What Was That?

Today I discuss Cirque de Soleil and cave spelunking. An audience member offers an intimate sharing, as a response to the Operating Thetans question have you ever hid an object? I then answer an audience question on how to restore heart energy restoration and how to purge guilt and shame. Thanks for your contributions to What Was That listeners! Have a great day! This is a public episode. If you w...

Welcome, my dear friend BRETT. This guy needs no introduction. He is a fascinating person with an incredibly unique perspective. The first time we ever talked it actually fried my brain and I needed to lie down. Today I pick at his worldview on systems of good and evil, life and death, basic vampirism, gaining wisdom, and of course puppets. I hope you enjoy this guy. This is a public episode. If y...

What the heckory happened in the last few months? What sparked my absence? TIME TO KIKI! ALL VISUALS ARE NOW UNLISTED. THEY ARE ABOLISHED. I BAN THEM! I’m back now. For good. For real! This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit jessicagoodfellow.substack.com

Today I'm interviewing Nathan King, the founder of an epic program called Euphoriam. Nathan is a self made multi millionaire with a really interesting story and a seriously advanced understanding of the quantum, or what you might call 'spirituality'. I particularly respect his grounded and no BS approach to spirituality, what I consider to be an often unnecessarily convoluted arena. SEND ME A QUES...

In today's episode I talk about this crazy thing that happened with Mario my local security guard that I can't believe. Then I talk about a death threat letter going around my Ecuadorian town and my hair mishap and my take on God, what I think God is and how I feel about God. Crude imagery today because the words were ready to fly out my mouth. SO SORRY about my twisted strap, it's killing me. If...

Welcome to S2 Episode 3. Today I tell a truly pointless story that is so funny to me. The most pointless episode so far, definitely, but rich in wine and enjoyment for you I hope. Story involves Silvio and his cafe, sanduch and a street dog that I know. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit jessicagoodfellow.substa...

Please welcome my first ever guest to What Was That, Maria Spathis! My therapist! Maria is a Transpersonal Psychotherapist and an absolute legend. Today we have a very candid conversation about therapy, psychology, the heart, the thymus, death and spirituality. We dive into a live therapy session with me as the specimin. If you've never tried therapy, or you're curious about seeing a psychologist,...

A meandering swim through concepts of identity that never really gets there. Quite fitting. Today I discuss a bed to bathroom success, waitressing, my fascination with Heath Ledger, Brokeback Mountain, and what I would do if given a trillion dollars. The mission of my podcast is to alchemise shame and encourage curiosity as an antidote to suffering. Last season I told all of the most taboo stories...

A goose meditation on how absurd moments expose the identities we slowly accept without choosing. How shame, habit, and visibility ultimately govern who we become if we don't intervene. It's the season finale! Today I reflect on what has been left unsaid across the series. I discuss a meeting with a business man, my hangups with the local ice cream parlour and finally remark on where I’m actually...

An unflinching look at how exhaustion, shame, and suppressed truth can emerge as despair and how curiosity can eventually restore coherence. In today’s episode I speak about my confrontation with death energy and a kind of near death experience I had. While this moment was something like an annihilation, it was also the seeding of genuine self compassion and rebuild. Below are some of the resource...

An honest exploration of what happens when competence collapses, control stops working, and action becomes the only path back to healing, connection, and self-trust. The themes of proving and performance have followed me around for yonks. After arriving in Brisbane it came time to confront them. Today I discuss my rather measly tenure as a battle dancer and how it became a doorway to stand up come...

A tender exploration of attachment, grief, and meaning-making through the story of a childhood doll; tracing how unexpressed loss, family silence, and care displaced onto objects shape who we become. I have perpetually wrangled with the meaning of my Cabbage Patch Doll, Bubby, who I was gifted when I was born. Over the years she held a lot for me, just like I did for my family. Today I navigate th...

A darkly funny, unsettling meditation on avoidance, indecision, and truth-withheld. Tracing how unclear endings, symbolic attachments, and inherited identity fractures shape the way we belong, love, and speak. Today I venture into the uncomfortable tale of how I ended up with a tattoo on my arm that now represents a friendship breakup. After trying three times to record this episode, I arrived at...

A reflection on how small, unexpected human encounters can quietly alter a life’s trajectory and how kindness, seen late, can reframe years of hardship. In today’s episode I discuss my early days in Barcelona, getting bullied by Spaniards and other inconvenient karmas. I focus on the unexpected magical encounters that occurred along the way. Blessings to two angels starting with A who redirected m...

A humorous account of an unbelievable seven-year high school love saga. Tracing how anxiety, fantasy, and half-presence can wire lifelong relational patterns, and how the body signals truth long before the mind can name it. Today we trot into the hills to explore an unbelievable experience I shared with my young counterpart aka my high school sweetheart between the ages of 12-19. This connection l...

A reflective elegy for a childhood friendship that ended without drama. Tracing how comparison, difference, and unspoken resentment can slowly erode intimacy, and what it takes to forgive both yourself and the past. Today I venture into my childhood to explore a close friendship that came to an abrupt and curious end. This friendship continues to shape me, and has offered profound insights into co...

A light-hearted recounting of a 10-day silent meditation retreat gone awry in Scotland, where a mix of overhydration, rebellion, and eccentric fellow meditators led to a series of comically surreal and oddly formative experiences. Today I tell the tale of the ten day silent retreat where I nearly got kicked out for flashing. I then discuss how shortly after, I got high for the first time under ver...

In today's episode I tell you about the dream that changed my life, the time I got my dream job and the reason I lost it. I also expel the most remarkable accidental sound from my human body that you have to hear to believe. After recording this episode I had an epiphany that the dream I'd had was an exact foreshadowing of the event to come. The dangling carrot of my dream job was the identity; th...

Today we go donut dumpster diving and I tell you an utterly wackadoo story involving two wizard brothers: one good and one, well... strange. Not all turning points are tragic, some are just 'tarded. I'd like to thank old mate and the homie for catalysing my mythic initiation. I wouldn't be here without them. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get...

Welcome to my first episode of the series. Today I am discussing, in frank terms, the story of how my gay best friend r*ped me. In my early years my infinite exploration for identity bounds left me socially awkward and obsessed with self-accountability. Eventually, life drew the line for me. This episode explores the nuanced dynamics of an incredibly bizarre and formative trust rupture. It is not...