Mariam Kavai, PhD, Post Traumatic Growth Teacher & Certified Trauma-Informed Coach
Transform into Wisdom Podcast
If you have ever wondered why you still don't feel free — even after you left, even after the therapy, even after you finally understood what happened to you — this show is for you. The Transform into Wisdom Podcast is hosted by Mariam Kavai, PhD — a Certified Trauma-Informed Coach and Post Traumatic Growth Teacher who speaks from both sides of this journey: as a researcher and as someone who has walked this path herself. This show exists for sensitive souls ready to heal from narcissistic relationships and dysfunctional families — beyond traditional therapy — and transform deep emotional woun...
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Mariam Kavai, PhD, Post Traumatic Growth Teacher & Certified Trauma-Informed Coach
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Jun 30, 2026
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24: The Sensitive Soul and the Soulmate from Hell. The Making of a Toxic Relationship 30.06.2026 25:47
Find the full transcript for this episode at transformintowisdom.com/24 You felt things first. Deeper. Longer. More completely than the people around you. And then you fell in love with someone who seemed to finally see all of that — who matched your depth, mirrored your longing, and made your sensitivity feel like the very thing that made you extraordinary. And then the relationship became the m...
23: Why Your Body Won't Let You Heal: Narcissistic Abuse, Trauma & Your Nervous System 09.06.2026 33:13
Find the full transcript for this episode at transformintowisdom.com/2 3 You did the work. You read the books. You named the patterns. So why doesn't your body feel free? In this episode of Transform into Wisdom, we go deep into the science and biology of why narcissistic abuse creates such profound, lasting damage — not just emotionally, but neurologically. As a PhD researcher and someone wh...
22: Part 2 What Actually Heals Narcissistic Abuse? Why Understanding the Abuse Isn't the Same as Healing the Wound 26.05.2026 17:12
Find the full transcript for this episode at transformintowisdom.com/22 If you listened to Part 1, you already know that no amount of knowledge about narcissism will un-break your heart. In Part 2, I want to take you somewhere deeper. I want to talk about what comes after the research, after the therapy, after the EMDR sessions — after you have processed the trauma memories and your PTSD symptoms...
21: What Actually Heals Narcissistic Abuse? Why Understanding the Abuse Isn't the Same as Healing the Wound 12.05.2026 20:20
Find the full transcript for this episode at transformintowisdom.com/21 There is a lie that floats around in narcissistic abuse recovery spaces — that if you just understand it enough, the pain will finally loosen its grip. If you can trace the trauma, name the disorder, and decode the narcissist's mind, then maybe you'll be free. But no amount of knowledge about narcissism will un-brea...
20: Running on Empty: The Burnout That Forced Me to Change 28.04.2026 1:02:14
Find the transcript for this episode at transformintowisdom.com/20 I'm back! And honestly, I can't believe I'm saying that — but Transform into Wisdom Podcast is back, and I am so excited to be here with you again. In this episode, I'm sharing everything that happened over the past several months — the burnout that forced me to stop, the healing journey that followed, and the...
19: Running on Empty. Transform into Wisdom Podcast is on a break 10.11.2025 7:34
Sometimes life invites you to pause. Not because you’ve run out of things to say or do… but because your body and soul say, “it’s time to take a break.” This is where I find myself now. How did I get here? Listen in> Thank you for being part of this journey — for listening, for reflecting, for feeling alongside me. You have no idea how much that means. I’ll see you again in 2026. And I have a...
18: (Part 2) 71 Years in the Making: Valerie’s Journey from Trauma to Healing 23.09.2025 1:16:08
Find the transcript for this episode at transformintowisdom.com/1 8 When Valerie left home in her mid-twenties, she thought she was stepping into a new chapter. But like so many survivors, the past wasn’t left behind—it showed up again, this time in the shape of a relationship On the surface, she looked like she had it together: a career as a teacher, a stable life. But behind closed doors, she...
17: 71 Years in the Making: Valerie’s Journey from Trauma to Healing 09.09.2025 1:10:07
Find other resources for sensitive souls at transformintowisdom.com/1 7 My next guest is 71 years old. She still rises each day with curiosity, passion, and a deep love for life — proving that healing isn’t bound by age, and growth has no expiration date. She is warm, patient, kind, and with a great personality! Like so many women, her story began in a family shaped by both love and pain — a tape...
16: From Surviving to Thriving. The Missing Link in True Emotional Abuse Recovery 26.08.2025 45:51
Find the full transcript for this episode and other resources for sensitive souls at transformintowisdom.com/16 A while back, a client reached out to me at the very early stages of our working relationship and said, “According to Google, you are a scientist and researcher, how did you pivot into this work?” And when I shared my journey with her, she said I should share it with my listeners becau...
15: How to Reclaim Your Reality After Emotional Abuse 12.08.2025 36:53
Find the full transcript for this episode and other resources for sensitive souls at transformintowisdom.com/15 There comes a moment when you stop trying to figure out what they did —and start asking: “What do I believe now?” In this episode, we’re not focused on the abuser. We’re focused on you — and how to reclaim the reality that was taken, twisted, or silenced. We’ll talk about what gets in th...
14: When the Truth Hurts: Healing the Confusion That Gaslighting Left Behind 29.07.2025 42:49
Find the full transcript for this episode and other resources for sensitive souls at transformintowisdom.com/14 The first puzzle piece in healing from gaslighting and cognitive dissonance is understanding the core template of a narcissist, which is who they truly are beneath the charm, the chaos, and the illusion. Not the version they sold you. Not the mask. But the actual inner blueprint—the narc...
13: How a Narcissistic Father Distorts His Daughter’s Reality and the Cognitive Dissonance She Carries into Adulthood 15.07.2025 50:25
Find the full transcript for this episode and other resources for sensitive souls at transformintowisdom.com/13 Have you ever questioned your memories… Felt like something was wrong — but couldn’t explain why? Have you ever heard the words “You’re too sensitive.” “That never happened.” “You always twist things.” ...and slowly began to doubt your own reality? You’re not alone. And you’re not crazy....
12: The Invisible Scars of Growing Up with a Narcissistic Father 08.07.2025 13:46
Find the full transcript for this episode and other resources for sensitive souls at transformintowisdom.com/12 Today, we continue with our ongoing series into the The Active & Passive Harm from a Narcissistic Father and go into the unseen underbelly of coercion, intimidation, and blame shifting from a father; its impact on the psyche; and the path to integration. Why is this important? Beca...
11: Part 3 — What Daughters of Narcissistic Fathers Need to Know 24.06.2025 15:37
Find the full transcript for this episode and other resources for sensitive souls at transformintowisdom.com/11 Today we are deep diving on what daughters of narcissistic fathers need to know—Part 3. Why is this important? Because after a narcissistic relationship, it’s crucial to find the source of where it all started. And in most cases, it starts at home. There are special toxic effects that a...
10: Part 2 — What Daughters of Narcissistic Fathers Need to Know 17.06.2025 13:38
Find the full transcript for this episode and other resources for sensitive souls at transformintowisdom.com/10 Today, we’re continuing our deep dive into what daughters of narcissistic fathers need to know — and this is Part 2 of the series. Why does this matter so much? Because if you’ve found yourself in a narcissistic relationship later in life... it didn’t just start there. It started somewhe...
9: What Daughters of Narcissistic Fathers Need to Know Part 1 10.06.2025 20:05
Find the full transcript for this episode and other resources for sensitive souls at transformintowisdom.com/9 A father is the first man a daughter ever loves. It’s the sacred divine love for her father…the kind that sees him as larger than life. To her, he is strength. He is safety. He is a protector, provider, a hero. In the eyes of a little girl, her father is God-like. And that love becomes th...
8: The Toxic Family Patterns That Hurt Sensitive Souls the Most 01.06.2025 25:23
Find the full transcript for this episode and other resources for sensitive souls at transformintowisdom.com/8 Parents are supposed to protect and nurture a child, to provide, guide and help in the development of the child’s interests. What happens when these caregivers who were supposed to love, protect, and guide you… become the ones who harm you the most? As you will see some caregivers don&ap...
7: What Kind of Dysfunctional Family Did You Grow Up In? 18.05.2025 12:37
Find the full transcript for this episode and other resources for sensitive souls at transformintowisdom.com/7 Some families are ruled by silence, where emotions are buried, and unspoken pain lingers. Others are controlled by chaos—where walking on eggshells becomes second nature. And then, there are the families where perfection is a mask, but behind closed doors, love feels conditional. Does thi...
6: Unpacking the Emotional Price of a Dysfunctional Childhood 06.05.2025 14:54
Find the full transcript for this episode and other resources for sensitive souls at transformintowisdom.com/6 Have you ever felt like no matter what you do, you’re just never enough? Like you’re carrying an invisible weight that holds you back in relationships, at work, and in your own self-worth… Many of us grew up in families that failed us in ways we never fully understood. Some failures were...
5: Recognizing the Hidden Signs You Grew Up in a Dysfunctional Family 29.04.2025 12:29
Find the full transcript for this episode and other resources for sensitive souls at transformintowisdom.com/5 Have you ever felt like something was "off" in your family, but you couldn't quite put your finger on it? Maybe your feelings were dismissed, love felt conditional, or you were forced into a role that never quite fit. If any of that resonates, you’re not alone. In this epi...
4: When Life Falls Apart: The Hidden Wisdom in Loss and Destruction 15.04.2025 12:58
Find the full transcript for this episode and other resources for sensitive souls at transformintowisdom.com/4 Destruction is an inevitable part of life, often raising questions about its purpose and meaning. Is it divine punishment or karma for past mistakes? Is it an indication of personal unworthiness? Is it random and purposeless? OR is there a deeper meaning that is more relevant in today’s...
3: Why Everything Had to Fall Apart: We're Broken Before We're Reborn 08.04.2025 15:18
Find the full transcript for this episode and other resources for sensitive souls at transformintowisdom.com/3 You’ve probably heard versions of this story. Imagine … Everything was going relatively well, but suddenly cracks started to appear in your life. You wake up one morning and discover you have lost your job. You had just purchased a new car a few months prior and have a huge loan to repay...
1: The Night I Broke Free. My Painful Spiritual Awakening Experience 29.03.2025 14:09
As a sensitive soul, there are those days when something happens that triggers the pain body, and you find yourself sobbing uncontrollably. Have you ever had one of those days? It was one of those days for me. I was a graduate student at the time, living in NY. There is something about the Upstate New York winters that can sometimes be so biting. Wind howling through the barren branches, and some...
2: The Big Question Sensitive Souls Who Experienced Emotional Abuse Ask Themselves 29.03.2025 13:29
When I started my inner work, it was because I had endured a toxic relationship, and I could not understand why I had to experience this particular type of relationship. I am highly intelligent, kind, and funny, with a great personality, and my first instinct was that this was some kind of mistake. I thought I had simply taken a wrong turn in life, that instead of going right, I went left. It see...
0: What’s the Transform into Wisdom Podcast All About? 10.01.2025 2:17
Being a highly sensitive person (HSP) or sensitive soul born into a toxic family carries with it obstacles and life-altering gifts that, if understood, accepted, and cultivated, would grow and elevate you into who you truly are meant to be. Through this podcast, I will offer practical guidance and inspiration to sensitive souls who want to move beyond therapy and transform emotional abuse into w...
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