This Hive Howls

This past week I've been dealing with the onslaught of emotions that come with sending your little kids to daycare! Today I talk about how that transition is going, what I'm most worried about and what I'm most looking forward to in this new season. I also officially announce that I am pregnant! If you're feeling worried and stressed about this "back to school" season...

In today's episode I talk about my distain for corporal punishment and how I go about using gentle/conscious parenting to raise my kids. I focus on a video that I saw which makes a joke out of abusing your kids for discipline and how this is harmful to the conscious parenting movement. Not to mention that these videos are seen as normal to thousands of parents who think monetizing your kids i...

Welcome every one, new and returning! In today's episode I ruminate on my worries around the kind of village my children need in terms of meaningful friendships. Sparked by a conversation I had with a friend about playgroups, I realized that my soon to be school age son has no "real" friends yet, and that got me worried. What if he doesn't make friends in time? Why can't I...

Today was a very hard day as is most days as a parent. I talk about all the mundane things, the really big important things, and the mentally depleting things in this episode. From anxiety to shame, isolation to connection, it's all here! If there was any way to start off the next chapter of this podcast, putting all the hardships and complaints into one place is the right thing to do!  If yo...

In today's episode I talk about how hard it's been to potty train my first born. From figuring out when to start, what methods to use, and dealing with a LOT of setbacks, I go through it all! Now that I am preparing for the whole journey again with my second, I share some things I've learned and some things I might do differently.  If you're in the trenches of helping your litt...

Hey mommas (and parents all shapes a sizes!) I am working on a bit of a brand re-design so stay tuned for that as we reach 30 EPISODES!! This week I have been reflecting on all the way I am feeling so so tired, from mental exhaustion, to physically not being able to stay awake in the middle of the day to carrying the mental load of being the CEO of this house. Everything is taking it's tole,...

A traumatic birth story with even more heartbreak to follow is the story I'm telling in this episode. I consider myself part of the NICU club now and I've learned a lot about resilience and grief that I hope I am ready for my next baby (when we try again!) For those of you who have lived this experience, I am so sorry. We are not alone, it's such a growing experience but never one I...

In today's episode I talk about how mothers and parents are pigeon holed into these groups and categories which dictate how we should live our lives. It can be really hard to break out of those molds to find true flexibility in our lives, but it is necessary so that we can be at peace with the one life we have to  live.  Being a parent is hard enough without the expectations society (and as a...

Being a new mom can be extremely lonely, and I don't consider myself a "new mom" anymore, and I still feel immense loneliness and isolation on a daily basis. Even with the explosion of social media during COVID lockdown there is still something inherently lonely about raising little kids.  There is a stigma that we should be able to do it all, but it also takes a village however we...

As I jump back into recording this week, I'm talking about why I've been away for such a long time, and why my mental health has taken a beating. It is so important to talk about how we struggle, even if that is with one trusted friend. The silence of mental health is what makes it fatal and so this week I am sharing my regression in the hopes that someone out there feels safe enough to...

This week I talk about the importance of taking back control over parts of you life you might have lost while living in the trenches of motherhood. For me it was having control over my birthday and allowing myself to live in that special moment without guilt!  I also talk about what "The Growth Decade" is and how we can choose to envision our lives in decades so that we don't obsess...

In today's episode I explore the term "homemaker" and how it affected the way I see my role as a mom. I have been living with this concept for about a year now and I've become fond of how it gave me clarity about my role within the home and outside of the home. Join me as I talk about how it's helped me combat my anxiety about my identity and how I hope to use it during th...

OUR FIRST GUEST!  Welcome Cindya to the podcast, she is a mom of 3, a farm entrepreneur, a teacher, and a personal motivator. On this episode we talk about our traumatic birth stories, compare our experiences and share what was so hard about our recoveries. She shares what she wishes she had known about birth, and we get to support each other during this chat, which is what we all need more of!  P...

From societal pressures to bounce back to the millennial paradox that was growing up when "skinny chic" was trendy, being a mom and having an actual positive outlook on your body feels impossible. I struggled with my weight and body image my whole life, so now that I'm a mom, I'm trying to focus on how strong my body is rather than what the world (and my inner voice) thinks I s...

In this episode I talk about my personal journey to re-parenting the little parts of me that needed better support when I was growing up. We are a sum of our parts, and I never felt like I was worthy of love. Now those parts that went un-loved get triggered when I'm parenting my children. The thing is, I've come a long way already to healing the wounds left by generational curses but I k...

They say the first 3 years are the hardest on a relationship once kids enter the scene, I can attest to that! So many things are happening to both partners during an intense time that it can be really hard to find the connection you once had before kids. These changes don't have to be permanent, as long as you're willing to communicate your needs and do the small things to show you still...

Who am I? This week I get anxious and emotional talking about where we find our identities, how we define ourselves and how that affects our mental health. As a pre-cursor to a future episode where I'll talk about identity in motherhood and how many moms lose themselves to becoming moms.  There are so many ways we can identify, and many more ways that others perceive us it can be hard to figu...

From temper tantrums to potty training to a 3 hour night routine I feel like my toddler is putting me through the ringer! But I've also learned that the "terrible twos" are a social scare tactic to make us suppress and ignore just how beautiful of a learning time these years can be!  Subscribe, rate and review, and listen wherever you get your podcasts! Oh, and if you hear something...

HAPPY NEW YEAR! 2022 was a whirlwind for me, I had a baby, struggled in every aspect of my life, started a podcast and came out the other end a better person. In this episode I look back at the year I had and make intentions for the coming season especially around my mental health and how I want to live the next chapter of my life. No counting or goal to reach here, just a mom trying to find some...

This week I'm working on not feeling so guilty for the choices I make regarding my family and the holidays! I'm also complaining about the expectation to be a super mom, especially around the holidays, the guilt we feel when we can't reach those expectations, and how to make the most of this time with our families.  Don't feel ashamed if you can't (and won't) do it al...

Shout out to all moms (and default parents) everywhere struggling with the tornado of stress that is the holidays! If Christmas is bogging you down, this episode covers everything from stress, resentment, traditions, not giving a fuck to Santa, family time, and mental health tips to make it through the end of 2022!  Christmas is a weird time for me, so I dive into why, and share the things I will...

I've been on a healing and growth journey for a long time, and it is not all flowers and rainbows, it is actually very hard work! In this episode I talk about my journey to heal myself, how I'm working towards becoming a better version of me, and how that is important for me as a mom. Our kids watch everything we do, so this journey is all about building a better version of myself so I c...

My son had an outburst and it was a direct reflection of me. As moms we can hold onto a lot of frustration and resentment before we blow, but when we do pop a gasket, it isn't pretty! In this weeks episode I talk about what went down with my toddler, how I am taking it as a learning experience, and why mom rage - and showing emotions in general - is so important for our developing kids.  I al...

As my son turned 3 I noticed a big shift in his development, specifically his behaviour towards me. These toddler years are testing all aspects of my mental health, confidence, and decisions on parenting but it is so rewarding.  In today's episode I talk about how these changes are affecting my parenting, how I'm being kind to myself through these years and where I hope this journey will...

As a stay at home mom I feel the weight every day of my importance on my family. I also feel the scrutiny and lack of acknowledgement for my service from the greater public, especially online. Stay at home parents are so undervalued by society and although we are fighting to prove that we are essential and our time is valuable, we have a long way to go! In this episode I talk about all the reasons...