Ayahuasca Integration Podcast

How do you manage a very difficult Ayahuasca ceremony? How do you find your way through a ceremony when you feel overwhelmed, frightened, or lost? And when the ceremony ends, how do you begin to integrate an experience you may still be struggling to understand? What can you turn towards when the experience feels beyond your capacity? Perhaps you went into ceremony with a prayer, an intention, and...

DOWNLOAD THE FREE MUSIC, MEDITATION AND PRAYER GUIDE HERE: https://www.ayahuascaintegration.org/five-practices Are you struggling to stay connected to the divine experience you touched during Ayahuasca? Maybe it has been one week or one year since you last met the grandmother. Perhaps you are carrying dense energy you cannot move, purge, or even name. Or maybe it feels like grief: your frequency h...

What happens when you drink a lot of Ayahuasca but never integrate what you receive? Today we dive into the dangers everyone on this path should be aware of, and the 12 questions you should ask yourself after an Ayahuasca ceremony, before you dive into the next. Download the free questionnaire for this episode here: ⁠ https://ayahuascaintegration.org/guides/12-dangers-of-ayahuasca-without-integrat...

Trigger warning: This episode includes personal stories of childhood abuse and murder. Download the free companion workbook for this episode here: https://ayahuascaintegration.org/guides/wounds-that-still-control-you What if the person who hurt you is gone from your life, but still has access to your consciousness? What if the event ended twenty years ago, but one memory can still pull you into an...

FREE WORKBOOK ACCOMPANYING THIS EPISODE ⁠⁠https://ayahuascaintegration.org/guides/tree-of-integration-workbook⁠⁠ Your ceremony may reveal many truths. Your life may only have space to live one of them right now. Which insight is ready to become real in how you live? Which one is simply the loudest? And what can be preserved without being forced into action? In this episode, David Vox introduces th...

What if transforming your karma is not about suffering your way through it? What if it happens when you step fully into your dharma, into the life that makes you happiest, most purposeful, and most alive? Today, we have the honor of meeting Yerumael, whose path with Ayahuasca began through a sequence of events she could never have planned. After leaving a successful career in Swiss banking, she mo...

Do you know how to give, serve, and support others, but struggle to fully receive? In this episode, we enter the medicine of self-celebration and explore how to expand our capacity to receive the love, beauty, support, recognition, and goodness already present in our lives. Download the free workbook and begin the 7-Day Celebration Experience that accompanies this episode: We dive into one of the...

What gifts has ayahuasca already awakened within you? For this episode, you'll need the free 12 Gifts of Ayahuasca Integration workbook → https://ayahuascaintegration.org/guides/twelve-gifts-workbook In this episode of the Ayahuasca Integration Podcast , I explore the 12 Gifts of Ayahuasca Integration and the question that follows every ceremony: How do I live the gifts that medicine has alrea...

The Four Movements of Surrender: ( DOWNLOAD HERE: https://ayahuascaintegration.org/four-movements-of-surrender What if the life you built is not wrong, but simply too small for who you are becoming? What if Ayahuasca is not asking you to understand more, prepare more, or control the ceremony better, but to surrender more completely to what is already trying to move through you? In this episode, I...

Before you listen: grab the free 12 Dimensions of Wholeness Self-Enquiry Form — the exact tool we reference in this episode for getting honest with yourself before ceremony. 📥 [Download it free here → https://ayahuascaintegration.org/12-dimensions-of-wholeness Most conversations about Ayahuasca focus on one night — the ceremony. But after years of facilitating retreats, we've found that real,...

Imagine living your dream life — and then Ayahuasca shows you it's all going to burn to the ground. This is the most personal story I've ever shared. A story about love, identity, control, betrayal, and collapse. The relationship I thought would become my future family. The dream house. The animals I loved like children. The success. The identity I had spent years constructing. Suddenly a...

In the world's largest study of ayahuasca for depression and anxiety, the results are stunning: 1. ​ 78%  of people with depression reported major improvement or full resolution. ​2. Nearly  one in three  said their depression was completely gone. ​3. For anxiety?  70%  showed significant improvement. But what's even more fascinating is the  new model of healing  the scientists uncovered....

Why are you feeling worse after the Ayahuasca ceremony? You came for healing. Now you feel off. Angry. Disconnected. What felt clear in ceremony feels far away. This is where many people start doubting the process. In this episode, we break down the three real reasons this happens. What is actually being activated. Why the experience doesn’t hold once you’re back in your life. And how to work with...

Called to be of service with your medicine? This is a new series on the Ayahuasca Integration Podcast called Sacred Service . Alongside our regular weekly episodes, I share short teachings from the work I do with students who feel called to bring their healing, their voice, and their medicine into service. The dream behind this series is that more unique spiritual leaders step forward. People who...

What if the fear of spiritual parasites isn’t irrational… but incomplete? In this episode, I take you into a moment in ceremony where I felt something on my body that I could not remove. Not with breath. Not with force. Not with will. And what became clear in that moment changed how I understand this work completely: you don’t remove what’s feeding. you close what’s open. We go into what people ca...

What Happens When Ayahuasca Shows You Something You're Not Ready to See? ...Maybe you just walked out of ceremony carrying something you didn't ask for. ...Maybe it was about someone you love. ...Maybe it was so big, so confusing, or so threatening that part of you has been trying to put it back ever since. This episode is for that moment. In this podcast, David Vox shares two times the me...

You came home from ceremony changed — but the life that was waiting for you didn't know that yet. In this episode, we walk through the four essential dimensions of integration: the physical, the emotional, the mental, and the spiritual. In this episode you'll discover: 🌿 What integration actually means — and why the Latin root of the word holds the key to everything 🌍 The Physical Direct...

Is humanity healing — or is it falling apart? Right now the world feels like it's burning. And maybe it is. But what if that's not the tragedy we think it is? What if we're not dying — but in labor? Tina "Kat" Courtney has sat with thousands of people at their most vulnerable self. As one of the very few Western women traditionally trained as an Ayahuasca shaman in the Shipib...

What happens when the most profound healing in your life doesn't come from a therapist, a spiritual teacher, or even ayahuasca — but from an animal? Did you also have a deep relationship with an animal that felt like so much more than just "an animal"? This episode dives into the medicine of our animal allies and explores why they are essential guides in trauma healing — beyond what...

Do you feel broken beyond repair? Have you come home from an ayahuasca ceremony carrying something so profound you have no idea how to integrate it into your everyday life? Are you navigating a dark night of the soul—that terrifying space where everything you thought you knew has crumbled, leaving only confusion, fear, and the raw possibility of transformation? This episode is for anyone who has s...

You drink ayahuasca and suddenly you feel a collapse of your own self. The life you have built — studies, work, relationships, identity — cannot hold the person you are becoming. You touch your life’s calling, your authentic energy, your deeper capacity, and everything that is not aligned begins to fall away. The ceremony ends, but the real work starts after. What feels like your identity breaking...

What if the pain you are trying to heal is not yours to carry? Imagine drinking ayahuasca for your own healing and suddenly finding yourself face to face with your father’s shame, your grandmother’s unresolved pain, or your great-grandfather’s grief from a war you never lived through. For many people, ayahuasca does not work only on a personal level. It opens the lineage. In this episode, I speak...

Feeling the call to be of service? This episode is for you. If you have done a few ayahuasca retreats, you know the shift. You entered the medicine path for your own healing, and somewhere along the way a seed starts growing: “I want to give back. I want to support others.” That impulse can be real, clean, and sacred. It can also get tangled in performance, spiritual identity, and the need to be l...

What happens when you drink and touch real light, but you don’t integrate it? The vessel cracks. The current keeps coming, and what could have become wisdom turns into overload, inflation, chaos, or collapse. Today I’m sharing one of the most important lessons on the medicine path: the light can be so strong that it becomes difficult to hold. Ayahuasca, breathwork, and deep spiritual practices can...

Inner child integration is a practical return to inner power, self-trust, and coherence. In this episode, I share a medicine dream from my fiancé during the COVID period. In the dream he is a child with white angel wings, free and light. Every time he lies to someone else or to himself, a feather falls out. Over time the wings become bare, and adulthood arrives without lift, without movement, with...