ZILLION TRILLION

There’s something deeply dystopian about the fact that even journaling has become aspirational content. Somewhere along the way, writing down your thoughts turned into another optimization ritual. Another thing women are supposed to do perfectly. Beautiful notebook. Perfect handwriting. Peaceful morning routine. No children screaming in the background. No notifications. No real life. Which is why...

The babies you can almost feel before they get here. The ones you swear you knew before any positive test. The little one you’ve been quietly carrying around in your body for years that nobody else can see. That feeling we’ve all been trained to dismiss as wishful thinking, hormones, projection: anything but what it actually might be. This week, I’m sitting down with Kelly Meehan Brown, the woman...

We need to talk about ambition. Not the clean, empowering, girlboss version we were sold. The shinier, more socially acceptable kind. The one that got dressed up as freedom, identity, feminism, self-worth, and proof that we were doing life correctly. The one so many of us built ourselves around, only to wake up one day exhausted, underwhelmed, and quietly wondering why getting everything we though...

There are very few people who can say they trained to go to space—and even fewer who will tell you that nothing prepared them for early motherhood. In this episode, I sit down with Katya Echazarreta , the first Mexican-born woman to travel to space, to talk about the parts of motherhood no one warns you about; not in books, not on TikTok, not even in the most thorough “research spirals.” We talk a...

There’s a version of womanhood that looks good on paper. The right partner. The right timing. The right balance. The right plan. And then there’s real life. In this episode I sit down with Margherita to talk about what happens when everything you carefully built gets taken away and what grows in its place. We talk about motherhood guilt that doesn’t make sense but won’t leave about raising boys wi...

This week on Zillion Trillion, we’re talking about fertility, food, and the invisible work of rebuilding your body with my friend Khirma Eliazov —founder of Kika, former fashion girl with a namesake handbag brand , and current wellness nerd who did not arrive here via green juice and yoga retreats, but by hitting a very real wall on her fertility journey. We get into what it’s like to be 40-someth...

Today I’m chatting with Laurel Pantin — writer, editor, curator of Earl Earl by Laurel Pantin , and one of the rare people whose taste isn’t just good, it’s grounded. Laurel has lived entire lifetimes inside the fashion world: from the magazine trenches to the front-row circus to building a space online that actually reflects who she is, not what the industry expects. Her shift from the safety of...

This week I’m talking with Joanna Schroeder Christopher Pepper — the duo behind Talk to Your Boys , a book that every parent (or honestly, human) needs right now. Joanna’s essays on masculinity and media have appeared in The New York Times , Esquire , and The Atlantic . Christopher’s spent decades teaching sex ed and health to teenagers — which basically makes him an anthropologist of modern boyho...

I swore I’d never fangirl on my own podcast… then I sat down with Tish Weinstock (aka one of my style icons) Tish is one of those rare women who can move seamlessly between the worlds of fashion, beauty, and culture without losing an ounce of herself in the process. A London-based writer, consultant, and editor, she’s currently a beauty editor at British Vogue , but her career reads like a roll ca...

We finally made it happen After a few (ok, a lot of) technical hiccups, the full replay of my live with Ash 💚 is here — thank you to everyone who tuned in live and patiently rode the chaos with us. Ashley is the brilliant co-host of Se Regalan Dudas , the largest Spanish-speaking podcast in the world, and the co-founder of Dudas Media . She’s also the co-author of “Se Regalan Dudas” ( the book) ,...

Okay, real talk: I'm selfishly excited for this live. Not because I'm some enlightened wellness oracle—but because I’m a woman of a certain age who has recently started groaning every time I stand up. My muscles ache, my energy disappears at 3pm, and I’ve been having an existential reckoning about strength, aging, and (let’s be honest) my own mortality. Cute! The topic of biohacking has always fel...

When the hospital sent her home just two hours after a stillbirth, Katrina thought the worst was behind her. It wasn’t. In Part 2 of our conversation, we pick up right where we left off—and it’s not a peaceful postpartum. It’s trauma, ignored symptoms, and a terrifying descent into septic shock while doctors told her she “looked fine.” We talk about how the system fails women in the moments that m...

The moment I read the first part of Katrina’s essay, I knew I needed to speak to her. There was something so profoundly raw, unflinching, and—somehow—still full of grace. What she’s been through is something no human should have to endure. And yet, the strength, clarity, and even flashes of humor she brings to her story left me floored. In this conversation, Katrina Symonds shares what most people...

Honestly, this might be the most important conversation I’ve had on the podcast so far. I sat down with Melinda Wenner Moyer , the science journalist and author behind How to Raise Kids Who Aren’t A******s and her newest must-read, How to Raise a Kid in a Cruel World . And yes, the title says it all. We talked about the emotional minefield that is modern parenting: how to help our kids cope with a...

If your child had a different mind, how would your world change? I sat down with the extraordinary Claire Khodara —mom, advocate, musician, producer, and a force of nature—to openly discuss autism and how it completely reshaped her outlook on parenting, life, and creativity. Claire’s son, Winston, was diagnosed at an early age, launching her into an incredible journey of advocacy, growth, and deep...

If your jewelry box could talk, what would it say?” I sat down with Victoria Lampley , founder of The Stax —a visual love letter to sentiment, style, and sparkle, which she launched alongside her best friend Laurel Pantin - and we covered it all. From the grief that inspired her to start The Stax, to the bracelet she refused to take off while giving birth, this is about so much more than accessori...

Today’s episode is one of the most honest and wide-ranging conversations I’ve ever had—because it’s with someone I’ve known for over 15 years: Alana Hadid . From reverse ombrés and MySpace boyfriends to building fashion brands, becoming an activist, and redefining what motherhood looks like—this episode is a deep dive into identity, choice, and the beautiful mess of figuring it out. We talk about...

Jess Jacobs is the CEO of Coterie , a company quietly (but powerfully) transforming parenting essentials through thoughtful design, innovation, and safety. I've had a low-key girl crush on Jess for ages, and today we’re finally making our Insta friendship official—which, honestly, feels like a pretty big deal around here. From her vibrant childhood in Boca Raton to building her life and career in...

Let’s talk about ambition, motherhood, and the complicated, ever-evolving relationship between the two. Neha Ruch is the founder of Mother Untitled , a movement and community redefining what it means to take a career pause. A Stanford graduate with a background in branding and strategy, Neha left the corporate world when she became a mother, only to realize that the narrative around stepping back...

America’s boys are not alright. We’re living in the middle of a full-blown boy crisis, and it’s not getting the attention it deserves. Let’s hit the grim stats: boys make up 60% of school suspensions and nearly 80% of all ADHD diagnoses (are they really hyper, or is school just not built for them?). The education gender gap is glaring—out of every 100 women earning a college degree, only 74 men cr...

Today, we're thrilled to have Irene Liu, founder of Chiyo, a game-changing postpartum delivery service that's putting moms first. We'll explore Irene's journey as a scrappy entrepreneur, her unique approach to fundraising as a female founder, and how Chiyo is redefining postpartum care. Plus, we'll unpack her insights on the critical connections between nutrition, hormones, and fertility. Get read...

This episode is all about keeping it real while keeping it together. Ajiri and I dive into the messy, magical world of modern motherhood—less “soccer mom,” more “martini in hand, figuring it out.” We get into how the French make parenting look effortlessly chic (spoiler: no bento boxes) and talk about finding joy that isn’t just for Instagram. Ajiri shares her wisdom on sneaking in solo weekends,...

I’m super excited for the 1st video installment of Zillion Trillion featuring Casey Fremont. Stay tuned to hear about Mothering in the art world, how to raise independent kids, what work-life balance looks like for her now, and the most surprising thing about becoming a mother. Get full access to Zillion Trillion at zilliontrillion.substack.com/subscribe