The Journals Of MJ Unleashed

still in a haze of anxiety & shame, I share a little revelation about courage. somehow, I connect learning to do a headstand with regaining a sense of alignment & a jumpstart back into sync with life--which I am feeling very out of sync with atm. it's almost silly I'd forgotten about courage again, cause it is so linked with vulnerability, empowerment & being true ones self. listen to...

here's a little sunday night recap on my creative routines from this past week. I talk about the frustration of where I am in my book-writing, the perfectionism walls I am hitting with my songwriting & how the first week on my new schedule worked out in general. it's been a week of (some what foreseeable) comparison, shame & roaring perfectionism, y'all. but I am still creating.  than...

in this episode I share the shame-spiral of the day brought on by a bad case of comparison. this is my fear of being behind,  fear of not doing enough, fear of not being enough. I share with you what brought it on, how I am shifting my mindset & trying to let all the comparing be a guide instead of an enemy. this is vulnerable & human AF.  thank you for listening, love. if you en...

y'all, it's about to get vulnerable. in this episode I share my thoughts after having written to my band sharing my mental health status, this podcast & my MJ Unleashed IG account. I talk about the shame, the fear, the vulnerability in disclosing to my 'professional' relationships my authentic self . I realize I have been utterly ashamed of being who I am for so, so long.  for more MJ Unl...

first, I give a short update om setting a new creative routine up & how that went on this first day. then I get into some feelings I had after a wonderful meeting with a fellow creative, Nanna Hofmann. I share why I experienced feelings of comparison & shame come up, & why it turned into a vulnerability hangover.  go follow this amazing creative, Nanna Hofmann , on IG @_justnanna...

coming down off a breakthrough can be a little daunting--I'm somewhere in between procrastinating, tending to my mental health & wondering how the H I'm gonna follow through on all the NEW ideas I have. I ramble about time-management & how this is about finding some balance between creating just enough & resting.  for more MJ Unleashed connect on with me on IG @mjunleashed_ https:...

y’all, I friggin wrote a sooooong! THIS IS CRAZY! I talk about how allowing myself to create shitty art got me through it, but also why I actually can’t even call my new creation shit. cause, you know, it's not my job to judge, it's my job to create! 'bad’ is the new ‘good’, y’all—you’ll have to listen to figure out what that means. for more MJ Unleashed connect on with me on IG @mjunleashed_ http...

I have so much to update you on after the short break--I'm having breakthroughs around my music! In this episode I get into how this is all about repairing a RELATIONSHIP with music, about reestablishing trust & respecting boundaries. I get into how our relationsship broke down, how perfectionism, shame & even trauma play into it. also, I share how I feel myself opening up again lately. sl...

getting into the huge topic of external validation; how it has caused me to burn-out & how a need for it is demanding my attention these days. I talk about my shame around wanting to be seen, heard & known. the ego-driven ways the need has shown up in my life & musical career. but also how it is a fuckin valid need that we all have. we are not islands--we are here to connect. I am allo...

woke up this morning thinking about the WHY. the WHY behind my showing up to create & how it differs from practice to practice. also, how it has hurt NOT knowing my WHY when it comes to music. I talk about the IG post I did on this topic today, share my day of creating & procrastinating & allow myself to take the coming weekend off to rest. for more MJ Unleashed connect on with me on I...

day 7 of my musical reconnect, I travel back home to visit family. I share how I've prepared for this trip; my worries about keeping up with my daily creative practices & a lot about how I permit myself to be flexible with my practice, when my body's low on energy. I also manage to throw in a little rant about hustle culture, productivity, & tell us to goddamn TRUST & listen to our cle...

I wanna connect with you! so I share with you how I got the idea for connecting with my IG community through what I call 'DAILY CREATIVITY'. I rant about how it's okay that it's not perfect & very messy, and somehow I manage to weave in my experiences of my musical reconnection here on day 6. if you wanna join me in my DAILY CREATIVITY fun, come find me on IG by following link below. for more MJ U...

wrapping up day 5 of reconnecting with music & delving into some shame & ego around this whole sharing thing. I talk about how my mind seems to forget all the magical connections I AM creating & how it only seems to cares about MORE MORE MORE, be it followers, likes or listeners. exhausting & human, I know. listen to hear me talk my way back to myself again. for more MJ Unleashed c...

doing a sunday night recap on my progress & observations of the weekend. it's day 4 of reconnecting with music--some stuff is working & some is def not! I'm exploring how I can keep it simple AF. also, I finally reveal the secret project I've been working on for two weeks! lots of joy & hope in this one. enjoy! for more MJ Unleashed connect on with me on IG @mjunleashed_ https://www.in...

on DAY TWO of reconnecting with songwriting, I go deep into detective mode. I investigate what feelings are coming up, what resistance, how I can tweak my practice so I can become calmer & safer yet in the creative process. for instance, I ponder how unfinished work is a huge part of my block. times are exciting! for more MJ Unleashed connect on with me on IG @mjunleashed_ https://www.instagram.co...

it's my first day of committing to 5 min's of daily music creation! I share with you how my this day went, how I handled the inevitable procrastination, prepped myself & how my body reacted afterwards. after 3+ years in a severe creative block, I'm excited & hopeful & in awe of myself for friggin doing the work! this is a creative recovery in real time, y'all. for more MJ Unleashed con...

music is on my mind, y'all, so in this episode I ponder how to I can set myself up to succeed in this. I go through 3 deals I want to take with myself before re-approaching the anxiety-filled space that is 'writing music'. also, I share with you an update & revelation I JUST had about my long sought-after WHY--my reason to create music.  for more MJ Unleashed connect on with me on IG @mju...

YES--it is true. I have a little itsy bitsy breakthrough I'm gonna share with you in this episode. after being in my head for several days, I've come to some deep longings around my creativity; I share with you why I am thinking about TRYING to maybe create music again--whaaat! there are some big highs & lows in this one, y'all. (btw, my apologies for the microphone noise at the end) for more...

yes, spending most of my bed can be uneventful, though 'luckily' my brain still turned some tricks for me to share with ya'. I go through the thoughts I have about DELETING (!!!) episode 13, how that episode was extra-ordinarily vulnerable for me & how I'm dealing with the vulnerability hangover it of course gave me today. for more MJ Unleashed connect on with me on IG @mjunleashed_ https://ww...

embracing the darkness & allowing myself to talk about in this episode. this is haaaaard, y'all! I talk about the fear of being swallowed by the heavy emotions & the fear of letting the darkness into my art--shame is all over the place in this one. so this is a reminder that we are still allowed to be here on shitty days, that we are still worthy of taking up space & creating. for more...

mental health issues SUCK! I talk about how my mental health & the physical limitations surrounding them can be real fearmongers for me & my creative dreams. I tell my story of burn out, how it has opened new creative doors & try to remind myself (& you) to trust that our future is bright. we will get through this. this will get better. for more MJ Unleashed connect on with me...

noticing how I'm trying to control the outcome of these entries. I dig deeper into why that is & how reconnecting with trust, my intuition & knowing I am enough are the antidote. this is me practicing letting go, showing up authentically, generously, vulnerably. no plan, no scheduled agenda. just me surrendering.  find Amie McNee (my creativity coach) https://www.instagram.com/inspire...

perfectionism & shame have a friend--and its name is judgement! again today, I go into a shame/perfectionism reaction from my day, but this time acknowledge another layer, judgement. I eloborate on how I judge myself, & how judging others is basically judging myself too. look out for when I name drop the IG artist Florence Given & throw the word internalized misogyni into the mix. for...

I share with you a shame triggering experience I had today around choosing the creative life. I reveal my 4 limiting beliefs and shame voices & how I combat them. & of course I name drop the infamous Brené Brown (links below). for the keen listener, I share a little secret at the end of the episode... uuhh Brené Brown https://brenebrown.com https://www.instagram.com/brenebrown OR visit MJ'...

my inner child pops its adorable self in in this journal entry! I talk about boundaries around creating, how I tell the difference between procrastination & needing to rest, & how I'm rebuilding trust within myself & my creativity. sending love to our magical inner children. the podcast is now available om Apple Podcasts, Google Podcast, Spotify & more. visit my instagram for links...