Diary of a Mad Black Man

What's up y'all, im back with another diary entry! This is the first of a 3 part episode all about my experience with Podcast Movement 2021.  It was a lot for me personally to attend the worlds biggest podcast conference this year. Many obstacles and challenges presented themselves, especially in the week prior to going; but I managed to go, have  great time and experience a conference t...

What's World! Back Again with a lil reflecky fleck (reflection) lol I found this IG account called @selfcareisanecessity_ and it had some really dope posts I like! 1 - Forcing Positivity is Toxic & 2 - 9 things to remember about yourself. These were phenomenal and really dope to read and reflect on. I hope this diary entry adds some positive energy to your life; not by force tho :)  -- ww...

Hey y'all, this was a quick and impulsive diary entry! I am madd hype about my new mic I recently purchased! It actually came as a kit with a Mic, boom stand and headphone! Although I only needed new headphones, I allowed myself to go ahead and buy everything because I wanted to! And it made me feel good. So this episode is just a quick diary entry. I actually do these quite often but I went into...

In this 2 part diary entry I am joined by Zen J Jackson, a content creator, self-published author, illustrator, graphic designer, film producer, actor, mural artist, and storytelling coach. He is also a father of 3 and a plant based eater. We met at Black Writers Weekend here in Atlanta and he is the Creator of Three Bunny Books is a book publishing platform, Blue Cocoon Films produces movies and...

In this 2 part diary entry I am joined by Zen J Jackson, a content creator, self-published author, illustrator, graphic designer, film producer, actor, mural artist, and storytelling coach. He is also a father of 3 and a plant based eater. We met at Black Writers Weekend here in Atlanta and he is the Creator of Three Bunny Books is a book publishing platform, Blue Cocoon Films produces movies and...

*clears throat* soooo this diary entry is one of my favorites for sure! The first STUDIO RECORDED diary entry! I am honored to have shared space with Christina and Malon, guest in this diary entry; both of these women amazing people I am blessed to have met. In this diary entry we speak about our experiences participating in a documentary about sexual assault and non-consensual sex. This episode s...

*clears throat* soooo this diary entry is one of my favorites for sure! The first STUDIO RECORDED diary entry!  I am honored to have shared space with Christina and Malon, guest in this diary entry; both of these women amazing people I am blessed to have met.  In this diary entry we speak about our experiences participating in a documentary about sexual assault and non-consensual sex. Th...

In this 2 part diary entry, I had the pleasure of being joined by Mathew Reynolds. From the first time we met, we had an instant connections, especially as I listened to him speak about race. I knew from that moment, I had to have him share more of his story on the podcast! We have a free flowing conversation that covers many topics from, Internalized racial oppressions, white supremacy, sexuality...

In this 2 part diary entry, I had the pleasure of being joined by Mathew Reynolds. From the first time we met, we had an instant connections, especially as I listened to him speak about race. I knew from that moment, I had to have him share more of his story on the podcast! We have a free flowing conversation that covers many topics from, Internalized racial oppressions, white supremacy, sexuality...

This diary entry is a two part entry; Be sure you check out both episodes! I have the pleasure of having Janell, she is a Social Worker & Life Coach; also host of The JS Self Care Mind Body & Soul Podcast!! In this diary entry, we talk about her journey to self care, self love and she offers some advice to others on a similar journey. I am beyond excited to finally let you all in on this d...

This diary entry is a two part entry; Be sure you check out both episodes! I have the pleasure of having Janell, she is a Social Worker & Life Coach; also host of The JS Self Care Mind Body & Soul Podcast!! In this diary entry, we talk about her journey to self care, self love and she offers some advice to others on a similar journey. I am beyond excited to finally let you all in on this d...

In the diary entry, we have Kay Woods, an up and coming film producer, CEO and owner of RayneDrop Production Company from Little Rock, Arkansas. Kay also does behind the scenes work for 3 Guys No Lies Podcast!   In this episode, we discuss her film & her life story. She grew up with my mother and grandma, she has experienced her own challenges with mental which led her to create her film...

We are back with another episode with our sponsor, Monica, one of the owners fo Canna Comforts.  Focused on bringing all natural products to be an alternative to prescription drugs, 2020 was a year that literally stopped the world. In this episode, me and Monica catch up & discuss where the business is and how COVID-19 impacted the cannabis industry.  The economic landscape is comple...

U;Good is a mental health app that allows you to check in with your friends, family or any contact you may have in your phone. Joining me in this diary entry is Evans (@new_jerz_e), one of the creators behind this innovate app; the goal was to find a way to a way to make an impact on the global mental health crisis we are all facing. Check out more at ugood.app Evans is an Attorney and a Community...

AND WE ARE BACK WITH PART TEEEWWWW!!!! In case you decide to skip part 1 (which I don't understand why but Issa free world!) the description of the show is at the bottom. I won't hold you too long in the description for PART 1 - However do 2 things for me please... 1 - Make sure you check out part 1, Diary entry 103, THIS IS PART 2! 2 - Be sure you get a copy of Keisha's Book --> http://www.kei...

I told myself that today was the day! I am not going to bed until I release this episode! In this diary entry, I am going by Mental Health Therapist and Published Author, Keisha Barnes. Keisha's book, "Where's Your Tank," completely changed my life and how I view self care. The analogy behind the book is really a comparison to a gas tank. Where is your tank for YOU? Half, quarter tank? Or are you...

In this diary entry, I have a special guest, Zel, who is the founder and creator of the streetwear clothing brand called LONE N DISASTER. Born in Denver Colorado, he had what he describes as a “typical rough childhood, like other colored kids.” He experienced the loss of my mother at the age of 9 due to gun violence and his father was in and out of jail most of his life. Despite all odds, this you...

I'm BACK B*TCHES!!! LOL JK nah but for real, I am very excited to be back recording and publishing episodes. Season 5 of Diary of a Mad Black Man is going to be the the longest running season ever! This season will mostly have exceptional guest who are in the space of raising awareness for mental health and being active in ending stigma and creating support for those who have mental health and wel...

WHAT A DAY TO BE ALIVE! THE 100th episode of Diary of a Mad Black MAN!!!! AHH!! What a journey this has been! Thank you to everyone who has supported my podcast journey up to this point! I am very happy and blessed at the healing podcasting has brought to my life. I am thankful for my tribe I have found since starting this journey! It is only going to get better from here because of the love and s...

This diary entry is one of the few from around this time that I did not have to do much editing to. I was very happy with the space that I was in. I was on an extreme high and I was filled with joy. To meet so many amazing people through social media, restored my faith in humanity and social media itself.  I hope you will begin to use social media for good and be intentional with how it is utilize...

Am I Bipolar? After listening to a live video that was very powerful live on IG, I revisiting this idea of what type of mental illness I may be challenged with. However, in present day, I am confident knowing I am the healthiest mentally than I have ever been in my adult life. I find solitude in my journey with people who have supported me to this point. The idea that I am not sure what "kind of i...

Another night not able to sleep. Anxiety was high and I think I was too. But These thoughts reflect what is happening in my head. It is a reflection of the journey I have come down and it highlights where I was struggling. To anyone who may be challenged with mental wellness, know that you can overcome it. I encourage you to find a safe protected space, get into therapy and focus on loving yo...

**Trigger Warning** This episode contains thoughts of suicide, irrational thoughts and shows a moment in my life where I was challenges with mental wellness. In this episode, I detail why I was not want to live anymore and causing suicidal ideation. I have struggled with my sexuality, family relationships and mental illness for some time now. I hope you find this and decide not to give up. I hope...

Isolated with Depression, Anxiety and Loneliness  July 20th 2020 is a day I was having sucidal ideation. Triggered, I jumped on the mic to let it out. This happened in the day time, of that day. It started with watching someone I admire, Amanda Seals, be vulnerable and share her journey with mental health. It was so moving to see someone I view as a strong pillar of the black community,...

I woke up battling suicidal ideation on July 12th, 2020. Some of the reasons for why I was feeling the way I was is because I missed teaching, I was struggling financially, almost homeless living in a hotel. This was in the midst of the height of the pandemic, I was, STILL AM, tired of racism and white supremacy; I can now say I think I was struggling with sex addiction and how I was behaving with...