TRAUMATIZED

Gardening is a great way to improve your mental health!  It has clear benefits and will give your life an added boost and make you feel happier and healthier in a number of ways.  This episode I discuss how having a garden will strengthen your mental health and reduce ADHD symptoms. https://luminohealth.sunlife.ca/s/article/6-health-benefits-of-gardening?language=en_US#:~:text=Gardening%...

Went onto Stigma Breakers with host Jamie.  talked about Complex Trauma

Across the globe, countless individuals grapple with the weight of mental health battles and the agonizing grip of unresolved trauma. Astonishingly, a significant number remain oblivious to their internal struggles. Nonetheless, each day witnesses new revelations—people recognizing the echoes of repetitive childhood trauma that have shaped their lives, leading to CPTSD. This pivotal moment marks t...

In this 2 part episode I have a valuable, in-depth discussion with Jeanette about emotional regulation, partnerships and emotional regulation as well as trauma within ADHD.  It's a very long interview so I decided to break it down into 2 parts. This episode is a really good, frank and honest discussion about the struggles we all have with ADHD and Emotional Regulation and how Trauma (CPTSD) t...

In this 2 part episode I have a valuable, in-depth discussion with Jeanette about emotional regulation, partnerships and emotional regulation as well as trauma within ADHD.  It's a very long interview so I decided to break it down into 2 parts. This episode is a really good, frank and honest discussion about the struggles we all have with ADHD and Emotional Regulation and how Trauma (CPTSD) t...

Being an Inattentive ADHD type I easily become distracted by most things, especially with a conversation where there's background noise of any level.  Unfortunately if you are attempting to converse with someone else who is a Neurotypical they'll often wonder what the hell is going on and will either think we are not interested in what they are saying or that we are really stupid because we u...

In the few weeks that have passed since my life took a drastic turn (which honestly hasn't been that bad..) I have really become motivated to make changes to my life that will significantly lessen the issues my ADHD causes for me every day.  I have thought about this multiple times now, "Just how severe is my ADHD?"  I have a theory that a lot of what was making my symptoms so bad was th...

Ever find yourself at a loss for words? You start therapy, unravel CPTSD, uncover your 'Child Parts' (grasping their identity and role), and embark on daily processing to fathom the roots of triggered memories, those echoes of repetitive past trauma. Sounds simple, right? But hold up—no cakewalk here. I've grappled, day by day, month by month, deciphering the intricate indicators and s...

Being an Inattentive ADHD type I easily become distracted by most things, especially with a conversation where there's background noise of any level.  Unfortunately if you are attempting to converse with someone else who is a Neurotypical they'll often wonder what the hell is going on and will either think we are not interested in what they are saying or that we are really stupid because we u...

Recently this past week-ish the relationship I had with my girlfriend ended (her choice) and there has been a lot of change going on all around me since.   I find myself amidst a swirling state of uncertainty. Emotions—be it sadness, fear, or happiness—don't quite register as strongly. Instead, I'm engaged in perpetual analysis, striving to uncover the threads of fault woven into this intr...

There are many of us who live alone with ADHD and of course many who live with someone else!, their Partner, family members, roommates etc.   In this episode I discuss the challenges of living on your own and having ADHD as well as the differences when you live with someone else besides you.  Both are equally difficult with their own unique twists and stresses. Twitter - @adhdandcptsd li...

There is one area of my life that I have always struggled with and that simply is saying "I am sorry" when something I have done occurs.  I was never really sure if it was my ADHD that causes it or if some repeated childhood trauma created this fear of saying Sorry to someone.   I am scared to tell someone that I am sorry because I believe ultimately they will forever hate me, dismiss me...

I have some good and bad experiences with ADHD Medication, Vyvanse does work you just need to take it properly and not rush it.  The right doctor, the right support all can help lead you in the right direction to having your own ADHD medication help you out.  If you have ADHD and you aren't sure about taking medication, I recommend giving it a try! Twitter - @adhdandcptsd livingwithadhda...

CPTSD is not something anyone wants and nobody ever says "Let me try it out!"  but I know my reality and that is I have to either do the work required to get healthy again or I will forever struggle and feel pain and trauma and there is a really good chance that I won't make it much longer! You have to do what is necessary in order to heal, to feel closer to "normal" .   It's ok to feel...

We all struggle with Social skills, Social queues, etiquette and so on.  Those who have ADHD struggle way more than others and we usually suffer because of it with very few friends and many failed relationships or careers.  We tend to turn people off by our lack of understanding of proper social structure and the rules that society expects from us and unfortunately there really is not mu...

Wanted to simply discuss with my audience the improvements that I have made over the past weeks and months.  Healing from CPTSD is a difficult journey for all of us no matter how severe the abuse and the choices we make along the way will forever affect us in our lives. I want you to all listen and take what I say however you wish, just know I am always trying to help you! Twitter - @adhdandc...

So, what will you do?  realize that your disability is a thing and take whatever steps necessary to avoid issues, forgetting plans, causing headaches for your family, loved ones or your friends? or are you going to just sit back and use the fact you have ADHD as your excuse whenever something goes wrong? We have a choice, we either be proactive and find ways to adapt or we become a victim and...

Life's joys... the experiences that excite and thrill you!  They're great and always feel so good but at some point you have to come back down to earth, to feel grounded, calm like.   Most neurotypicals usually have no problem with regulating that feeling they get, the good times but you and me?  not really, many times not at all.  I honestly can't say exactly why but I can the...

ok so first.. this is a phrase that comes from my extensive Football background! I'm not talking about Narcissists or abusers.  My journey along this CPTSD trail has been a rough ride to healing but I realized along this route that I needed to learn how my unique self, my system that only I understand is working despite all the challenges!  ADHD and CPTSD is not a friendly mix but I can'...

Today's podcast I decide to talk more about two of my ADHD symptoms that really tend to make my life more difficult, Impulse Control and Focus.   Both of these symptoms really have made life very frustrating and stressful, typically every day and I have been trying so hard to change these and learn to become a better functioning person.  They affect my relationship, especially Impulse co...

Learning how to notice within myself that I have become overwhelmed with Anxiety or I am Triggered has been a very difficult process!  One thing I have started to realize however is that when this happens my ability to communicate is no longer there.  Not exactly sure what happens but it feels as though somewhere in my brain something gets turned off, prevents me from doing more than 1 t...

This part pretty much sounds like you would think.  He is one of my older parts, 14.  He was born to fight back against the bullies in school.  He just doesn't always know when it's appropriate to come on and take over so he would get me into trouble back then and even still today. www.patreon.com/livingwithadhdandcptsd  www.ko-fi.com/livingwithadhdandcptsd Twitter - @adhdandcp...

Everyone who suffers from Emotional Dysregulation will have many examples of times where they found themselves unable to handle situations that required them to stay emotionally balanced in order to finish a task or get to a deadline on time or even arrive to a big event early.  It's incredible or in other words, very frustrating when you find yourself running late and you can't find anything...

For the past 3 years, I've worn a mask, downplaying the severity of my CPTSD. I've shied away from confronting the brutal, unvarnished reality—I'm not okay, and it feels like I'm shattered inside. This prolonged denial led me to a brink where I nearly shattered a wonderful relationship. I failed to embrace the truth, not only with others but with myself. I'm aware this won'...

Trying to have a conversation that is of high quality and informative and easy flowing for me is very difficult because of my ADHD.  Then my CPTSD becomes triggered as well because the fear of being laughed at, rejected, ignored, not taken seriously or even just frustrating your partner very bad are all things you so want to avoid!  I often start a conversation with a subject that I find...