Secret Wilderness

After 22 years together, Rick’s wife changed his life with five words: “I don’t love you anymore.” Rick was on a roller coaster, heading toward his unfinished past, their uncertain future, & one uncanny therapy: Psychedelic drugs. Chapters (00:00) Intro clip (02:32) The event that led to Rick using psychedelic therapy. (02:44) How Rick met his wife. (04:11) Growing up never fitting in. (5:50)...

In 2022, Susan discovered her husband’s history of infidelity. The betrayal pulled the rug from under her life & uncovered hidden pain from yet another betrayal:  The sexual abuse she had suffered as a child at the hands of her grandfather.  Susan was overwhelmed — pushing her to attempt suicide.  But her husband intercepted her, & begged her to try psychedelic therapy. He felt it was help...

Susan had been betrayed from almost birth.  But she didn’t feel it until her fifties.  She didn’t feel it until her adult world was also turned upside down by betrayal. As the repressed pain burst to the surface, Susan struggled. She eventually turned to psychedelic therapy, with one question consuming her:  Could she heal years of betrayal? Chapters (00:00) Intro clip (01:33) Notes on how we’re i...

Kylie grew up in a deeply religious community. She felt her world was strictly prescribed from the beginning, limited to a certain set of beliefs, a certain group of people, and just one future: Being a mother.  But this never sat right with Kylie. While these beliefs were part of her home, they never felt like home. So, despite being told who she was from before she was born, she never knew it, h...

From before she could remember, Kylie was told exactly who she was & should be. The only problem: It never felt like the truth to her. So Kylie decided to find herself, herself. Carrying a painful secret, she left her home and her faith on a journey to answer one question: Who am I? A question she’d confront head-on during MDMA therapy. Chapters (00:00) Intro clip (02:42) What was it like grow...

After his relationship with Emily ended, John moved to a new city & dove headfirst into Ayahuasca. With the help of Liam, a modern shaman, John faced ego death, repressed anger, & a troubling question: What was the nature of his godfather’s love for him growing up? Chapters (00:00) Intro clip (02:54) What happened after your relationship with Emily ended? (07:15) How did you come into your...

In college, John was fascinated by the fringes of human experience. It was at the fringes where he learned about psychedelic therapy. It was also there, during his first MDMA experience, where he fell in love with Emily.  But that love didn’t last. And in the wake of disappointment, John couldn’t help but wonder:  Was the love real… or only a high? (00:00) Intro clip (03:12) When did you start usi...

For his whole life, Daniel wanted to connect with God. He tried yet didn’t find that connection in religion. But he did, in psychedelics. As a result, these spiritual experiences were now the center of his life. Then, Daniel was confronted with a question he didn’t expect: Had his love for psychedelics become an addiction? Chapters:  (00:00) Intro clip (03:04) When and what was your first psychede...

To Andy, psychedelics were magic.  A portal he discovered in high school and never forgot it as an adult.  But psychedelics were also pain. Particularly mushrooms. He’d take them hoping for a high, but psilocybin often had other plans. Noise flooded his mind. He worried about what everyone around him was saying. He worried about what everyone was thinking. He worried about everything so much he “c...

Is MDMA love real? Can you get addicted to psychedelics? What if a trip reveals something terrible? Secret Wilderness travels the depths of psychedelic therapy — & no territory is off limits. Each episode is an in-depth, anonymous, & remarkably honest interview with someone who’s taken psychedelics therapeutically. Each episode is also created with the same intent: To help someone on their...