Diary Of A Codependent Love Addict

The theme of this episode came from an 80's hip hop/rap group, Houdini, and I thought it would bring back some nostalgia. The title is appropriate for today's podcast. Many of the people mentioned in the podcast dhe person that I am today. They kept me out of trouble and took pity on a young boy who had very little self-esteem.

When I was a child andheard my name called in a specific way, I had the feeling that I was in trouble. I felt this way for the longest time, even when I didn't have a reason to be. Now as an adult, I'm tapping into why I get those scared and insecure feelings whenever my name is called.

today's episode is about how I Fall In Love quickly only to regret later on. I one time while I was in high school met up with a new girl, and asked her out to lunch numerous times. she broke down and said yes. let's just say our time having lunch together wasn't all it was cracked up to be.

This episode talks about how I became a codependent love addict. Helen was an alcoholic who was angry at herself for getting pregnant by a man who had no desire to take care of a child. As I got older, I became a punching bag for Helen's regrets. The more I sought her approval, the angrier she became. Lots of abandonment issues soon developed. When Helen died in 1986, I transferred my codependency...

Today's episode is about gratitude, and how things can just happen out of nowhere. today's shout out goes to a loyal fan named Michelle. Michelle emailed me recently to let me know how much she enjoys listening to my podcast. Michelle took things one step further by joining me in a 12-step meeting that I go to on a regular basis. Being able to meet someone who listens to my podcast meant a lot to...

Today's episode focuses on how I am learning to re-parent it myself. It's been a long journey, but with persistence, I've been able to make a lot of improvements.

Welcome to another year! What are your goals and visions for the new year?

The time is the early 70's. I'll lose my best friend to the military, but find another friend through a neighbor.

Every end has a beginning. I'll talk about how the death of my mother (Helen) started the road to recovery.

My recovery changes week to week. But the one thing that is a constant is that I'm aware of my recovery. My recovery is on 24 hours a day. In this current episode, I talked about my recovery, and how it's affecting me currently.

Overtime I've had some messed up relationships. A majority of what I've learned I've learned through mass media, and friends. I'm finally in a relationship that has some substance, and I'm going to be discussing that in this episode.

The month of June was busy, and I apologize for not having an episode. Last week I contracted Covid, and it almost sent me on a tailspin. Luckily my mind recovered, and has me on the path to good health.

A lot can happen in 30 days. During the time between my last podcast and today, My girlfriend had to put her dog down, and the companion dog lost it's eyesight and may need to be put down as well. in between this, my best friend's dad passed away. At some point, I needed to take time to reflect not only on others, but with myself. reflection can be powerful and positive enlightenment tools if used...

I'm so sorry that I left a lot of you hanging. I've had a lot going on the past few weeks. I helped out my daughter with some mental health issues, and it made me realize that I hadn't touched on things that have affected me recently. In a previous podcast I talked about how sometimes people who have had issues, affects the people that we become. This episode I'll talk about how my daughter had a...

Before going to 12 step programs I thought that my story was unique and I was the only person who had things that happened to them. Once I started going to 12 step programs, I realized that other people have the same story as I did.

I grew up without any guys guiding me. I often wondered how different my life could have been, had I found men who could have mentored me. It's only been a few years that I've found men (Both real and fictional) that I could draw from.

I can remember saying to myself as a child why are we poor the fact was I was not poor at all as children we say things like this because we feel like we have control over the situation I had no access to money but my mother did this poor mentality as a child led me to continue the same patterns as an adult in today's episode of Diary of a codependent love addict you'll hear how I've learned how t...

Valentine's day has been a sore spot for me in the past. Spending lots of money and time, only to feel disappointed in the end. With a new relationship, came a new way of doing things. Like Valentine's day. Listen to how I circumvented the process in 2022.

Before I entered 12 step programs, I 1st had to find a place to live. I ended up staying in a sober living house with other addicts. They addicts that lived there were primarily drug and alcohol related addicts. I learned how to co-exist with men who's addictions were similar to qualifiers I knew. Being in a sober living situation taught me a lot about myself, and about others.

This is a conclusion of the 1st seven laundry list Items from 2021. You'll hear the definitions, along with how the list played out in my life.

Just a little something to let you know what I've been up to since my last podcast. I needed to take mental health break from the various projects I had going on. I've reduced a good number of projects, and now ready to focus my attention on things I enjoy doing. I look forward to taking you on this journey with me

I'm going to go over adult children of alcoholics 14 traits known as the laundry list. In this episode I'm going to do the first seven, and in the next episode I'll do the remaining seven traits.

Oneitis: (Slang)(Noun) attraction towards a single potential partner to the exclusion of other possible partners. As a love addict, I've had my fair share of oneitis. A simple smile would turn into fantasizing about them and then obsession. I would become laser focused on one person, and not noticing all the beauty surrounding me.

In my addiction I've enabled various qualifiers. Here are some signs of enabling and how I managed to enable others. These signs of enabling are reproduced from www.nedratawwab.com

What would you do if you could reset on an event or events in your life? It could be for a day, week, month, year or entire life. I'm interested in getting to know how you are resetting your life. I can be reached at codependentloveaddict@gmail.com. You can also find Diary of a codependent love addict blog at recovering love addict.com