Ayla and Potato3s: A Nightly Message From Your Best Friend

Today was my half birthday, and I gifted myself happiness. From strawberry shortcake to a joyful, naked dance in the mirror, I leaned fully into what felt good. I let go of pressure, chose songs that made me smile, and created a sensory world just for me : perfumes, music, movement, presence. Even with nervous energy or chewed nails from test stress, I found peace in breathing, play, and grounding...

Potential Trigger Warning: Eating Disorder In this episode, I admitted what I’ve been avoiding: I’m burned out. I’ve been running myself into the ground by barely sleeping, barely eating, overworking, and denying myself joy. A friend called me out, and I needed it. I’ve been equating worth with work for so long that even celebrating my new book felt muted. I realized I’ve unlearned how to receive,...

I didn’t make it to the gym today, but I gave myself grace. I’m usually creating or producing, so I decided to really rest aka no content, no pressure. I leaned into my 30-day relaxation plan and made edits that felt right. I applied for grants, bought a tool to start building an app, and reminded myself that AI helps me do what I don’t always want to. I’m still figuring it out. Tomorrow is my hal...

Well, my little potato, I love you. I started the day with breathwork and recording Day 18 of 30 Days of Pleasure, those meditations are easier when I let myself just breathe first. My facial felt amazing and I’m glad I did it. Big news: my brother’s giving me his old car! I wasn’t expecting it, but I’m grateful. Dinner with family was funny and warm, and now I’m thinking about writing again. I ha...

Today was slow, soft, and unexpectedly sweet. I went out with my sister, got upgraded tissues (yes, that made me happy), and recorded Day 17 of 30 Days of Pleasure. The heat made the audio still and grounding. I reflected on yesterday’s fantasy story and it surprised me with its gentleness. Safety, not sex, ended up being the deepest desire. That tenderness stayed with me all day. I realized maybe...

I barely slept but still made it to the office with Dad, helped my brother get a car, and even held my niece while they handled paperwork. The biggest part of my day, though, was recording Day 16 of 30 Days of Pleasure. I expected a sexy story, but it turned emotional. I ended up crying and telling a fantasy about being safe, seen, and wanted from the start. It was sweet, surprising, healing, and...

Today reminded me that rest is productivity too. I painted for the first time in 11 days, reworked my book formatting, and recorded Day 14 of 30 Days of Pleasure. Dad even bought me ground turkey, the sweetest moment of the day. I’m realizing I’ve earned a break, even if I feel like I should be doing more. I’m allowed to slow down, eat what I enjoy, and be soft with myself. Tomorrow? Maybe I’ll fi...

Today was a restful reset. I skipped the gym to catch up on sleep, recorded Day 13 of 30 Days of Pleasure, and realized even how I lie down holds meaning: left side for sleep, right side for rest. I formatted my new book 55 Chains, updated my audio on GWA, and got an unexpected $50.30, which made me so happy. I cried over a beautiful Instagram story about family reconciliation. Even with all the u...

Today was chaotic but better. I made turkey meatballs and lentils, finally ate something I wanted, and that simple act brought me joy. Family tension flared (again), but I stood my ground. I uploaded Day 11 of 30 Days of Pleasure, navigated noise, sighs, and yawns, and remembered laughter as pleasure. My book Permission to Fly is now on Audible, and I’m growing in every area, from iMovie to intuit...

Today was Mother’s Day, and it stirred up a lot: grief, longing, and fatigue. My relationships with both my mother and my son are distant, and I’m working on making peace with that. I recorded Day 10 of my audio series, started answering 55 deep questions to break the chains holding me back, and reminded myself that worth isn’t earned, it just is. I’m exhausted from surviving, from cobbling togeth...

Today reminded me how much I crave connection, even as I find strength in solitude. I returned a watch band I bought in hope, took a nap with the lights on, recorded Day 9 of my audio series, and ended up singing a Bible school song at 3 a.m. because it felt right. I’m in the teardown phase, rebuilding from the foundation up. It’s lonely, but I’m learning to shine anyway. To sing anyway. This litt...

Today I reflected on how creating feels more like play than work for me. I went to the gym, took a walk with my friend, caught up on a long-overdue video call, and recorded content that I hope helps someone feel safer in their body. I didn’t win a giveaway I was hoping for, and that stung but I still believe better things are coming. Creating, connecting and softening is how I keep showing up. Eve...

Today was a mix of softness and strain. My body’s sore from the gym, but I still showed up for yoga, my dad, and myself. I found a penny and took it as a sign, then received unexpected extra money and a McDonald’s meal on Dad’s card. I imagined my future safe space and recorded Day 7 of 30 Days of Pleasure. But I also felt the weight of living where I don’t feel free. Still, I’m growing. And I’m c...

Today felt like proof that softness is real power. I worked out hard, slowed down when I needed to, and still felt proud of how far I’ve come. I handled life with grace, from the gym and errands to manifesting a new home and completing my MBA application. I replaced a broken sign with “Today was so easy” and felt it unfold in real time. My meditations soothed me, my skincare arrived, and I’m calli...

I went to the gym on no sleep, napped hard, and still recorded Day 5 of 30 Days of Pleasure, which was so relaxing I fell asleep. I wrapped Shadow and Bone, got a handmade gift from a friend, and laughed at ChatGPT roasting me. I forgot shampoo (again), and I logged my first $0.10 from TikTok with genuine gratitude. My voice used to make me cringe and now it puts me to sleep in the best way. I’m t...

I should have gone to bed hours ago and here I am. I didn’t make it to the gym today, but I did make it to the dentist. Deep cleaning is coming, and yeah… shots in the mouth. We’ll deal with that when it comes. I also spent time at my dad’s office, kept reading Shadow and Bone, and found myself spiraling in a curious way: asking questions, cracking jokes, even asking my AI what it really thinks of...

It’s Day 3 of 30 Days of Pleasure, and I gifted myself a much needed Sunday of rest. I painted, read Shadow and Bone, gave myself a chest massage (and maybe fell asleep), packed winter clothes as a manifestation step, and reflected on joy, gratitude, and what “home” feels like. From chamoy smoothies to mirror work, today was about slowing down, feeling worthy, and trusting what’s unfolding without...

Tonight’s episode started with a late bedtime confession and turned into a vulnerable check-in about giving grace through chaos. From visualizing a dream home to uploading meditations, creating seven Canva graphics, and getting roasted by ChatGPT, I reflected on how far I’ve come and reminded myself (and you) that giving myself grace gives me life. You, my little potato, are loved—every day. Even...

After a deep creative download with ChatGPT, I reflect on healing, boundaries, exhaustion, and the quiet power of choosing me again. From family tension to goal-setting to magic in May, I speak from the edge of burnout and breakthrough. I’m tired, but alive. And for the first time, I’m looking forward to tomorrow—not afraid of it. Thank you for loving me through the mess. I love you too.

This episode is a tender unraveling of what it means to stop shrinking and finally choose yourself. I share how old patterns of people-pleasing are falling away, replaced by growing self-trust, emotional honesty, and clear boundaries. From unexpected tears while filming to symbolic signs from the universe, this moment feels like a turning point. I’m no longer waiting to be picked — I’m picking mys...

It was a little bit of a slow start and today I shared with you 3 moments from today where I was proud of myself. Tag me in your story or post on Instagram: Stakeandpotato3s https://www.instagram.com/pstakeandpotato3spodcast?igsh=dHY5NTZ4b2swc3R4&utm_source=qr or send me an email to stakeandpotato3s@gmail.com to share the best part of your day with me OR what you were proud of yourself for.

A friend of mine shared his music and singing style with me and I encouraged him that if it was an expression of his truth that came from his mouth set to music, it’s singing. Express your truth and love yourself in any way you can. Tag me in your story or post on Instagram: Stakeandpotato3s https://www.instagram.com/pstakeandpotato3spodcast?igsh=dHY5NTZ4b2swc3R4&utm_source=qr or send me an email...

Today I share my excitement with you about paint pads from Michael’s, my deodorant and an affirmation from @margotmillerofficial from Instagram.: I am a conduit for miracles and millions. Everything I touch turns to gold. Everything I desire, desires me 10x more. Everything is rigged in my favor. I am chosen for massive impact and massive success. I serve so I deserve. The most spiritual thing I c...

YW: Yawn Warning. I yawn quite a bit in this audio and blow my nose several times so you may want to turn the sound down at certain parts. I share with you about letting go of the traditional ideas of productivity and that I am proud of myself for seemingly small things like taking naps. Tag me in your story or post on Instagram: Stakeandpotato3s https://www.instagram.com/pstakeandpotato3spodcast?...

Potential trigger warning: child abuse. what would you have said to my 5 year old self? I begin by sharing that I recorded the audio, “I Love You, and I’m Not Going Anywhere” https://www.reddit.com/r/pillowtalkaudio/s/OcAsWUIgsh and then go into one of my most traumatic memories.