An Inconceivable Life

Terrorising college students in Gilli suits, finding someone on my philosophy level, discovering the philosophical nature of love, the last of the hospital trips, seeing dainel daxo again after ages, Being king of the nerds, getting pretty sick, lots of conversations with lots of people, getting the cancer free news, my birthday (I'm old now), flying to GCU to hang with em and sam, hiking with...

Hanging with Sam and katie, hanging with the macys, lamest Christmas ever, boy band dancing, Amilias wedding, broom ball, blamed for false airport failing, hanging with Cabel, seeing the Hamiltons again, hikeing with david, hiking with braden, benj, nessa and sam are dutch bliz GODS, Violet Evergarden rewatch, all the racketballs, playing at table tennis olympus, yoga, great conversation with jess...

Doing what is almost certainly the hardest thing I've ever done in my life with salvage chemo, becoming wo-wo and unlocking the democracy of the mind. Much suffering and literally almost dying. And yeah, all the events surrounding that life-shaping experience!

Grace leaves for NZ, chemo is the worst (I hate mood swings), made a dope hangout room, did quite a number of social gatherings, found Si bliss with reading and chettos and consequently read many books, did pickleball and airsoft, visited vibey locations, got my butt drilled into, did a haunted corn maze, and got my hair dyed (its actually great)

Did a ren fair, spent 2 weeks in Georgia, the country with the fam during which so much happened. My Se is tired, had an Ni Ai crisis, Em left for college, Air mattresses with benj (actually so peek) started chemo and that sucks, lots of mini-hang outs, and not dead yet!

FINALLY beat benj in racketball! Grace won’t look at the sun, many many good conversations. Epic Pennsylvania trips, had a moral crisis, the height of the hotness transformation, garbage pet scan results, big hike, and a random party morgan slurped us into.

So many trips, spent time with selah and esther in idaho, went to a derby, drank alcohol, really good conversations, parasailed, kayaked, sensory deprivation and great food. Went to breckenridge with the grace gang, much cards, emotions, hot tub with the kiwis and great views, attended the wades wedding and dances a bunch, did a birthday celebration for nessa, traveled to glenwood springs and did...

Had my worst hair cutting experience ever, a number of hard but good talks, finished reading cancer books, alot of various grace gang hang outs, running work events, some fun outdoor stuff, more baldur's gate then I care to admit, absolutely PEEK vibes with nessa, benj and anna, johns wedding and bachelor party, finding another ENTJ, joe's bachelor party and wedding, and celebrating katie's birthd...

Did a bit of creative writing, re-thought Neos MBTI type, lots of insignificant social events, putting plants in my room for coolness, Neos two day birthday party, a great rain walk, planned so many trips this summer, finding paid surveys and great comics.

Getting mega addicted to baldur's gate 3, learning quantum physics, having genus thoughts, airsoft, saint patty's day drinking, becoming sick with something and not getting sleep because of it, spending time with all the peoples, going on a spontaneous blade, medieval cage fight viewing, a pointless ER visit. Raging against doctors. Hurting myself through sports.

Revealing all the hard inner work I did, cookies are evil, nuns are cool, spent 4 days at a monastery fasting, getting mega skinny for a hot sec, enjoying food like never before, chess games, getting a ticket, good jake talks and most significantly, meow wolf!

Epic snow walks, Losing in racquetball SO hard, Zack is here from NZ, feeling my cancer for the first time, elders praying over me, riding in a Lamborghinis, started a new chemo regimen, cried in front of grace for the first time in my life and did much socialising.

Chipping my tooth in a stupid way, lots of stuff with friends, using my ENFJ spider sense, starting my ‘get RIPPED’ program, being a surrogate boyfriend, trying yoga for the first time, STILL having cancer, ranting about godel's incompleteness theorem, discovering EPIC, jake stepping down as life update narrator, and reading for AGES.

Many a frisbee golf game, meeting new nerds, kava bar, many pill boxes, beating people in queenless chess, shooting ALL the real guns, shooting all the fake guns, being the Sadducee you’re sad you didn’t see and getting to be sexist as part of a ‘bit’, the meeting of the great minds, a great night out with william and Matthew, street racing johanna (and winning ; D), killing karina with my Te, mag...

Big brain reperspectiving problems, talking with cancer docs, the Varleys arrive in the states! Many good conversations with my typical friends, many good conversations with the imported friends but especially william, various big fun group hang outs, cooking eggs on a rock, so many pills, Joe's birthday party, lots of cancer reading, watching drama, SO much Intravenous Vitamin C, revising all my...

MD Anderson trip of death, big good and fancy airport lounge, hanging out with many friends on many occasions. Lots of vibe sessions, super laborious pill boxes BUT got help from ray james, got a new oncologist, some good magic, tons of racquetball, katie being a kingly man, lots of cancer reading and some of it was WACK, games in the CSU library, the worst texas trip ever, absolute waste of life,...

AI is going crazy and I’m riding the wave. My modified cancer plan, hanging with the LMT people, the worst I’ve ever felt emotionally, being a fancy pant-y dancy man, SO much cancer research, a bunch of new magic cards and the work that comes with looking through them, getting back on my feet after feeling garbage emotionally, pivoting my cancer plan, learning a ton, getting access to the drug bla...

Some thoughts on the nature of empathy, perfecting my nuts, backyard concerts, speed seek, lots of racquetball with benj, rollerblading, good star gazing, the ESFJ talk, a good amount of cancer research, my first LMT hangout, running like a beast, graces 18th birthday party (so much fun), and good walks in beautiful fall weather.

End of star wars D and D campaign, hanging out with the grace gang, lots of racquetball with benj, late night scooter powered blading, dancing majestically, my first paid life coach gig! Realizing how much people judge you based on your appearance, the bi-annual weeb-off, various good conversations, riding a horse for the first time, super epic (lol and long) rollerblading at night, DNA testing, b...

Pool and rain conversations, a call back to my apologetics days, a mandatory and frankly arduous vacation, my siblings cuddling with their significant others, mostly boring walks, going around telluride and encountering waterfalls, saw a bear. Read my first fiction book in ages, a secret hot spring on the mountainside and a hot spring in a cave. Looking into a deep canyon, and getting a great text...

Having a very vivid dream, being known via osmosis, 4th of july goings ons, examinations the way of the FJ, Jugernoting airsoft, reconnecting with katie, arguing with dad, racketball and other such sports with benj, bedazzling graces car, deck building, reading cancer books, and a super long night walk.

Hanging with the kiwis, a lengthy drive with sam, FINALLY starting my homebrew cure myself of cancer regime, running barefoot in the rain, hanging with the cousins, going to a bar, eating far too healthily, da walk, beautiful lake sunsets, boulder at night, throwing up for the first time in 10 years and many good conversations.

Speaking with all the belligerent real doctors, paying exorbitant amounts for the belligerent fake doctors, sprinklers and sliding, giving the catholic talk like three times, crafting kilts, orthobros, getting rated, SO MANY social interactions, being green, big shooting, the most costly old man speel ever, drinking and chess, standfords with females, all consuming base, celtic women concert, 26 h...

Strawberry hot springs, dog-leash rollerblading, mega hurting my elbow, bukies, smart catholic things, hanging with the myers, finishing life update email backlogs, cancer gets way worse, super depressed. Claw tank lego gift, spending time with grace's friend group, smoking a pipe, so much cancer research, and crowd control.