Ayla and Potato3s: A Nightly Message From Your Best Friend

I talked to my mentor and a podcast host today and realized how much I overthink doing things “right.” I started an experiment that runs until July 31, 2025, focusing on feeling freedom and safety rather than chasing checklists. I reflected on manifesting, gratitude, and how my dream job is to host a meaningful talk show where people feel seen. Right now, I’m soaking in small joy s such as my amaz...

Today I talked about all the changes happening in my life : internally, relationally, spiritually. I’m realizing how much I need safety in my body to grow, and how often I treat myself like I’ve already failed. I’m learning grace, rest, and asking better questions

Today I reflect on why I stopped doing FaceTime updates, I realized I was faking happy. I share the latest on my car situation (no oil 😬), trying to catch up on school, and feeling behind. But I also talk about choosing honesty, asking big questions, and receiving unexpected help, like sushi from my sister and a car I didn’t pay for. Hope really can come from anywhere, even a movie… or a potato....

Today’s episode isn’t polished , it’s real. I talk about feeling worn down by stress, school, money stuff, and survival mode. I applied to one job today, and that was enough. I’m trying to build something, but I’m also exhausted. I’m asking big questions like: “How do you feel safe in a body that’s never known safety?” and “What really recharges you when everything drains you?” No answers yet but...

Today’s episode is raw. I’m tired. Like deep, bone-tired. I recorded Day 30 of my pleasure series, and it hit me, how do you feel pleasure when you’re just trying to survive? I’m trying to build a life, apply for jobs, make content, heal… and still feel like I’m failing. It’s been a year of sending out messages like bottles in the ocean. Some days, I want to let go. But for now, I’m still here. I...

Today I finished a coloring page I started in 2021 and it reminded me that it’s okay if some things take years. I committed to coloring 15 minutes a day, just to return to myself. I talked about building my startup, not having money for a contract manufacturer (yet), and reminding myself that the solution might already exist, it just hasn’t arrived yet. I’m not trying to live a small life. I want...

Today I t reated my inner child to ice cream, a fountain Dr. Pepper, popcorn, Disney movies. I needed the comfort, and I gave it to myself without guilt… until I came home and was immediately shamed for it. I was told to “be quiet,” “be logical,” “stop being emotional.” But I’m done pretending I’m a robot to make others comfortable. This episode is real, raw, and full of what happens when you try...

Hey, my little potato , you beautiful soul. I love you. Today was packed! I met with my mentor, recorded an amazing podcast interview (2.5 hours total!), went to Zumba, did more coursework, made TikToks, and somehow still managed to feel like I didn’t do enough (classic me). I’m working on getting better at being with myself, not just by myself and so tomorrow I’m planning a movie date with my inn...

Today I took five. Five survivor interviews confirmed for my school project and yes, I know it’s heavy, but this work matters. I also took a literal “take five” for myself and treated myself to a burger , browsed an overwhelming clearance center and bought three yellow watermelons because I can. Oh and I remembered to finally ask you: could you follow me on TikTok? I’ve never said that out loud be...

Today was an ordinary day. I submitted my homework, showed up for myself, and went to Zumba. I overthought things a little (as usual), but I got it done. I’ve realized I really miss having an in person best friend. I have love around me, but there’s something about errands with a soul sister that hits different. I’m building structure in the middle of transition, and doing my best to honor the rhy...

Hey my little potato . In today’s episode, I share a major full circle moment in my healing journey. Years ago, my first affirmation was “I am enough” thanks to a Maris sa Peer video. And now? I just applied to work with her as a life coach. Wild I know . But it reminded me how far I’ve come: from a place of doubt and scarcity to a place of courage and lived wisdom. I’m not perfect. But I’m proud....

Today’s episode is called Pause, because that’s exactly where I am. Between plasma runs, surprise family visits, a webinar, and trying to finish my module, I hit a wall. I was hard on myself for not pushing through and then I remembered: I’ve done so much. Books. Paintings. Audio series. Growth. Healing. I’m unlearning the hustle that says I only matter when I produce. Sometimes the biggest thing...

Today I wondered , are you still my potato, or are you my angel? You’ve supported me through so much, and I just needed to say it: you don’t even know it, but you are my angel. I shared my thoughts on guilt, scarcity, and not knowing how to help others when I’m barely getting by myself. I’m trying to balance building my company, resting when I need to, and finding small joys , like getting a $3.50...

Today was long, and I’m learning to trust that being “delulu” might just be the solution. I’m letting my higher self lead. I’m starting a five part daily ritual: mirror work, affirmations, meditation, TikTok, and gratitude and taped a tiny Post-it to my phone as my guide. I even found an old journal called Joy Note, right on time, reminding me I’m still her: strong, creative, and meant for this. I...

Hey, my little potato 🥔💛today I felt the highs, the lows, and that weird middle space where life reminds you you’re still becoming. I had a heart dropping moment seeing my school grade listed as “27%” (spoiler: it was really a 90 😅), but it made me reflect on growth and how far I’ve come in confidence, consistency and care. I finished my ideal customer profile, posted to TikTok, meditated, and...

YW: Yawn Warning. Please do not listen to while driving or operating heavy machinery Hey, it’s me again, just checking in with love and a lot of yawns 😂. Today I woke up at 2:22 PM, which my body clearly needed. I got my school docs notarized (shoutout to Tony at UPS!), gave plasma, signed up to drive for Lyft, and made some simple plans for next week to stay on track. I reflected on how turning...

Mercury’s rumbling in shadow, and tech knows it : my camera didn’t cooperate, school docs got stuck, and my brain felt wonky from Zumba + gelato. But I still showed up: homework done, groceries sorted, self-care prioritized. Now I’m pausing the hustle , tomorrow’s a rest day filled with painting, plasma, and peace. If Mercury’s throwing wrenches, so what? We’ll bend, adapt, and still shapeshift.

Today was a wild one. I meditated instead of checking my phone and still got yelled at. I visited an apartment, paid for a stranger’s drink, cried over denied benefits, screamed in an empty house, and turned pantry scraps into a fusion meal that somehow fed both my body and my hope. I’m not perfect, but I’m still trying. And even in the mess, I know this: I got this. You got this. We got this.

I got a car. I named her Freedom. But honestly, joy didn’t hit right away maybe because I’m still adjusting to what it means to not feel trapped. This week, I revised my life plan (again), went to plasma, and hit 4 Pinterest pins instead of 3 (33% increase, tyvm). I made peace with falling asleep mid-lesson and remembered: planning is not perfection , it’s permission. I also read a post from someo...

This week is all about belief , not just in timing or plans, but in myself. I shared how I’m soft-structuring my week with Zumba, Pinterest, project planning, and joy and how even little steps like three pins a day can stack into real momentum. I talk about writing badly, resting intentionally, and how I’m learning to trust the version of me who buys her dad a Cybertruck. This episode is full of p...

Hey, my little potato 🥔 I love you, and just in case you forgot, I never forget about you. In today’s episode, I talk about how a regular Saturday turned into something full of sweetness, perfume spritzes, and powerful self reminders. I share what it was like to have a mall day by myself, laugh about accidentally buying one yellow and one red watermelon 🍉, and how I turned moments of struggle in...

Today I showed up late, but I showed up smiling because I honored my own word. I listed products on Etsy, Teespring, and TPublic, then marketed them through my Amazon affiliate links on Pinterest with funny, clever, me-lnfused copy, not just the standard “buy my shirt” stuff. It felt good to stretch my creative muscles and take action on my ideas. I also met with my mentor for the first time. I wa...

I finished my first assignment for school l, a personal development plan , and spent the day reflecting on what makes me a different kind of founder. I talk about comparison, doubt, crying over finances, and recommitting to my dreams anyway. I share how I’m hustling right now (plasma, remote gigs, intuition groups) and what I’m working toward: a company that values rest, employs thousands, and mak...

Today was about honoring the small wins, not the kind you put on LinkedIn the ones that quietly rewire your self worth. I slept in. Talked to friends. Walked to the store. Bought ice cream even though I already had some at home. And it was such a beautiful little rebellion. I’m learning to rest, not because I’m lazy, but because rest is part of my manifesto. Because I am the boss I always dreamed...

In today’s episode, I opened up with a soft thank you for being here, for listening, and for loving me as I am. I talked about my second day of school (which was online!), some photos I shared from my vision board and art journey, and how surreal it feels to be on this path now. A year ago, I would’ve never imagined applying let alone being in an MBA program for entrepreneurship. I shared about cr...