Bcomingundone

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Ef ego. Showing up like the Predator, you know from the movie. Outsmarting me thinking I'm dating doing fun experiments when same people, not available; surprise. I am tired of carrying that.

Email correction bcomingundone@gmail Difference between a really good bj from someone that's "meh",not your type vs. a "meh" decent bj from someone you love/care about.

Dreamt I gave a workshop about nre. New relationship energy- the phase that keeps us easily interested in other, the sexy sex in the relationship will never get better than this phase- just the tip, lightly and briefly tap into it and likely it won't run dry.

Feeling a bit lonely doing an 8 hour class online instead of turkey day. Instead breathe with me. Asmr maybe?

Internal work and shadow is being exposed. Intimacy coach is helping me recognize. Surprisingly I do not cry in this episode (I've learned to grieve gently and briefly daily to lighten the loads). What does your internal reflection look like? What does that container for reflection look like? Gentle permission. Get and give back to me...

Fearful avoidant activated during an emotional hangover after a coaching session. Early buzzing in the audio when phone buzzed/vibrated.

Give me a sign you've received and enjoyed this, with Mmmmmemories of my last Halloween, I was mmmmmmoved to create a little treat, it's not a trick! Purrrre entertainment purrrrposes of course! Happy Samhain! Happy New Year! Light the Fire To quench the dark Open the hearth To heat the heart Bring the good even love to the bad May your health, happiness and places you call home this year be the b...

Oy! I stutter, nsfw, trying something out. Asmr play session #73

Asmr style~ late last night a return home and a good morning nuzzle, you're my safe space~ I surrender. (trial)

Divine forced timeout, I'm on a journey healing my sexual orgasmic self; my thoughts, feelings and sensations around men. I had a no touch experience with another and an erotic touch class where all my body and I asked for was to have my hair brushed by a man. I listened to my body not wanting sexual touch nor give sexual touch- felt good to listen to my heart when possibly my sexual being des...

When shift happens it appears all is breaking down, I woke up with lyrics, the song Chasing Cars.

I had a revelation. New dbt card reading. Thanks for being here listening to my brief stutter from excitement☆

More heart scars, had more loss. Maybe I sit in this and let it break me open more wide. Now when I make connection and intimate sexual connection, I will be with more presence not constricting with fear about an ending hurting. Maybe I'm afraid of this breaking me too apart.

The porn phase is great but doesn't last. After is the real risk taking and where the work is. If there is enough connection for me in other areas aside from good sex I'm rolling up my sleeves and doing the work- mine. Working on my responding rather than reacting really taking long, hard looks in the mirror. Clearly I get lost in a disappointing thought and my avoidant makes an appearance.

Woke up with Mooji on the mind. To not feed monkey mind and yet not turn it away, compassion for self. I've been finding tenderness for myself. First time in months I woke up without fear and with child like curiosity eager to see the signs the Universe does love me. A dbt card reading. I don't know where I'm going and it's okay to not know the how as long as I know know my why: love (safe space,...

Spiraled into unhealthy activities. Terrible background noise in the neighborhood. So maybe less will listen anyhow. I fell back into being servant to thoughts. Stuttered a bit. I would like to have space for us to divulge our shadow monsters and still hold other. I'm hurting from sexual trauma in need of ass'istance healing, maybe my cock worship is projection. I would love and fear for a...

The song Wrapped Around Your Finger, by The Police played in my mind while waking this morning. At first I thought this was about my current D/s relationship but realize it's deeper...the tables have turned, servant becomes the Master! Come listen to this and my tics as I become more aware as I anal'ize this song! Thanks for being here~

Quick good night. Dealing with depression as I detangle myself from an over emotionally investment in another with little interest in return. Finding things daily that move me positively. Return of the barefoot hike too.

Been drawn to her work of late, my sex life wonderful with the erotic is missing textures of romance, love, and shared sex magick- too much sovereignty is like masturbating with strangers for me. Let's tongue our hearts, lick it. I mess up, yet I decided to leave it, the whole of me.

Discovered this and seems to fit current stories. Why body and heart experience dissonance, I can't relax with men that can't have sex with their hearts. Suppressing energy takes energy which is why I can feel drained. Finding a sexological body worker to help with my trauma to give me the space to explore good sex may be good enough. My senses are intense in my world and sex for me is almost like...

Clearly stories. I even went balls to the wall on a website oversharing, needing to be seen when I could sit with self. I've since been meditating. Discomfort. Lonely place when there isn't "the one" to lean on during health issues. When to leave a relationship- toxic or dysfunctional. Currently neither of which is happening in any of my close relationships and meeting potential dates postponed un...

I fantasize-Yes play on words. Speaking of words, I wanted to feel those words in my mouth, "my boyfriend". Bed sex- what's that like? And all day sex? Seconds or thirds? I dream of a side of vanilla while I talk about being someone's girlfriend. The difference I feel in having a partner vs. Boyfriend. Thanks for being here!

just cause of Megadeath's song was in my head. He once made me a xmas gift for me he said. Play person played a recording of a song he 'made for me'. I think my brain took 'made about me' and turned it into 'for me'. I never heard it again even though my gift and I've asked a couple of times for it. I suspect, with thoughts that it was for his friends about me. A lu...

He ended it before we in person met. No back date even. Great phone connections, chemistry, even good communication. Days later, he messaged me his list of reasons why it wouldn't work. Not heart broken, scarred a little. I cried. A lot I cried. Then realized that door closing means there are so many here left unopened! Desensitizing rejection. And finding wholeness in that I will be alone for...