Disruptor Frequency

I put my hand on a tree in the bush one day and I saw its face. So then I did it to every tree I walked past, and every single one was different, a young one, an old one, three brothers. My first thought was that I had made the whole thing up, because of course it was. Stuff like that starts turning up once your language is running, and this one is about what else it can do. Clearing your own fiel...

Pick up anything that feels solid, a pen, a water bottle, your own hand, and zoom in far enough and it stops being solid. It is all moving. It is all energy. Once you have got that, everything else follows on its own. You are a body living in a 3D world, a mind holding onto everything you were ever told, and a soul that is pure frequency and already connected to every other thing out there. Light...

Make the weird noises, draw the squiggles, move your hands around in the car, and do all of it before you decide whether it counts, because the deciding is the bit that shuts it down. I also talk about protection in this one and why I use none of it. If you are zipping yourself into a bubble every morning to keep the baddies out, you are handing the baddies your attention, and whatever we give att...

You sound like an idiot. That is the voice, and there is not one version of it I have not already had in my own head. It is the biggest thing that will keep your light language away from you, which is why I put the emotional work first. Underneath that work sit all the rules we were handed as facts, finish school, work hard for money, get married, buy a house. None of it is true and all of it is s...

When I first started, what came out of my pen looked like a two year old had got hold of the paper. I had pages and pages of it and I was too embarrassed to send a single one of them to the woman who taught me, because I was certain she would laugh at me. It was light language the whole time. That is the thing nobody tells you. The scribble is it. This one goes through all the forms it turns up in...

Grief is nothing like any other emotion. For me it works like a vortex. It starts off slow and then it drags in everything else it can reach until the money and the relationships and the kids and a dead computer all land on you at once and your whole life looks like it is falling apart. I was sitting right in the middle of one of those when I found the belief underneath it. Holding onto the grief...

I see everything as strands of moving colour, and every single version of a life is already running in there somewhere. The version of me with a brand new car exists over there right now. So the job was never building the thing. The job is pulling that strand closer, and what sits between you and it is almost always a money belief or a worthiness one. Before we get anywhere near that I take you ou...

There is no talking in this one at all. I set the intention around your highest timeline and let whatever wanted to come through come through, so what you have got is five minutes of transmission and nothing else. No teaching, nothing to follow along with. Put it on, let it run, and take whatever your body wants to take from it. These episodes come from my archive. Years of lives, courses and conv...

I gave up trying to prove any of this a long time ago. My whole thing now runs the other way. If you can disprove it, I will listen, and until then I am going to keep going. This one is the questions people asked me after part one. How do you know if you are doing it right. Do you need to be activated. Why does everybody sound different. And the one I never expected to be answering, what happens w...

I was driving the kids to school with music on when my hand started moving all by itself. I was so excited, and the second I got excited about it, it stopped. That is how it went for a long time. I would get a taste of something, grab at it, and lose it. This is the whole story of how my light language arrived. Manifestation and money first, because I thought money was going to fix everything, the...

We decide within seconds how we feel about a person and almost none of it is about them. It is about what we were shown growing up, what got called good and what got called wrong, and how much of that we swallowed without ever questioning it. Then you have one proper conversation with somebody and the whole thing rearranges itself, and suddenly they look completely different to you. I used to thin...

Duality and non duality are two words I struggled with for the longest time. We get told our whole lives that this is just how it is, that there is happy and there is sad, the good stuff and the bad stuff, the wedding and the funeral, and we just have to ride it out. But what if they are the same thing. Hold up a pen. One end is your happy, the other end is your sad, and it is still just a pen. Th...

A blue pottery box. A newspaper clipping of a boy from a movie. A twelve year old who thought she had found a private corner of herself and hidden it somewhere safe. The moment a parent opened that box and turned it into a joke, three things happened at once. The private space was taken. The feeling was mocked. And a quiet message landed: you are not enough for what you want. To the adult in the r...

A cyclone. A prison relocation. Nine people in a room built for six. Blocked toilets, a power outage, no airflow, food shortages, and the kind of noise that makes sleep feel like a negotiation. There is a point in an experience like that where the environment has taken almost everything considered standard. What remains is the question of who you are when there is nothing comfortable left to hide...

There are events that do not announce themselves as defining. They happen, and then life continues, and the pattern they created moves quietly underneath everything that follows. You do not see it while you are living it. You only see it later, when you are far enough from it to look back and trace the line. This is one of those events. A moment at the end of adolescence, before adulthood had prop...

The fire was raging from a deep, dark pit. The heat was heavy, the air uneasy. From the darkness something struck straight into fear, made blood curdle on impact. The body froze. Everything once believed about the self fell away. What remained was the essence of who was not there, and the fear that had been the reason for it. Fear without a face is the hardest kind to move through. It exists as a...

I always use my life experiences as a tool. I want to make sure that I have not wasted my life by experiencing things with no meaning. I have to give everything a story. Especially when things are big and devastating like losing my husband. Whilst this is not how I created this Archetype, this was one of the biggest experiences I have had that catapulted my life into a direction that I did not see...

It's hard to look inward when you don't have to. No one wants to look at the painful or uncomfortable moments. Reflecting on things that have happened can only bring you back to a moment that did not feel good. But if we look at these as a guide, not a judgment, we can use these experiences to help us grow. This audio introduces the Bone Shaker, my archetype for Alchemy. Something that I b...

There are many parts of my life that I am not proud of. Moments were many would not dare to share because of the shame or embarrassment that surrounds them. But what if those moments are the ones that you had to go through in order to become something different. The moments that gave you an experience that allowed you to finally see what you weren't but what you could be. I have used all of my...

If the trajectory of your life is not moving in the way you want it to, you need to make a change. And if you don't life may make it happen for you instead. We can feel it, we see it and we know that there is always something nagging at us that is not right. We can ignore it for a little while, but it gets louder and more persistent. Sometimes you may even get a preview of what's coming, y...

I giggle about this story, even as I tell it, but honestly this story has two sides. There is the story of the teen who wants to get bragging rights by having boys at her house, but then there's the overprotective father who takes his role on way too seriously. And it's only as an adult now I can look back and see how our childhood really was and why were there no consequences. If the inte...

FOUNDATION | Segment 3, The Story : Beliefs / Collective / History You cannot hold a belief in place without a story. Whether it is yours, or if it was given to you or if it something you believe from history. It needs a story to hold it together. When you realise that you don't have to hold onto beliefs and you start seeing where they came from, you can make a conscious choice to decide if yo...

FOUNDATION | Segment 2, The Perspective : In/Out, One Particle, EVF How I view the existence around me on 3 different levels. The zoomed out way of seeing our existence even bigger that I could ever imagine, and seeing myself as the everything whilst being an energetic being in this 3D reality. I am sharing how I see and feel and embody all of these concepts together. This is Segment 2, The Perspe...

FOUNDATION | Segment 1, The Opening : Grief / Ascension / Undoing These are the 3 key pieces that propelled my personal growth into everything that I am and that I know right now. The experience of becoming a widow, the understanding and opening of the whole ascension idea and realising that there was a level of undoing that needed to happen in order to facilitate any further growth in both of tho...

Foundation | The Origin - Introduction To A 6 Segment Series On How I Assemble My Construct When you receive enough information from a variety of sources, you realise how many perspectives there really is. How many have you seen and how many can you see truth in? My journey through grief, spirituality and operating inside the digital content creation space, has opened my eyes to a plethora of info...