Ayla and Potato3s: A Nightly Message From Your Best Friend

EDIT: I almost forgot, here’s the link to the interview. https://youtu.be/IsdpoJcGYWE?si=DCAZiwhn0vzUVO68 Welcome back, my little potato. I took a week off for a break, and even though I needed the rest, I missed you deeply. This episode is a return, not just to the mic, but to myself. I opened up about starting my MBA program, revisiting the early days of the podcast, and realizing how far I’ve c...

In this episode, I acknowledged something that’s been building for a while: I need a break. Not out of defeat, but out of clarity. I spoke about how I don’t want to create just to maintain momentum or numbers. I want to create because my soul says yes. I want to be in rhythm with myself. Right now, that means stepping back. I reminded myself that rest is part of the work. That silence is not absen...

Today felt gentle, even with its emotional weight. I started with a prayer about letting go, and it echoed through my day. I spent time with my dad, went to the dentist, and realized being alone in that dark room triggered something from childhood . It surprised me how much I still carry. Later, I took a Zumba class that felt like joy incarnat e. The teacher’s passion moved me. I thanked him after...

Today’s episode was gentle, reflective, and warm. I opened with love, as always, reminding you (and myself) that the words “I love you” still hold weight. The prayer from the Spiritual Warfare Prayers book focused on balance in relationships, especially learning how to set boundaries rooted in wisdom and kindness. I admitted something honest: that yesterday’s prayer on forgiveness didn’t “land” th...

In Episode 342, I open my heart and mouth wide. This one leans into politics, but not from a place of partisanship . more from a place of pain, truth, and hope. I speak on immigration, racism, reproductive dignity, and the backwards slide we seem to be in. This isn’t a news podcast. This is one person loving out loud, calling out injustice, and still choosing softness. I reflect on forgiveness, he...

In this episode, I open with love and my daily prayer this time focusing on “strength during recovery.” I speak openly about the emotional and physical ups and downs of healing, weaving in humor, food freedom, and a Taco Bell trip that becomes a metaphor for choosing joy without guilt. I share a deeply honest reflection on how far I’ve come, how much I’ve changed since 2020, and how my purpose now...

A raw heartfelt episode where i process pain, family dynamics, and missed dream and then turn it all into purpose. I craft a deeply personal case for why I belong at Volkswagen: to help people like me get moving, literally and emotionally.

I recorded but didn’t publish on purpose, for once. I’m healing, packing for a staycation, and learning to slow down. Today’s prayer was for illness, but I feel okay. Just ordinary, maybe. Or maybe not. I’m learning everyone has their pace, including me.

Today I spoke from the heart about fear, depression, tiny victories, and future dreams. I cleaned, I hoped, I laughed, I planned. This space gives me peace, and I hope my voice reminds you that even from bed, we are both doing something brave.

I reflected on surrendering control, accepting divine timing, and confronting childhood wounds of scarcity and invisibility. Even amid heartbreak, I remembered I’m not a burden, I am powerful, loving, and still here. This space helps me speak truth, reclaim strength, and keep going.

I feel like I’m in the desert, barely surviving, trying to hold on. Some days I feel like gasoline; today I was fumes again. But I’m still trying. Still praying. Still talking to you. Thank you for letting me be honest. I love you.

I’m healing in the same place that hurt me and it’s not easy. But I broke the silence, stood up for my right to take up space, and shared the messy aftermath. This next chapter is coming. I’m scared. I’m ready. I’m going

Today I broke a major chain: denial. For the first time, I bought groceries without shame. I’m learning cravings aren’t weakness and silence isn’t strength. I spoke truths I once buried. I see injustice more clearly now, and I refuse to stay quiet

I did everything I could by praying, visualizing and showing up but the call never came. So I let go. This episode is a soft landing into grief, faith, and fumes of hope. I’m not giving up. Just breathing, believing, and breaking the cycle. I love you

Today is a raw, vulnerable reflection on grief, hope, and desire for a breakthrough. I share a spiritual prayer for comfort, a personal story about manifesting a giveaway win, and a deep longing for tangible relief.

I recorded a 2.5 hour touch meditation that was slow, instinctual, and healing. Thank you God, my bank account flipped from negative to positive, I bought a Coke for my grandparents in heaven, and I named June’s theme: You’re the One. Because it starts with me. Always has.

Today was not easy. I didn’t fight back, I froze. Dissociated. Forgot to breathe. But even in that silence, something in me refused to disappear. I’m not here to be Jesus. I’m Ayla. And somehow, I’m still the bearer of light. Even when it flickers and maybe especially so.

Today I stood my ground. I told my brother I won’t force a relationship where I’m not welcome. It hurt but it was healing. I’m learning to let go without needing to be forgiven. And honestly? Listening is a big deal. Thank you

Today marks Day 55 and my quiet reveal: I finally told the world I have a podcast. After 327 episodes and 3 years of audio healing, I’m learning to share my voice unmasked. I love you, thank you you for being here and thank you for listening.

I tried to push through exhaustion but my body said no. Today unraveled with workouts cut short, family stress, and unmet goals. I cried, paused, prayed, and remembered I’m human. Healing isn’t just doing, it’s resting too. So tonight, I’m breathing and believing again.

I rested today and soaked in the symbolism of water : liquid prayer, soft release. I drank more, nourished more, and trusted more. My bank account turned positive, my spirit steadied, and I even defended lemon water online. I’m healing, hydrating, and choosing peace.

I shared a Psalm 91 prayer and found comfort in the song Leave a Light On. Today reminded me why I keep showing up, so no one feels alone. From rest practices to mandarins from my dad, even small gestures are proof that love exists.

I read a grounding prayer from my new book, visited a serene park, and toured an apartment that felt like a sign. I’m learning to rest, hydrate, and care for myself better with a cozy blanket, soft music, sleep, and storytime included. Healing begins here.

Today was my half birthday, and I gifted myself happiness. From strawberry shortcake to a joyful, naked dance in the mirror, I leaned fully into what felt good. I let go of pressure, chose songs that made me smile, and created a sensory world just for me : perfumes, music, movement, presence. Even with nervous energy or chewed nails from test stress, I found peace in breathing, play, and grounding...

Potential Trigger Warning: Eating Disorder In this episode, I admitted what I’ve been avoiding: I’m burned out. I’ve been running myself into the ground by barely sleeping, barely eating, overworking, and denying myself joy. A friend called me out, and I needed it. I’ve been equating worth with work for so long that even celebrating my new book felt muted. I realized I’ve unlearned how to receive,...