Personal Code Of Conduct

So this is a hopeful redemption arc for the previous shit show of a xianxia podcast (though this is still kind of potato quality). This time I have guest over zoom, we talk about what xianxia is, how we discovered xianxia, our favorite and most hated tropes in xianxia and what we are currently reading... We wander off a bit to use anime to explains some points , make baseless claims on the ideolog...

so I had nothing special to talk about but I did try something new I got the instrumental of the song i put at the end (black velvet) and used it as background music for the podcast, other music the vibe is general depression with a giant dash of whimsy... yay me as a person in podcast form....like always say it is a personal code of conduct so yeah....

I just realised the flow I went with podcast  really meshes well with my song of the week... maybe I should attached more songs and make it like my regular thing... so much random knowledge and me laughing at the philosophy texts I have in my ebook reader .... join me to laugh at books i haven't touched, also when I say Hardy, I mean the hardy boys frank and joe?.... 

So it's another mediocre podcast but mic's waaaaaay better....I wanted to not feel inadequate when I am not number 1.... Psst the key is accepting that humanity as a while is special but individuals we really mirror each other

So I am still playing around with the new mic...fixed the mic boost issue but I made the volume playback too low....so no background music so I won't drown out the sound.... just undiluted dayo's voice.... Technical issues aside, I cover security in old age, the importance of marriage contracts, being an ambivert and a better friend.

So the long ass intro is kind of scratchy but meh.... Existenialism starts at 21 mins , it's basically me patting myself on the back for my awesomeness...also all of humanity should be thrown away and oh it's a PERSONAL code of conduct...

So it's one of those direction less episodes, I am anxious but kind of happy...join me with poor notes and an Klein article on self discovery.... A bit breezy but the towel does improve the audio

I say why I don't want to half ass talking about my dream about being a global , citizen I look inwards to find the source of my self doubt... In a lazy fashion as usual ..commenting on someone else's article...

A backup topic when I decided my preferred topic needed actual research and lived experience... I decided to do a reaction style podcast to an article Quincy Larson suggested on freecodecamp.

I thought I would be more dramatic, about strating a new chapter in my life or feel something or want something or throw out plans but I just started talking about things that happened today it's dull I guess. ..

Although the title looks smooth and pretty, it didn't start that way. I thought I was going to do comparison between analytical thinking and creative thinking but due to very little research material, I ended up out lining my very analytical approach to creation in my love for drawing, writing and data analytics.

So I hoping to move from a consumption addict to a creation elite lol... I ramble on about my data woes, operamini and manga, I lost 9 minutes of audio 😭😭😭, what's going on, I cut it out though

Audio is still bad, I think it's my mic is bad, I assumed it was because I was outside last week .... I am going stop using it... Next week...Sha Sha I went on and one about writing three different novels changing details.... One hour of interesting convo wasted 😭😭😭😭

So basically you can barely hear anything I am saying ... I ramble on and on about xianxia novels I have read and how they are against or align with my values, I end with my dreams and my desire to have faith in myself. . Basically my headphones are trash for outside recording

Basically I try to find out the cause of my worries and wonder if validation(internal or external) motivation for living, also I who e about getting fat and shitty eating habits

Vibey, rambly, personal update, no real substance just vibes

Months of being freaked out about being fired, I finally quit .... And I don't have a job lined up, but I need to get myself and determine what I really want to do with my life... I talk about data science, webnovels and I affirm my beliefs....

As usual you won't learn anything, still to a bit too dramatic , maybe it will push you to look at yourself and ask yourself why you drown yourself in entertainment and do you daydream

So I went ham on the music, okay not really ham but still anchor music just four different ones...Its chill I am lying down for this, I try to figure out , why I am so down when someone basically said what I thought of myself and I was trying to change

In this episode I talk, about how I think I became a know it all, why I am still, do I want to fix it and what exact I am going to change... I know my audio is trash but it's going to be especially trash today because I recorded this outside ... TMI no asked for but I a bee flew into my shirt and stung me just as I finished recording this.

As usual your host didn't plan, but she did find tacky articles to give opinions on then fall into a sad slump as she drowned deeper into her fears

I talk in circles,with no direction but I did manage to plan my week put some dreams on a shelf,pop out new dreams, I am definitely going to judge myself next week... The playlists I talked about https://music.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLiQSl23szF1LML_a6-X91N8vE8tuek3iU https://music.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLiQSl23szF1JoDLc4xprBBpYnG3-P5jrb https://music.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLiQSl23szF1IE...

Basically I just spend 99% of the episode just being sad and miserable, so maybe some resolution ..... Just being a sad sap ..

Am I even introspective, my thoughts about introspection and answering a beginner guide to introspection on positivepsycohology.com, maybe this is a part one or something.

Basically I went through a voluntary childlessness wikipage , and looked inwards to find out why I am on the fence about having,children spoiler alert for me it's turns out it's mostly about the uncertainty of my own future...