Ayla and Potato3s: A Nightly Message From Your Best Friend

He llo my little potato! Today I embraced my solo staycation, went to lunch with a friend, stumbled into an Italian bakery, and learned maritozzi is seasonal. I baked a cherry nectarine crumble with a hint of lavender , literally pure magic! Scored $5.49 dresses, rocked flamingo shorts, and reminded myself it’s okay to take space for ME. My assessment looms, but I’m finding my own spin on life. I...

Today was so much better than yesterday , simply because I didn’t throw up! I sold the car, got surprise deposits from Amazon, and even got ordained to officiate weddings. Feeling blessed, relieved, and excited for this next chapter because God’s got me, I’ve got you, so we’ve got this .

Started my day late after a 4:30 a.m. night, did plasma donation, then made the worst decision: a salt water flush with double the salt. Puked, napped, survived. Got lectured for low blood pressure, emailed about my comedy goals, and learned I apparently sound like I’m from Massachusetts.

It’s 4 AM. I skipped the last day of the convention to finish homework, made a new friend on the plane, and wrestled with faith, trust, and money.

I’m exhausted after a long day, but reading those heavy answers made me realize I’m not the only one who’s felt this way. It’s validating and powerful and a reminder why this work matters.

Today I shifted my project focus from domestic violence to emotional abuse as it feels truer to my story. I opened up about childhood trauma, why perfectionism grips me, and how unconditional love frees me. Thank you for loving me as is.

Today’s theme is love. I share why every message I send comes from love, a wild hotel mix-up, and a powerful seatmate story.

No sleep, car chaos, and a hospital check-in. Today I ask: do I need help too? One day at a time.

I’m selling my car, taking Boggles to the hospital, wearing a green dress, and stepping into day 111 of new beginnings. Email me Ayla.nau888@gmail.com if you know anyone willing to talk to me about DV survivor.

I test drove cars today : an SUV , a coupe, and sat in the SL63 AMG. It reminded me that I don’t have to figure out the how or when of my dreams. I just need to say what I want, believe it’s mine, and enjoy the ride.

I let myself dream today l, not just little dreams, but the big ones. A penthouse tour, a perfect chair, and the perfume “A Thousand Wishes” reminded me that I live in a land where my wishes are granted. I’m already the woman I want to become. She just has a bit more money and confidence. Everything else? Already here. Even Boggles snoring next to me feels like part of the wish.

Today I followed a nudge and stumbled upon two open houses : one that was just okay and another that felt like home. I didn’t have the money, but I walked through it anyway and let myself feel what it would be like to live there. It reminded me why I’m doing all of this , for freedom, joy, peace, and a closet full of clothes I actually love. I talked through the details, what wealth would allow, a...

I talked to my mentor and a podcast host today and realized how much I overthink doing things “right.” I started an experiment that runs until July 31, 2025, focusing on feeling freedom and safety rather than chasing checklists. I reflected on manifesting, gratitude, and how my dream job is to host a meaningful talk show where people feel seen. Right now, I’m soaking in small joy s such as my amaz...

Today I talked about all the changes happening in my life : internally, relationally, spiritually. I’m realizing how much I need safety in my body to grow, and how often I treat myself like I’ve already failed. I’m learning grace, rest, and asking better questions

Today I reflect on why I stopped doing FaceTime updates, I realized I was faking happy. I share the latest on my car situation (no oil 😬), trying to catch up on school, and feeling behind. But I also talk about choosing honesty, asking big questions, and receiving unexpected help, like sushi from my sister and a car I didn’t pay for. Hope really can come from anywhere, even a movie… or a potato....

Today’s episode isn’t polished , it’s real. I talk about feeling worn down by stress, school, money stuff, and survival mode. I applied to one job today, and that was enough. I’m trying to build something, but I’m also exhausted. I’m asking big questions like: “How do you feel safe in a body that’s never known safety?” and “What really recharges you when everything drains you?” No answers yet but...

Today’s episode is raw. I’m tired. Like deep, bone-tired. I recorded Day 30 of my pleasure series, and it hit me, how do you feel pleasure when you’re just trying to survive? I’m trying to build a life, apply for jobs, make content, heal… and still feel like I’m failing. It’s been a year of sending out messages like bottles in the ocean. Some days, I want to let go. But for now, I’m still here. I...

Today I finished a coloring page I started in 2021 and it reminded me that it’s okay if some things take years. I committed to coloring 15 minutes a day, just to return to myself. I talked about building my startup, not having money for a contract manufacturer (yet), and reminding myself that the solution might already exist, it just hasn’t arrived yet. I’m not trying to live a small life. I want...

Today I t reated my inner child to ice cream, a fountain Dr. Pepper, popcorn, Disney movies. I needed the comfort, and I gave it to myself without guilt… until I came home and was immediately shamed for it. I was told to “be quiet,” “be logical,” “stop being emotional.” But I’m done pretending I’m a robot to make others comfortable. This episode is real, raw, and full of what happens when you try...

Hey, my little potato , you beautiful soul. I love you. Today was packed! I met with my mentor, recorded an amazing podcast interview (2.5 hours total!), went to Zumba, did more coursework, made TikToks, and somehow still managed to feel like I didn’t do enough (classic me). I’m working on getting better at being with myself, not just by myself and so tomorrow I’m planning a movie date with my inn...

Today I took five. Five survivor interviews confirmed for my school project and yes, I know it’s heavy, but this work matters. I also took a literal “take five” for myself and treated myself to a burger , browsed an overwhelming clearance center and bought three yellow watermelons because I can. Oh and I remembered to finally ask you: could you follow me on TikTok? I’ve never said that out loud be...

Today was an ordinary day. I submitted my homework, showed up for myself, and went to Zumba. I overthought things a little (as usual), but I got it done. I’ve realized I really miss having an in person best friend. I have love around me, but there’s something about errands with a soul sister that hits different. I’m building structure in the middle of transition, and doing my best to honor the rhy...

Hey my little potato . In today’s episode, I share a major full circle moment in my healing journey. Years ago, my first affirmation was “I am enough” thanks to a Maris sa Peer video. And now? I just applied to work with her as a life coach. Wild I know . But it reminded me how far I’ve come: from a place of doubt and scarcity to a place of courage and lived wisdom. I’m not perfect. But I’m proud....

Today’s episode is called Pause, because that’s exactly where I am. Between plasma runs, surprise family visits, a webinar, and trying to finish my module, I hit a wall. I was hard on myself for not pushing through and then I remembered: I’ve done so much. Books. Paintings. Audio series. Growth. Healing. I’m unlearning the hustle that says I only matter when I produce. Sometimes the biggest thing...

Today I wondered , are you still my potato, or are you my angel? You’ve supported me through so much, and I just needed to say it: you don’t even know it, but you are my angel. I shared my thoughts on guilt, scarcity, and not knowing how to help others when I’m barely getting by myself. I’m trying to balance building my company, resting when I need to, and finding small joys , like getting a $3.50...