Awaken into Love Podcast

After 10 years of supporting people with Relationship OCD (ROCD) and relationship anxiety around the world, there are a few things I wish I could go back and tell myself at the beginning of my own journey. In this solo episode, I reflect on the lessons I've learned through my own healing, as well as a decade of walking alongside thousands of individuals navigating ROCD. We explore: ♡ Why you're no...

What happens when relationship doubt feels so real you believe you have to leave? In this episode of Awaken Into Love , Kiyomi sits down with Cameron to explore his lived experience with Relationship OCD (ROCD), from the moment doubt appeared early in his relationship, to the shame, emotional suppression, and fear that followed. Cameron shares what it was like navigating ROCD as a man, including t...

Today, Manon (Awaken into Love Director) sits with Martina, a longtime Awaken into Love ROCD/RA community member and HOME member (our ROCD/RA peer-support group) whose journey will resonate with anyone who has ever questioned their relationship, doubted their feelings, or felt shame about their intrusive thoughts. In this deeply vulnerable conversation, Martina shares how ROCD first showed up thre...

In this episode of  Awaken into Love , Kiyomi dives into one of the biggest and most confusing parts of life with ROCD:  expansion . How do you grow, evolve, and follow your purpose when your mind is constantly pulling you back into fear and doubt? We explore: The paradox of wanting change while fearing it Common fears around outgrowing your partner or making the wrong choice How society's message...

We're back for season 2 of the Awaken into Love podcast! In this first episode, Kiyomi and Manon explore what it really means to thrive  with OCD and ROCD, beyond perfectionism, societal pressure, and comparison. This is the first part of the conversation. For the complete VIP episode, our Thriving Masterclass, and the LIVE deepening circle on Sept 27, join us inside our new membership: Awaken int...

In this new episode, we sit down with Kim, a beloved member of the Awaken Into Love community, to talk about her powerful journey through ROCD (Relationship OCD), anxiety, and healing. Kim opens up about discovering ROCD later in life after years of uncertainty, perfectionism, and self-doubt—and how the Awaken Into Love course and peer support community (formerly KIC, now HOME) helped her find cla...

In this new episode led by Manon, our Director & ROCD/RA Expert at Awaken into Love, Sherin (Awaken into Love Graduate & Member of Our HOME peer-support group) shares her struggles with Relationship Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (ROCD), detailing the shame and guilt that accompanied her feelings of disconnection from her partner. After two years of suffering in silence, discovering the existence o...

In this deeply personal episode, Kiyomi reflects on the journey that began in 2017 with her first vulnerable video about Relationship OCD (ROCD). She shares how that one act of courage has grown into a global movement through Awaken into Love, helping thousands find words for their pain and a path toward healing. Kiyomi revisits her journals, old Facebook photos, and memories from 17 years of livi...

🎙 In this powerful and vulnerable episode of the Awaken into Love Podcast, Manon sits down with Isla, a graduate of the ROCD course and former member of HOME, our peer support group (formerly known as KIC). From a small seaside town in Scotland, Isla opens up about her six-year journey with ROCD, retroactive jealousy OCD, neurodivergence (ADHD and exploring autism), and the hidden grief beneath ob...

In this heartfelt episode of the Awaken into Love Podcast, host Manon (Awaken into Love Director) sits down with Monica, a cherished member of the Awaken into Love community, to discuss her transformative journey through Relationship OCD (ROCD). Monica shares her story of discovering ROCD after a challenging period in her relationship and how she learned to navigate OCD, anxiety, and depression. T...

How do you navigate big life decisions when you experience Relationship OCD? How do you make "big" steps when you experience thoughts that tell you to run? Maybe you're thinking about comitting deeper, moving into together, getting engaged, getting married, having a baby, getting a pet together or maybe it's another transition that doesn't seem "big" in societies standards. Whatever it is! This is...

Could changing the way you relate to Relationship OCD/Relationship Anxiety help heal ROCD? Understand how parts work, art therapy and acceptance commitment therapy can help your own healing journey with ROCD. This is especially important for people who are looking for new ways of healing. Meet Kat Williamson, our Awaken into Love coach. Kat is here to help you move through the storm of relationshi...

Could there also be a deeper, mysterious reason for why you're experiencing Relationship OCD and Relationship Anxiety? Could Relationship OCD/Relationship Anxiety in someway be helping you? What if the reason wasn't because you were bad, wrong or a reason that there was something fundamentally wrong with you... What if Relationship OCD / Relationship Anxiety was there to tell you something DEEPER...

Do you ever feel like just ENDING your relationship? Maybe the ROCD/RA has been there for a while and you question why you keep going. You tell yourself that "it's taking too long", "its not worth it" and other thoughts that make you feel like you should just break up. In this podcast episode, I interview Manon Lamarque who flew all the way from France to Colorado to sit with me to help you. Manon...

In this podcast episode, I interview Erin Logan, former awaken into love and as she expressed, proud former KIC member, holistic somatic coach and certified mind body coach who is also certified in somatic attachment therapy. We talk about the power of healing through the body, why you can't "heal" through the mind (through thinking) and why the body is the gateway toward true integration and expa...

If you feel like ROCD/RA has been there for a long time , and it's felt lonely, then this one episode is for you. In this podcast episode, Kiyomi interviews Maya from Germany where she expresses how she's experienced ROCD/RA for 8 years. Her determination to do her inner work and embrace healing has reshaped her path. Discover how she found the strength to over come, and gain insights into thrivin...

What does having ROCD/RA REALLY feel like and what does a person without ROCD/RA do? In this podcast episode, I talk about the extraordinary difference between both. This episode isn't meant to bring about negative comparison but to help you empower yourself to recognize that these feelings, thoughts, and sensations are NORMAL. It is not the thoughts that matter, but how we REACT to them that make...

Do you get obsessive and compulsive about your partner's romantic history? Do you fixate on if your partner thinks about other people and if they'll cheat? Do you compulsively ask your partner for reassurance about yourself and their romantic history? Do you look through their phone and fixate over people they could be speaking to? Maybe you also feel controlling about who they can speak to and wh...

I've waited long enough, and it's time. I feel as though I owe you all an explanation. I have so much to share with you. I'm ready to finally dive in and come clean to you about where I've been this past year and what's happened. In this episode, I tell you what I've been doing, why I haven't been as present on social media, other very personal questions you've been asking me, and more. My intenti...

ERP (Exposure and Response Prevention) in the world of OCD is labeled as the "gold standard for OCD", and while it may work for many, it MAY not work for everyone... and that's okay. In this podcast episode, I interview Erin, a member of my Inner Circle (KIC) who brings her wisdom and knowledge through ROCD/RA. We talk about why ERP was more traumatizing for her and why it's important to remind pe...

"Waiting for the shoe to drop" is something that will resonate with you if you're constantly on alert waiting for the next OCD thought to come, or you feel uneasy in safety, connection, and peace with your partner, feeling as though something could be ALWAYS BE WRONG. Waiting for the shoe to drop almost feels secretive, like something that's hidden because the behavior is usually so deeply ingrain...

Self-compassion and kindness is one of the most crucial and important pieces to finding freedom from Relationship OCD and Relationship Anxiety. In this podcast episode, Kiyomi takes you through a loving-kindness meditation practice to help you kick start your week with self-love and gentleness for your heart.

Did you know that unconscious projection in a relationship can cause suffering and ROCD/RA? When I learned about the psychology of projection years ago, it blew my mind and I have a feeling it'll BLOW your mind too. In this podcast episode, Kiyomi interviews Dani from Germany all on her healing around Projection. We talked about what projection is and how it may be showing up in your relationship....

Do you notice yourself trying to FIX or CHANGE your partner? Do you fall into a codependent dynamic of trying to heal your partner and vice versa? In this podcast episode, Kiyomi takes Manon through a mini, LIVE coaching session. They talk about why people fall into fixing roles, resentment in relationships, the energetics of being in this dynamic, and many a-ha moments as to why what ROCD/RA is t...

What is trauma and why is trauma connected to ROCD/RA? Are specialists missing a key component piece if they don't address trauma? Why true and deep healing takes place in the body and how to start the process yourself. In this podcast episode, Kiyomi interviews Lara, a ROCD Academy course and AIR graduate with 7 years of wisdom and knowledge in bodywork. Join them in this special podcast episode...