Diary Of A Codependent Love Addict

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. 12 step programs start with this or some variation of the serenity prayer before during or after a meeting the dictionary defines serenity as a state of being calm, peaceful, and troubled as a codependent love addict, my life revolved around chaos, instabil...

In my previous podcast I went over the first six of 13 characteristics of codependency. Today I'll be covering the remaining seven.

I came across this information while browsing an adult children of alcoholics group that I belong to on Facebook. Along with the characteristics, I've added how some of these characteristics have influenced my life. I've found this information useful and thought I'd share them with you.

What would you do if you found out that your addictions are not only subject to you, but have been in your family for many generations? It's usually through casual conversation with your family members that you find out that others have the same symptoms that you've had for years. I wouldn't be surprised if there are at least four generations of codependent people in my family. With each generatio...

Throughout my entire life I had to be in control of everything. If I wasn't in control of everything, I felt out of place and not needed. Only recently have I been able to reduce the amount of control that I have. My daughter recently graduated from high school, and I eliminated the need to be in control of every aspect of her graduation day. As uncomfortable as it felt, it was good for me to not...

Have you ever had a God shot? Do you know what a God shot is? I cannot tell you how many times my Higher Power has talked to me about something that was in my mind and on my heart. Today's journal entry discuses my experience with God shots.

Social media has made it easy to delve into the world of fantasy. Initially when I started on Facebook, it was just to reconnect with old family and friends. But as time went on, I ended up checking out old classmates, and hoping they were single. I realize that social media has its ups and downs. There are good things about social media and bad things about social media. I've since restarted Face...

For some strange reason, I can sniff out movies and tv shows that deal with some type of addiction. I don't know if that's a good or bad thing. I couldn't list all of my favorites, as this podcast would go into hours. I tend to go into character analysis, and direction. This wouldn't be good. I've only chosen ones I feel best represent my path and journey to recovery.

I've always been a fan of The Fresh Prince of Bel-air. I've probably seen each episode at least a half dozen times (Thanks to reruns.) My favorite episode yet painful one is "Papa's got a brand new excuse." That episode brings up lots of emotional baggage. I've since dealt with the abandonment surrounding my life, but still get choked up in the last 30 seconds of the episode. I have empathy for Wi...

Throughout my life, I was on a quest to find my spiritual path. I've been a Catholic, Baptist, New age, and Unitarian. When I got into the 12 step process, I realized that I found what I had been looking for all along. I found spirituality and not religion. With religion there are rules and regulations that can make recovery difficult. With spirituality it's just you and a Higher Power that you ch...

I really couldn't tell you how many failed relationships I've had over a span of 40 years. I can tell you that they all had the same characteristics: needy, low self-esteem, insecure, and also codependent. Two codependent souls does not make for a stable relationship. A few years ago I decided to explore why I continued choosing the same type of woman to date. I ended up with the conclusion that I...

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Hello I'm Michael, a codependent love addict. I didn't know what that meant until I went to my 1st SLAA (Sex & love addicts) meeting. Having already done 12 step work up n Al-Anon, I was familiar with the process. The 12 step process has allowed me to heal the adolescent & young adult that was trapped in previous pain. Diary of a codependent love addict chronicles my daily struggles with staying o...