Brian Chontosh
Crooked Butterfly Podcast
This is me, sharing where I'm arriving in thoughts, perspectives, and ideas after a dynamic 21 years serving in the Marine Corps and wrestling with "Who Am I"; authentically, and Who Do I Want To Be" now that the military construct is not forcibly shadowing my life. I've found that Nature and tackling the physical & emotional challenges of ultra endurance adventuring provide more insight and clarity on the why's of my experiences and the where's that I can seek for continued personal growth.
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Brian Chontosh
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Mar 11, 2026
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Episodes
Expertry and Mastery 21.11.2023 33:23
Connor and I exploring out loud trying to tease the subtleties & nuances that differentiate experts and masters. Not the sheer skill aspect, more of the 'soft' skills/ traits as it helps us inform our discussion on Leadership.
Performance, Effort, Meritocracy & Mediocrity 02.11.2023 32:23
We what happens when we reward; whether it's through praise, recognition, opportunity, award, etc. always results and absent effort? Same thing holds true in reverse. What are the unintended consequences on our audience that is excluded in the reward. It's not as simple as acknowledging everyone for their unique contributions. And, everyone is wired to respond differently to different t...
Book Writing #4 20.10.2023 1:29:36
Talking about how to listen. Truly listen with the intent to engage and understand vs respond. It's a fundamental step to earning trust & respect. "Seek first to understand and not respond." ~Stephen Covey
Book Writing #3 28.09.2023 1:34:09
Spending 90 min grinding aways at some more basics: Don't Lie, Cheat, or Steal; it's all Stealing, Grey Areas, Who am I circles, and a few more things and tying them into Being a Good Human Being as a core competency to Leadership.
Book Writing #2 21.09.2023 1:24:12
Digging in on "Being A Good Human Being". Specifically, common courtesy, decency, & respect and how it ties into "caring" as a key component of Leadership.
Book Writing #1 14.09.2023 1:11:35
Connor & I picked back up on our writing project. We are going to record our writing development sessions together; essentially the content we are discussing shaping for a leadership book. We figured we would also publish these as a podcast for a few reasons. 1. Help us stay honest and on task , 2. Shape our organization & collect our content, 3. Open it up for people to respond, critique,...
Mentorship 09.09.2023 27:20
Sharing a few short thoughts about what mentorship is and isn't. Not sure I'm really digging deep enough into it, but wanted to hear out loud the looping that was going on in my head while splitting some wood.
4th Annual Fundraiser Thoughts 20.06.2023 40:55
Some thoughts and reflections on this year's annual Event & Fundraiser. Looking to have a few guests to help polish out the perspectives and ideas to fully memorialize the event.
Vulnerability, Courage, Tiny Beacons of Light, Championing 28.04.2023 32:33
Recognizing all the good that's going on, however small or seemingly insignificant, is pretty much my first step when trying to settle the pressure in my head. Ultimately, this is just a sharing to get to the point that you just keep holding until a shiny beacon of light arrives. And if you live a few moments that don't require having to hold on, look to shine a little light onto someone...
Optimal Conditions vs the Hard Way 11.03.2023 47:30
Largely some ramble as I sort through talking about what Optimal Conditions Only is and how it is going to lead into much of the Hard Way Project methodology. I've talked before about a Smarter Hard. Not the obstinate or ignorant 'Tommy Tuff Nutz' sort of hard. On the other end of the spectrum are those that become psychologically stressed (and even put into duress) when conditions...
Exploring "Winning" w/ Connor 03.03.2023 1:12:59
I hadn't seen Connor but only once since returning from the Talisker and wanted to reconnect; we always share cool conversations together when 1:1. He gets me thinking in a different way sometimes when he asks his questions. So, after some Mexican food and a few beers we decided to take our 'Winning" conversation to the recording table. It's nice to have someone to go back and...
The Pain Cave 21.02.2023 44:00
You don't look to go into the Pain Cave. And you don't thrive in the Pain Cave. If you think you do then you have never been in it, you've only waited in line or stood in the antechamber. Too many people pound their chests and use the Pain Cave chatter to make themselves and others think better of themselves; to get special attention and applause. if you've ever actually been i...
What is Winning 16.02.2023 39:16
Sharing thoughts on how I define 'Winning' and why. Defining our terms so not to arbitrarily or accidentally dilute them so that they can inform our behavior, ultimately to support our intent towards reaching goals; desired results. This is the start at scratching out words for manuscript.
Talisker Whisky Atlantic Challenge 2022 01.02.2023 1:51:15
Starting up Season 5 after a limited contribution last year. It's been almost 3 weeks now since finishing up our row across the Atlantic Ocean. What an incredible experience and a pretty cool accomplishment. Sharing a bit of a long (not long enough to be the full) recall of much of the race.
Being Busy, Essentialism, Know It Alls, & Wholesome TV 18.08.2022 46:49
Just a bunch of stuff that I've had on my mind for the last 3 weeks.
Self Care Thoughts 20.07.2022 27:28
I 'm pretty sure we've all heard and/or used the phrase "An empty well can fill another's cup." Or something to that effect. I never really thought of my well ever really getting that close to dangerously low or empty. And if it was I never thought I would say out loud or to others that I just needed space because I don't have anything right now to give. And the pres...
Project Warman Stuff 06.07.2022 54:48
Had an opportunity to talk to Connor to capture some thoughts on Diesel Days, Big Fish Fundraiser and a few random happenings after he processed the past few weeks with a handful of other participants on his own 'Project Warman Podcast'. I'm a fan of this young man.
Wrestling w/ OK 21.06.2022 35:48
The last few weeks/month I've been struggling with a lot of internal dialogue regarding whether I'm Ok: not as OK as I think I am and/or more OK than 'they' want or need me to be. I dunno. But, I promise, I'm not not OK and fundamentally the things I'm working through are normal and natural; not requiring to be 'solved' or 'fixed'. Just better app...
Building Wealth 09.06.2022 44:34
Finally recording some thoughts regarding a podcast I listened to a few months ago. Naval Ravikant - How to Build Wealth @Jorgenson's Soundbox Boyd Varty - The Lion Tracker's Guide to Life on @ The Tim Ferris Show
Chasing Bigger, Better, More... 02.06.2022 48:30
I've been thinking a lot about exploring capacity, experiences, and margins. Specifically in regards to these challenges and physical events I find myself endeavoring towards. A sense of adventure that keeps getting greater and greater. Maybe my appetite is nearing full, for now, and I want to enjoy the campaigns I've already uncovered?
Back in the Saddle 27.05.2022 22:35
First podcast in a while; January. Felt good to find this again and just some ramble about tasks and being busy. Committed to digging in again and not falling into my own trap of moving goalposts.
A Veteran Entitlement Conversation 24.01.2022 43:41
Just a little conversation how I see things when it comes to thinking we're special.
New Year & Holiday Reflection 09.01.2022 22:51
Not sure what the New Year will bring in regards to episodes, but I guarantee they will be authentic.
Essential Ingredient Required for Change 02.12.2021 28:42
A massive ramble as I am working on a couple of things still in my head. Necessity or Genuine Desire as an essential requirement for true change? Then somehow I ended up on Informed vs Influenced which is really bothering me as I navigate social media, ignorance, manipulative news sources... Hopefully I will have some stuff cleaned up over the next few weeks.
Courage to be Yourself 07.11.2021 26:24
Pulling from the IG post yesterday to elaborate a little. Why feign to fit in when it creates a dissonance inside yourself, assumes a lot about what other's intentions & fancy, and over time increases in effort to upkeep? Just be You, for whoever that You is right now, endeavoring to be safe, good & happy and attract naturally those that share like common interests & values.
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