This Is Actually Happening

“I don’t know what I was thinking but I just kept feeling like the waves of shame because of the shame I made them feel.”   Producer:  Whit Missildine Editor : Whit Missildine Episode Summary: Growing up in a household full of both love and violence in Mississippi, Kiese Laymon struggles with generational trauma, career success, and addiction before finally facing the silences of his pas...

“I did have the feeling that someone was gonna come back and do something horrible again after that.”   Producer:  Whit Missildine Editors : Nigel Coutinho, Whit Missildine Episode Summary: Terra Newell is thrown a nightmare scenario as her mother’s new love life spins out of control, while the ordeal takes on a new life as the centerpiece of the famous Dirty John podcast and TV series....

“My personhood had been shattered into a thousand pieces that I and my family were left to pick up one at a time.”   Producer:  Whit Missildine Editor : Whit Missildine Episode Summary: After self-medicating for years to cope with the emotional aftermath of an abusive, religious upbringing, a woman goes in for a minor surgery, and when she emerges, everything has changed. Today's episode...

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“How could I allow myself to mourn what I had lost? Because if I mourned it, then it was like a death, and I couldn’t accept that the me that I knew had died.”   Producer:  Whit Missildine Editor : Whit Missildine Episode Summary: After devoting his life to a singular passion, a man develops a rare condition that threatens to crush his dreams forever. Today’s episode featured Stefan Wein...

“All that traumatized people are really looking for is not a fix-it but more like a validation or acknowledgement that it matters.”   Producer:  Whit Missildine Editor : Nigel Coutinho Episode Summary: A woman finally establishes a life for herself after years of caring for her mother’s illness, only to watch her entire life be consumed before her eyes. Social Media:  Instagram: @ac...

“It’s interesting always having this void, knowing that you have something so wonderful that could love you so much and you could love so much that exists out there.”   Producer:  Whit Missildine Editor : Nigel Coutinho Episode Summary: A young man falls deeply in love after meeting the girl of his dreams, leading to an unexpected event that leaves him with an irreparable void.  Soc...

“I have a fear every single day am I going crazy and I don’t even know it? I didn’t know the things that I was doing and the things that I was saying were so extreme.”   Producer:  Whit Missildine Editor : Nigel Coutinho Episode Summary: After surviving a father whose mental illness consumed the family, a woman spirals down into psychosis and compulsive behaviors, finally leading her on...

“People say you should always trust your gut feelings. But I couldn’t trust my gut feeling and I still can’t to this day, because to me a gut feeling is in turn thinking about hurting somebody else.”   Producer:  Whit Missildine Editor : Nigel Coutinho Episode Summary: After coming to terms with her identity, a woman develops intrusive thoughts that consume her most important relationshi...

"We're still here. What part are we playing in all this?" Producer:  Whit Missildine Episode Summary:  After finally deciding to settle into a long term relationship, a woman becomes tangled in a web of confusion, guilt and grief as her partner self-destructs Social Media:  Instagram: @actuallyhappening Website:  www.thisisactuallyhappening.com Support the Show:  Support T...