Unmaking a Mess

reading from a post that I wrote back in September 2025 and including an update of where I am now. and what I am going through - quite the opposite in some ways. I will say this - at least I’m still not drinking alcohol  #depressed #anxietysymptoms #broken #mentalillness #hardtimespass #hereandnow #selfconscious  #anxietyattacks #diary #journal #sober #alcoholism #grief   #prayfirst #believeinyour...

this was written back on 9-19-25 and at the end I provide a brief summary of what has transgressed since. not much other than, at least I am not drinking. it is all relative. mostly, the contentment part is still something I long to figure out. #depressed #anxietysymptoms #broken #mentalillness #hardtimespass #hereandnow #selfconscious  #anxietyattacks #diary #journal #sober #alcoholism #grief   #...

From 9-8-25 and looking forward to getting you caught up as soon has happened since this day. This writing. I guess blogging can help you see how far you’ve come. Anyway - there was alcohol and addictions don’t leave you. #anxietyattacks #diary #journal #sober #alcoholism #grief #alcoholism #fakefriends #prayfirst #believeinyourself #thehereandnow #life #thinking #shiftingthoughts #singlemomlife #...

entering stages of life at an older age really is hard. But I endure and I keep going thanks to the grace of God. This episode deals with selling a business, kids moving away and also trying to handle a tough situation with my family

Girls moved out, sold my half of a business and continuing to work on my anxiety. I’m fine. It’s fine. It’s realizing that change is going to happen and instead of dreading it, I’m trying to find the good in it. And stop worrying about aging.

Living out the past and what it was like. My how things have changed. Don’t even think we have x rated theaters now … that is not exactly what this is about but I did hang out in one for a while during my younger days

I often wonder why I am constantly thinking, processing, wondering and writing in my brain. It’s who I am And I pray to be able to do this as long as possible

We have to know ourselves and what causes us to tick. What helps us, what does not. Eating well helps me. Eating crap does not - but I still do it once in a while. Getting some fresh air is an absolute must. Dwelling on thoughts and looking at my phone or MacBook for several hours is not good. Duh. Online Blog to Share and Subscribe https://www.unmakingamess.com Subscribe to my You Tube channel ww...

This is life - a life without other lives that have gone too soon. I wish my sister was here - she would know what to say. Who in your life has gone too soon that you want to live your life to the fullest and most exhausted way possible?

We need each other. If not physically, then virtually. Through a video or an audio or words in a book. I have read and listened to many stories that lift me up and let me know - I am okay. And to me - that is needed in our world. I have other things I need to do before dying. I know God has other plans for me and it seems He continues to wait on me to get my butt in gear and truly listen to Him. I...

Nothing will change if you change nothing. Conversations with people that just are not effective anymore - that means it is time to evaluate who is actually the problem here and in this case, I have to point the finger to myself. A close friend once told me, we teach people how to treat us. Please be sure to share and subscribe. Leave comments too! I want to know what changes you’ve had to go thro...

it wasn’t finished in one day - it took time and then God helped me to realize my need for rest. My body craved it. I got the room done and I also glad I am now able to walk through a room full of stuff and know with time … I’ll get it done.

Meeting and discovering is so good

I could sleep in the hospital. Then when my daughter was in I slept again until I realized I didn’t sleep as well. Still, it was a place where we knew we were taken care of and that is what mattered.

These last few weeks I have never felt better.  You have no idea how hard it is for me to write those 5 words. ‘I have never felt better.’ And with that came fear that the enemy was so thrilled to place on me. No more.

I’ve come a long ways in being able to talk to my girls. Thank God.

It was almost Christmas and I was not totally feeling it. So then I spoke up and felt awkward but later I owned it and didn't feel so horrible. What is so wrong with believing in your values? It is not so dramatic.

The results are in and it appears my heart is fine and all the heart pounding is probably anxiety. Now I know. and then there was the drive in the rain - not a fan of this but what can you do. just drive.

From a stress test to all the thoughts from inside the tube. And my cover photo? Just a photo from that day. My girl letting me know how many more days she had until she was done with HS.

Woke up and kept thinking about this God stuff and showing a true light to who I am. rural road and then there was the annoying phone call

Met with a mentor and heard stuff I didn’t want to know. I had to hear it because I’m obviously not hearing what God wants of me.

When I get anxious I have to go to God and be totally real with Him. Telling him my ridiculous fears and worries. And asking Him to set me on the right path. He revealed some things to me as I read this verse and openly expressed my concerns.

A few weeks ago, I sent my girlfriends a video of an Amazon commercial of older women sledding down a hill. It is a tearjerker of a commercial to me. So much, I told my friends, we had to recreate it. I think for myself, I wanted to see if I would actually go sledding.

So … as I think about these events I find it Interesting. You see, when we journal and consider our life circumstances we just may discover why we are the way we are and what we can do about it to help ourselves… and those we love.

I wrote this a few days ago. As I was sitting in bed. I had written one post. It was too ... yuck. Too heavy. Maybe it wasn't that bad. It was too much reality. Which, I guess is what I am here to write about. I just ended this one with my final words so you know. But please share and subscribe. Thank you!