Warm Mug of Phantom Poetry

Poems from my job and living in the woods

That all of you want to come join the podcast and drink tea and read poetry with me reach out and dm me at n.j.saroff

This episodes talks about some topics such as homophobic gender dysphoria and suicide. Maybe skip about 13 minutes when i bring up those content warning. I have changed my name to Nichémat and have update my pronouns to they he. Going to try to make this podcast more monthly than weekly but maybe we'll get some extra episodes I'll also be publishing scripts of episodes upon requests as i don't hav...

Welcome to episode 18 of njs warm mug of phantom poetry if you new the podcast I'm NJ Saroff a Also known as the phantom poet on SoundCloud This podcast best enjoyed a cup of tea and today's tea is Today's poems are what someone would put on my tombstone, letters to your Shadow, where wind would take me and human And the poem of the week is there is no greater crime than leaving by Bertolt brecht...

Welcome to episode 17 of NJ warm mug of phantom poetry I'm NJ Saroff also known as the phantom poet on SoundCloud This podcast is best enjoyed with a cup of tea and today's tea is Today's poems are a poem for destructo, a poem to mousetrap, to Georgia and sunflowers by van Gogh and the poem of the week verses 1, 20, 21, and 51 from song of myself by Walt Whitman To Georgia O'Keefe Bathed in colors...

What I miss I dreamed of you last night the way you used to be, the way you felt, the way you seemed, on the outside, never who you really were, on the inside, you are so much different in my dream, almost like, how you used to be, at the same, time better than who you ever were, I dreamed I could pick you apart, and then put the pieces back together, and we could start over, but we don't even tal...

My email: njs.works.writes@gmail.com. Something about Summers always makes me want to cry  Something about sunny days and storms And then the cloudless nights always makes me crave another In the long days of summer it’s moments like this where things that once made sense for so long suddenly don’t  Something about summer and the freedom it provides that should be safe and welcoming but really it’...

Here is Jen Fagala reading it's wild geese by Mary oliver You do not have to be good. You do not have to walk on your kneesfor a hundred miles through the desert repenting. You only have to let the soft animal of your bodylove what it loves. Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine. Meanwhile the world goes on. Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rainare moving across the...

Episode 13 Welcome to episode 13 of NJ warm mug of phantom poetry If you're new to the podcast I'm NJ Saroff also known as the phantom poet on SoundCloud This podcast is best enjoyed with a cup of tea this week we've had this huge outpouring pandemic of coronavirus I did not run any poems about coronavirus but I have written poems about being sick not physically sick because that topic is always j...

Episode 12 Welcome to episode 12 of NJ warm mug of phantom poetry If you're new to the podcast I'm NJ Saroff also known as the phantom poet on SoundCloud This podcast is best enjoyed with a cup of tea This week I wanted to talk about memories I'm very good at picturing memories but not as good at holding onto the when and where of memories but poetry has helped me record important memories in my l...

I wish savored your lips I wish I gave you one more kiss I should have memorized your skin against mine I should have asked you for more time I wonder if in a few months you'll forget me And I'll be a distant memory I want know if you really meant that you wanted us to be just friends or if in a few years it all come crashing to an end We'll go our separate ways Lie to eachother about how everythi...

This podcast is best enjoyed with a cup of tea and today's tea is white tea with RaspberryFlower Lady the poem for Brianna lime leaves and sunshine flowers darling would you count the hours lady laughter warm sand color a firecracker reading energy or smile pink like rose of friendship Daydreamer light Beamer never a moment of dull or gray she takes the rain clouds paint them blue with Sky Ray's s...

Catching feelings- He told me he loved me last night I wanted to ask how I wanted to ask why I wanted him to explain it as if I was a math equation and love was the answer to solving me fixing me but it's not I'm sorry I don't even say I'm sorry anymore I just shut up quiet down No one will hear me leave Because I wont dare make a sound I don't like talking about myself Except in poetry, somehow i...

   today's tea is lavender chamomile rose tea Drifting down into the somber feelings for you: I find myself think of you, and for a moment the rainy night sky sparkles, Its bright and warm even when you're not around, I fall asleep fall in in love to the way your memory leaves a sound "Everytime you kiss my forehead I fall more in love" he said I fall more in love every time you kiss me, there's t...

 today's tea is London fog Grief housing Poem to Moshe Grief feels like 2 grey clouds turning into arms that grab on to your neck, hide your eyes, cover your mouth, capture your ability to breathe and hold your body down till you are suffocating in fumes of memories of the loss of someone who didn't deserve to die because they did so much for all those around them, they cared so much, they wanted...

Empty valley on blank pages By njsaroff 2017 There are only valleys filled with memories of you Rivers of moments flowing through the pathways of the head Bloated with what is left of you The lips that used to speak are glued together as you come toward them Like an unseen ghost in this haunted house of a body, Dead on the inside from the abandonment The house still feels every inch of you Still f...

If you're new to the podcast I'm NJ Saroff also known as the phantom poet on SoundCloud This podcast is best enjoyed with a cup of tea and today's tea is winter delight and dandelion peach green tea ken doll, stabalized, deniers of moon, identity the gay tea song Frank Bidart queer Joy young queer hokey pokey Lee Mokobe ted talk poem

just poems episode 3 This podcast is best enjoyed with a cup of tea and today's tea is lavender Earl gray After Low What happens next is an after low Some people get an after glow A sort of high a renewed will to stay alive, or to survive After the stage has left I lose my pep I fall down My depression sea drowns My heart Pulls me apart like a drug I'm addicted to the moment before Keep running ba...

This podcast is best enjoyed with a cup of tea and today's tea is constant comment also known as orange spiced black tea Body check, intrusive thoughts, and my friend the mirror If you lift up my shirt you’ll find a gut, A month ago it was ribs I zone out as the food enters my mouth but I’m okay, I’m healthy now My friend the mirror has never talked back The scale just says a number I liked it bet...

Date with yourself Approach the counter Ask for a table for one, but not a small one you deserve the biggest one in the restaurant You deserve a large place setting Your plate should be filled You should eat all you need Your silverware finally touched This is a meal for you and only you, sitting in the chair just you at the long table no other chairs needed the meal is what you deserve the love y...

He liked to set fires So it's no wonder he lit the match inside my body forced me to burn alive  So he could keep his cold unbeating chest warm,  He didn't care about the homes he destroyed,  he just wanted to watch everything go up in flames Every time he turned on the stove, I watched his eyes dance like tinder,  his fingers melted my skin, like wax, my words became a puddle of oil,  He turned m...