Triggered and Sober with Nick

Did you survive Thanksgiving? Any urges to drink? That family drama and holidays hit the spots that want to hear the cork pop. I managed pretty well and even started decorating for Christmas, one of my favorite drinking activities. Listen in and I'll update you on how I'm coping and also chatting about relapses and what I call "realistic thinking."

Sorry for the lack of pods and no explanation. I went to Idaho to work on a film project and didn't have much time to record. This pod discusses my challenges in sobriety being out of state and around new people. And once again...airports, one of my biggest triggers.

Lawd!!! How do you all deal with these negative sober assholes?!?! The ones that find negativity in any situation or comment. Like damn! Listen in as I rant.

Why can I go balls to the wall for others when working but I can't do the same for myself? Being sober has brought all these feelings and insights that I used to run and hide from. My motivation is slowly coming back but not as fast as I'd like. How about you? Listen in and let's chat.

Is AA a cult? Have you heard that before? I had a FB interaction that had cult like messages. And the messenger was a prick lol.

Damn. The Fuck Its are at the door. I've opened it and we are staring at each other. What do I do? Why am I here. Let's chat.

*sigh*...I'm back. Took a little break. Work has been keeping me busy and I've been a bit...meh. On the struggle bus some. Lots of free time coming up...eek!

WTF happened to my self-control? I'm having cravings and trying to figure this shit out. Did I pour out the alcohol in my house? Listen in and learn when the light turned on for me about self-control.

I graduated from my treatment center, work is going great and I'm indulging in self-care. Time to self-sabotage and get fucked up. Addiction is calling...am I going to answer?

Chiiiiiiild...I'm about to finish my treatment at my recovery center. What will I do after? Decisions, decisions, let's discuss.

I'm headed back to work. Things are going well and the vibe is positive...this is when I like to celebrate and DRINK! Things are different now and I'm chatting about clocking back in.

How the fuck do I find joy in sobriety? Well, I'm learning. It's been easy for me to find the negatives but I'm taking a look and making a list of some positives. Listen in and see if any relate to you.

"Ladies and gentlemen, we have a fault light and need to go back to the gate." FUUUUUCCCCKKKKK! Where's the wine? How did I handle my first sober flight? Did I relapse and have a margarita on the beach? Listen in and find out.

Why can't I cope? Am I not trying? What am I doing wrong? WTF are coping skills even? The journey continues.

I'm flying high! Well, not really. Airports are a trigger for me and I'm filling you in on my first flight preparation without alcohol. Will I relapse or will my plan work?

Are you ok? Can't you have just one? People will be drinking, is that ok? Arrrrrgh!!! Have you heard these? Let's discuss.

What is the pink cloud? This podcast discusses what I think it is and the emotions surrounding it. What happens when it bursts? I tell you my experience.

WTF? This is a side effect? Will it come back? Listen to find out.

Take a journey down my path with alcohol. How did it start and how did I get here? Was it always an addiction from the very beginning?

I'm triggered and bothered! What are my triggers, do I even know. And what the hell is a trigger. Let's discuss.

This episode discusses my love and dislike of AA. Will I learn to love it or will I just walk away?

Welcome to my sober journey. I'm learning how to navigate life and relearn how to engage in social settings without alcohol. This episode discusses topics I will cover in other podcasts and a glimpse into my newly sober life.