TRAUMATIZED

In the course of navigating through one's journey with trauma and the occurrences of triggering events, a pivotal aspect of the healing process involves transitioning from a victim mentality to assuming ownership of one's trauma. This entails a proactive effort to recognize and comprehend the symptoms and signs associated with being triggered, and to acknowledge their impact on one's w...

The United States confronts a significant and understated crisis in mental health care. Despite its global standing in numerous domains, millions silently grapple with mental health issues within a system that frequently falls short in delivering adequate support. This crisis is compounded by financial barriers, constraints imposed by insurance policies, and the enduring societal stigma surroundin...

Certainly, I harbor some regrets concerning the events that transpired in my past relationship and the actions I failed to take when the opportunity presented itself. Hindsight, acquired in the aftermath of its conclusion a year ago, reveals that I would have chosen to conclude the relationship long before the point of cohabitation. However, recognizing this retrospectively and implementing altern...

Navigating the path towards a positive outlook is a formidable challenge for many, given the lasting impact of past trauma and abuse. Whether individuals have been diligently engaged in daily efforts to overcome these challenges or are embarking on the initial stages of their healing journey, maintaining a positive perspective remains an arduous task. A considerable number of us conceal our genuin...

Each Wednesday during the month of January there'll be a bonus ten minute "Min-Podcast" all about Trauma, CPTSD, Abuse Narcissists, Domestic Violence, Anxiety and so on.. Come check them out! First Episode January 3rd, 2024.

Following years of grappling with trauma, I have encountered and contended with heightened anxiety. Particularly, since a health scare more than a decade ago, I've observed a pronounced susceptibility to anxiety, with triggers manifesting swiftly and persisting with minimal provocation. In addition, I explore the challenge of those close in one's life comprehending the intricacies of traum...

This is a continuation of the previous episode to a degree.. I wanted to try and elaborate on how for those who are suffering from CPTSD and ADHD (or ADD) often have a very difficult time knowing the history of each diagnosis as well as did I have ADHD from my early childhood development? or do my ADHD symptoms actually come from the repetitive abuse, bullying, trauma during my years in school? It...

I present to my audience an episode that originally aired March 25, 2022. One of my most popular episodes in the 3+ years of this podcast. This theory, Structural Dissociation Theory in my opinion has the ability to be the most helpful and successful way of helping those who suffer from CPTSD and have multiple flashbacks and have child parts.   Our brain has parts that develop personalities that a...

I have ADD (a form of ADHD) and CPTSD. Most of the time the two are in conflict with one another, fighting inside my head and causing nothing but havoc emotionally and even physically at times. My ADD creates impulse issues, focus problems and tends to make me become extremely indecisive and become bored easily. However, it also allows me to be very creative, big imagination and can lead to some i...

Our world isn't exactly the greatest place to be today.. a lot of unnecessary death, political corruption, extremism (on both sides) and a lot of hate being tossed around like a salad. I have been noticing more so lately that all the shit happening today in our society is creating a lot of stress and I often feel on the verge of becoming triggered. Why you ask? First of all I have CPTSD of cou...

For much of my life I have felt unworthy of people's attention, am not allowed to look at them in the eyes, speak before spoken to. I believe that they'll get angry at me for looking at them! I often feel unwelcome at group events, whether I know them or not. This has me often feeling alone and desperately craving acceptance and feeling wanted. Most of this has come from years of bullying...

Everyone who suffers from CPTSD will go through the pain, the discouraging sadness of CPTSD's hard reality, that we just are not there yet! We have not healed nearly enough to be able to get up on our feet after being knocked down numerous times and try one more time! Sure, stubbornly we do believe we are ready and often ignore the helping hand given by those who care very much for us. Why? be...

So my therapist and I recently discussed how I am thinking way too much about trying to find pieces to fit into a situation in order to come up with an answer to a problem that is never really answered. I analyze every detail and obsess about the details hoping to find something that will tell me "Yes this is a good idea!" or that will also say "No that is not a good idea.." It...

You know how after being single for a while you feel that urge to once again start dating? You that that feeling of such strong fear that you aren't good enough for anyone?, that you'll just keep screwing it up again and be right back at square one? Loads of anxiety and that obvious insecurity inside yourself that prevents you from making anything out of something? Welcome to my world ever...

When you have suffered from CPTSD it’s often impossible to do what’s best for you. Your childhood taught you that everyone else comes before yours. And that your needs, wants and experiences don’t matter. One can go through life this way, but if you are a person who desires something bigger and better in life something will have to change. And that change often means breaking through fears you did...

Children throughout the US and the world suffer child abuse or neglect enabled by religious belief every day. The impacts of this maltreatment can have serious  long term effects  and can even be  fatal . Whether a child is raised Christian, Jewish, Muslim, or of any other faith, he or she is at risk, particularly if the adults responsible for their wellbeing are part of an authoritarian culture....

When you have suffered from CPTSD it’s often impossible to do what’s best for you. Your childhood taught you that everyone else comes before yours. And that your needs, wants and experiences don’t matter. One can go through life this way, but if you are a person who desires something bigger and better in life something will have to change. And that change often means breaking through fears you did...

A week ago I went on a road trip with my parents to Saskatchewan, which is about a 5 hour or so drive from home. Like the title says, I became triggered a few times over the course of 2 1/2 days. It had been nearly 7 years since the last time we all went together and stayed together, usually this is not something I enjoy. With my parents aging and my mother having some health issues making life mu...

As humans, we all yearn for companionship in various forms. Some seek love, loyalty, and family, while others desire physical connections devoid of intimacy. Some prefer a wide circle of surface-level friends, while some cherish a few close, meaningful friendships akin to family. Our early years at school shape our social skills, but for many, it's marred by various challenges, like shyness or...

When you grow up, or even in adulthood, and you're confronted with traumatic events, especially those linked to Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder or CPTSD, it can feel like you're navigating through a never-ending storm. Whether it's an abusive partner, a toxic parent, or just an ordinary person who inflicts harm, the scars they leave behind can run deep. Imagine being trapped in...

Throughout my healing journey, I had a dedicated therapist who guided me through the darkness of my trauma. However, this path was marred by a unique challenge—my ex-girlfriend, who believed she knew what was best for me, often conflicting with my therapist's approach. Her strong influence during therapy sessions complicated my healing process. Realizing the need for unbiased healing, I made a...

Enjoy this Encore presentation of a Season 2 Episode 31 of my Podcast! CPTSD triggers arise from past trauma, when safety was absent and danger loomed. To feel secure, our inner parts merge with the adult, striving for safety amid peril. A must for CPTSD sufferers: unwavering safety, be it in people or places, as lack thereof triggers flashbacks and yearnings for refuge. This quest for safety can...

I had a rough week, starting with seeing my Ex looking at my profile on a dating site to feeling discouraged and lost to having all the built up tension almost come out on a friend. It did show me however that Fear is really holding me back! I am so afraid of being rejected and also afraid of being in another relationship with someone who is abusive! I don't feel like I am strong enough, brave...

A large percentage of people in society struggle with handling stress and anxiety while in their work environment. It often causes break downs, burnouts, stress leave and can lead to health problems that affect their lives. Now imagine what that must all feel like to someone who ALSO has CPTSD and has gone through abuse during their childhood or a violent relationship! add that into the equation!...

"For those of us who've weathered trauma, particularly during our formative years, the realm of social interactions often poses significant challenges. Personally, I find my self-confidence to be a struggle, a factor that subsequently hampers my ability to assert my needs and establish firm personal boundaries, whether in relationships or in life. One concern that deeply resonates with me...