TRAUMATIZED

Recently it has become apparent that I am likely on the Autistic Spectrum.  Many or most of the symptoms are apparent and even thought it's likely that I am low on the spectrum the signs are there.  I wanted to discuss with everyone about the similarities and the differences with ADHD and ASD (Autism) as well as discuss what it does for my life and the behaviors I present because of ASD....

Part 1 https://youtu.be/o2fed1YW0YU Part 2 https://youtu.be/pkWEZJIoQgI Please watch this Bonus Video YouTube Podcast of my discussion with the Host of Self Sabotaging Sagas Genea Barnes on CPTSD.

A relationship for someone with CPTSD requires the ability to feel safe always, sex and Intimacy has its own unique level of trust required in order for it to be viable.  If you don't have trust and you don't feel safe it will be extremely difficult to be successful at Sex and Intimacy with your partner, no matter how much you love them.  Please listen to my show about my struggles with Sex and In...

Aren't sure if you have ADHD?  Wondering what's going on?  There are symptoms recognized by professionals who diagnose this disorder and other disorders that you may have with ADHD.  In this episode I talk about and elaborate on these disorders and also discuss those that affect me the most in my life, as well as the risk factors with getting ADHD and the complications it causes.

This is a Bonus Podcast.  I talk about how having ADHD and CPTSD is causing me to hurt the one person in my life that I care about more than anything or anyone.  Whether it was by accident, a part or not it doesn't matter, the bottom line is I have to take ownership of my disabilities and my behavior.  I must be responsible for me!

Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) and complex PTSD (CPTSD) are both mental health disorders that can develop after you go through a traumatic event, like witnessing violence or being sexually assaulted. There are several important distinctions, however, in how the conditions develop and the best ways to treat them. Here is what you need to know about the difference between CPTSD and PTSD. Also...

A common symptom of someone who has ADHD is Poor/Low or No impulse control.  They often make choices in their life before they realize what consequence the choice will have on their life and possibly who they are with.  You will say something to someone that you later will regret or won't make any sense because you weren't able to think about what was coming out of your mouth before you...

Video footage of me recording the podcast Poor Impulse Control

CPTSD triggers happen because we do not feel safe, trauma happened in the past where we were not in a safe place and danger occurred.  In order to feel safe our parts become activated and blended with the adult in order to attempt to be safe when we are in danger.   It is very important for someone who has CPTSD to feel safe wherever they are!  whether it is with a person in their l...

Being in a relationship is difficult enough when you are both Neurotypical, so you can imagine how harder it will be when one of you has ADHD and your relationship is struggling to survive and possibly on the bring of falling apart.  All the symptoms are there, hyperactivity, lack of focus, inability to listen, low Impulse control, lack of inhibition.  How do we make it work?  Pleas...

I don't really trust anyone 100%  implicit trust isn't something I believe I know or have.  There are obvious reasons for this, Child Parts, Trauma, etc.  You can learn to trust again with a lot of hard work with yourself and showing your parts that they too can trust the adult to do what is best for themself.   By doing the 4 step process, hopefully gaining the trust of y...

Watch the video footage of the ADHD - Dopamine Episode

For a lot of people out there the holidays are a great time of year!  Turkey, Presents, Family, Christmas Trees, Lights, Carols, Snow, a Break from Work!  For me it's anxiety and over obsessive behavior, worrying about time passing and all I can think about is how soon it'll all be over and before you know it you're back at work, back to the everyday!  yuck... I don't do well with Holidays or Vaca...

Focusing on tasks or just on anything really is not easy for someone with ADHD.  I have a problem with focusing, causes me to forget something important I was just told and it causes me to become easily distracted with just about anything.  Hyperfocus on the other hand allows us to be able to work on something that we have a high interest in but it can come with a cost in the rest of our...

There are many reasons one should become enlightened to the polyvagal theory, least of which is to understand why those bothersome behaviors such as hypervigilance are there and how to deal with them. Another reason to learn more is that it is horrible to be a mystery to oneself reacting to danger that is not there as though one is back in situations that happened decades in the past. The polyvaga...

a Bonus video broadcast of my Podcast of CPTSD - The Polyvagal Theory.  Enjoy!

extra bonus footage.  I recorded myself doing the episode while recording the podcast.  Full episode.

You say that you'll remember to do it later... but yet you don't!  simply put your ability to remember these "future tasks" is terrible and you will likely not remember to do what you said you would do.  How can you make it all easier?  coping, reminders, sticky notes!, whiteboards, audio messages! and so on... We have to make sure we take care of our disability and do the right thi...

https://anchor.fm/livingwithadhdandcptsd/subscribe Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder...  well, what can I say? it's hurtful, painful, stressful, difficult for those you love, very hard to deal with even at the best of times and down right unfair and cruel at its worst!  Everyone who has CPTSD is unique but we all suffer from the same pain and fear and horror from our past, the traum...

https://anchor.fm/livingwithadhdandcptsd/subscribe This one really hits home for me as someone who has ADHD, memory issues, short-term memory loss, forgetting often during the day has become very difficult to make life functional and stress free.  I used to think that I really was having issues with memory but then when I realized that I had ADHD it all made sense!  I know many of you ou...

https://anchor.fm/livingwithadhdandcptsd/subscribe To make progress when you are healing from CTPSD one very important step is required, to gain the trust from your parts!  Building new neurological pathways in your brain to establish communication, to start the process of healing and earning the trust from those part that became to be in order to protect you and survive the trauma you repeat...

During a flashback of a traumatic event, the intensity can prove overpowering, leading your mind to dissociate as a coping mechanism. This detachment might render you numb, triggering an out-of-body sensation or a disconnection from the present moment. This state of dissociation holds the potential for danger to both you and those around you. Individuals grappling with CPTSD often utilize dissocia...

This is the most common secondary diagnosed comorbidity for those who suffer from ADHD.  It is very debilitating for people because you deal with it nearly all the time and it feels very hard to contribute to life when Anxiety hits us.  Please listen to my episode and lets all heal together.

As a 4 year old child experiencing a traumatic event like I did, a child part came to be and throughout my entire life this part has been with me.  In this episode I will let everyone know just how this Part came alive and the experiences I had as I grew up and how it has affected my life in every way possible.  Please listen…

Arguably the hardest symptom to manage with ADHD is Emotional Regulation.  It affects our lives so many ways and can potentially be very devastating for us with friendships, relationships, employment and in situations that are difficult, triggering and unpredictable.  All who have ADHD will deal with this every day for their entire lives but they don't necessarily know why it's happening and what...