Ayla and Potato3s: A Nightly Message From Your Best Friend

spent today learning, connecting, and wrestling with my own resistance to love while doing the “Prism” exercise. I infused my future energy of a life of fortune into my present self—and then spent nine hours battling myself on manifesting love. I still did it. I also got unexpected gifts, talked deeply with friends, taught someone Canva, and ended the day feeling supported and better about my life...

Today I remembered what it feels like to come back to the surface. I didn’t sleep, I didn’t do much, and I didn’t have the bandwidth to force myself—but one unexpected phone call pulled me out of the emotional fog I’ve been sinking in. I talked about grief, intuition, how comparison steals your right to feel, and why “not doing anything” is sometimes the real work. I realized I’ve been carrying ol...

Today was one of those days where I woke up already fragile. I didn’t have it in me to pretend, to socialize, or to “be okay,” and I realized how much living in this house drains me. I talked about feeling ignored 80% of the time and attacked the other 20%, and how that shapes the way I move, rest, and try to heal. I reflected on how much I’m trying to change my life—even when it feels like the mo...

Today was quieter and heavier than I expected. Yesterday’s 86-cent moment cracked something open in me, and I’m still processing how a whole year’s worth of strength can collapse around something so small. I’m grateful… but gratitude feels complicated when you’re telling yourself you should be grateful instead of feeling it naturally. I rested, read, ate leftover birthday pizza and cake, and let m...

A quiet birthday turns into an unexpected emotional unraveling. I talk about being awake for almost 24 hours, falling asleep to a Reiki audio, surprise birthday calls, and reading binges. I share the moment I had to search for 86 cents for a soda — and how that cracked something open in me. There’s tenderness, gratitude, exhaustion, and a lot of honesty about how heavy this past year has been… and...

Today was the day before my birthday, and my body forced me to slow all the way down. The cramps were brutal, so instead of pushing through like I always do, I let myself rest, watch TV, and even reread a book that reminded me why I believe in love. I realized I’ve spent years wanting to be someone worth fighting for—and maybe I finally am. I’m learning balance, intuition, and allowing myself to r...

Today was one of those days where I thought I didn’t do much… then realized I actually did a lot. I painted a whole new piece called High Priestess, baked lavender dark-chocolate scones (too much lavender, no eggs, not crispy—practice batch), went on the Yegi Project podcast, hit the gym, ran errands, and started saying two new wealth/manifestation mantras. I also talked Webby Award submissions, w...

Today was all about the tiny shifts that somehow add up. I lost a microphone, two podcast interviews fell through, and I still didn’t take the laundry off my bed—but I made the most delicious pomegranate-cinnamon-white-chocolate scones of my life, updated my website, and actually felt excited about what I’m building. My classmate even noticed the difference. I figured out a money-saving system, la...

Today’s episode is a softer one — a little “filler,” a little life update. I worked on my website, wrestled with DNS settings, went to the gym even though my stomach was being dramatic, and prepped for tomorrow’s podcast interview. I talk about my manifestation practice with my friend, gratitude, trying not to complain, trusting God’s timing, and figuring out next steps while living at home. I als...

In this episode, I talk through a long night of honesty, healing, and big realizations. After a tough interaction last night, my sister and I ended up diving into my 40-Day Transformation journal. It opened both of us up in unexpected ways. I also share what I’m manifesting for my birthday, why this year feels different, and how painting helped me reconnect to my purpose. This episode is about bui...

This episode includes discussions of family conflict, emotional abuse, accusations around sexuality, past sexual trauma, pregnancy, yelling, and references to being physically hit. Please listen with care and take breaks if you need to. Your nervous system matters Today unraveled in ways I didn’t expect. I spent the morning with my dad at his office, talked with my sister, dreamed up a workshop I’...

I went swimming today and accidentally did 31 minutes instead of 30, created a new stroke I’m calling “floating butterfly,” and ended up talking to a stranger in the spa for an hour and a half. He reminded me I’m on the right path, and my dad surprised me by offering to buy me a new laptop. I’m proud of my website progress, my journaling, and how aligned my week felt. Everything is unfolding exact...

Today I rambled with a warm neck, a cold body, and a very confused thermostat — but I also finished the first draft of my website, updated my journal, and worked out even though I was exhausted. I’m learning to slow down, honor my pace, and stop stressing my body into holding onto this cortisol belly. Tomorrow I meet with my mentor, eat my little protein yogurt, and finally go swimming. I’m overwh...

Today felt like a return to alignment. I got my mammogram, met a sweet Persian tech, treated myself to pizza and Dr. Pepper, crushed my dead hang at the gym, and recorded a beautiful podcast conversation. I journaled, doodled smiley faces, and felt proud that my art journal turned out even better than I imagined. Someone who bought it told me it helped them let go of perfectionism — and that made...

Today I talked about what ease and divine timing actually look like in real life — the messy, funny, unexpected kind. From doodling circles and squares in my “40 Days to Transformation” journal to discovering new ways to flow, I realized even simple things can teach patience, efficiency, and trust. I shared wins like my 9% dead-hang increase, my first persimmon (never again with the skin!), and so...

Today felt like a cosmic test I didn’t sign up for. I held a 34-second dead hang at the gym — small win — but then spent the rest of the day wrestling with tech issues, delays, and my own frustration. Three calls to TransUnion, a spiritual practice that left me questioning if I did it wrong, and a random rap song from my “song of the day” ritual that made zero sense. It was one of those days that...

Today was calls on calls on calls — friend calls, class calls, even a doctor call. I got my thyroid results back (turns out 75 was too much 😅), tried on new swimsuits, cooked, did readings, turned in homework, and still found time to manifest being paid for my creativity. Somewhere between the calls, I remembered that healing doesn’t have to be complicated — sometimes it’s as simple as reminding...

Today was one of those quietly full days that didn’t feel like much until I said it out loud — class, painting, thank-you emails, a nap, tomato-soup cake, and a few new manifestations. I’m learning how to honor rest, hydration, and creativity the same way I honor progress. I dreamed about future book deals and let myself exist in the middle of figuring it all out. I love you, and I’m proud of both...

Today I got both journals—40 Days to Transformation and 369 Days of Luck, Blessings and Love —fully fixed, formatted, and published (finally!). I talk about Adobe chaos, Canva breakthroughs, and how proud I am for figuring it all out. Then I share my new weekly “numbers experiment,” a little life structure with meaning behind each day, plus my next art + website goals. It’s been a big, productive,...

Today was a good day — even when things went sideways. The gym closed, red-light therapy died mid-session, and still, I kept smiling. I resized journals, wrote a new letter to my readers, did two podcast interviews (one with 125K listeners!), and somehow felt lighter by the end of it all. I even got invited onto another show — he found me! I’m learning clarity, living my wishes, and disappearing b...

Today’s episode is a soft one — about learning lessons, holding my own work in my hands, and remembering that even small wins are sacred. I talk about quality hugs, why I believe meaning fades when it’s overdone, and how it feels to see my art and journals finally come to life. There’s a little chaos, a little peace, and a lot of love. I’m proud of myself today — not because it’s perfect, but beca...

Today felt really good — grounded, productive, and kind. I sent my decorator emails, rescheduled my mammogram and ultrasound, met my new teacher (he’s great), and had a powerful class moment about running 1,001 experiments. It totally shifted my mindset about perfectionism and progress. I’m realizing that experimenting is how I learn, not how I fail. Even something small — like making ramen differ...

Today was a “laundry list” kind of day — the kind where everything feels small but sacred. I went to the doctor, took a nap with the lights on, sent a few emails, and remembered that effort counts too. I talked about letting life feel like a game you’ve already won, and about celebrating small wins (even if it’s just gummy bears and broccoli). It’s not glamorous, but it’s real — and maybe that’s e...

Today I talked about the quiet power of consistency — how showing up, even in small ways, can be an act of love. I shared my wins (like finally following through on a bunch of emails and interviews), the things I’m still figuring out, and what it really means to build a life through gentle, steady steps. It’s not glamorous, but it’s real — and it counts

Today was one of those quietly brave days 💪🎨 — I picked 10 of my paintings, watermarked them, and started getting ready to reach out to interior decorators in Houston 🏙️. It felt scary but exciting, like stepping into a new chapter 🌱. I spent most of the day talking with my bestie Nina 💞, and I even surprised her by tagging her in a TikTok video — she almost cried 😭 (happy tears, of course)....