experiences I couldn’t control. We explore survival responses like freezing, people-pleasing, hypervigilance, hyper-independence, and the impact these patterns had on my adult relationships, work, and a...

Send us Fan Mail Content Warning: This episode discusses child sexual abuse and its long-term impacts. Please take care while listening. In Episode 2 of Dissociated , Sheryl takes listeners back to the beginning — before she had language for what was happening, before silence became survival. This episode explores the world of her early childhood: the man who entered her family with a heroic story...

Send us Fan Mail Content Warning: This episode discusses child sexual abuse and its long-term impacts. Please take care while listening. Silence was survival — until the day it wasn’t. In this emotional and deeply honest opening episode, Sheryl shares the moment her decades of silence finally shattered. A single phone call from her sister pulled the truth to the surface, revealing that the abuse S...

Send us Fan Mail There was a time when silence was survival. But silence doesn’t last forever. Dissociated — Breaking Silence. Building Joy. is the story of truth, resilience, and the beauty that comes after breaking free. Host Sheryl Brown shares her journey of surviving childhood sexual abuse, finding her voice decades later, and learning that joy can still exist through healing. These are conve...