The Whole Story // risking it all for electric motorsport dreams

Want to hear what being jet-lagged on the opposite side of the globe looks like? More meanderings and more truths about the cost of racing, if you're looking for something eye-watering today. **************** This podcast is comprised of entries from the journal I've been keeping since the day we got on the road in the middle of a global pandemic to go racing. Shamelessly authentic and always with...

Want to know what's on my mind at 3:17am in Las Vegas? Hazy thoughts about new opportunities and choosing new paths and splitting the difference between peri-menopause and jet lag. **************** This podcast is comprised of entries from the journal I've been keeping since the day we got on the road in the middle of a global pandemic to go racing. Shamelessly authentic and always with a...

There's a first time for everything, and here you'll hear about us actually, finally saying NO to a racing opportunity. Also, holy shit-- 100th episode! **************** This podcast is comprised of entries from the journal I've been keeping since the day we got on the road in the middle of a global pandemic to go racing. Shamelessly authentic and always with a sense of humor, I hope t...

No one tells you the numbers. The real costs. We speak in code and generalizations because it's racing's dirty little secret. Well... I'm putting some numbers on it, folks. Prepare to pick your jaw up off the floor. **************** This podcast is comprised of entries from the journal I've been keeping since the day we got on the road in the middle of a global pandemic to go racin...

Call it imposter sydrome, self doubt or existential crisis. When it hits, it hits hard, and maybe one too many bowls of cereal for dinner or nights alone with my own thoughts this week have me swirling. **************** This podcast is comprised of entries from the journal I've been keeping since the day we got on the road in the middle of a global pandemic to go racing. Shamelessly authentic...

Nearly every year it ends up that I find myself solo in May while the boys head off to the USA for one thing or another. Besides eating cereal & bananas for dinner, headspace is my favorite benefit of being alone. **************** This podcast is comprised of entries from the journal I've been keeping since the day we got on the road in the middle of a global pandemic to go racing. Shamele...

I'm having a meta moment where I'm writing and simultaneously recording podcast episodes with content from exaclty one year ago. My cosmic bookcase is reflecting the past back to me. **************** This podcast is comprised of entries from the journal I've been keeping since the day we got on the road in the middle of a global pandemic to go racing. Shamelessly authentic and always w...

Don't get excited for any big birthday bash plans or meta thoughts on a life worth living. This honest, no-frills, truncated account of what it's like to wake up on your 45th birthday is shockingly accurate, I think. 45 is a mixed bag. **************** This podcast is comprised of entries from the journal I've been keeping since the day we got on the road in the middle of a global pand...

What are we doing, why are we doing it, and are we doing it right? This season's unfolding has brought far more questions than answers (even MORE than usual) and questions around our chosen strategy-- when and IF it will come to fruition. **************** This podcast is comprised of entries from the journal I've been keeping since the day we got on the road in the middle of a global pandemic to g...

In this episode you'll hear my first inklings that a return home to the US might be imminent, and that some initial plans for the season might be coming into view. **************** This podcast is comprised of entries from the journal I've been keeping since the day we got on the road in the middle of a global pandemic to go racing. Shamelessly authentic and always with a sense of humor, I hope th...

From rolling over his car in the final race to rocking autographs on people's shoes on the strip, our experience in Las Vegas for Ellis's first ever Nitrocross race did NOT disappoint. **************** This podcast is comprised of entries from the journal I've been keeping since the day we got on the road in the middle of a global pandemic to go racing. Shamelessly authentic and always with a sens...

Despite somehow taking a 5 week break between entries from the start of the year until this entry, I'm talking about Ellis's first ever rallycross test day, broken spirits in a Barcelona hotel room and getting real about budgets as the Renegade moves up in the world. **************** This podcast is comprised of entries from the journal I've been keeping since the day we got on the road in the mid...

It's been a minute, but I'm back for more! This episode introduces the start of the 2024 season-- beginnings and ends, plans and procrastinations. **************** This podcast is comprised of entries from the journal I've been keeping since the day we got on the road in the middle of a global pandemic to go racing. Shamelessly authentic and always with a sense of humor, I hope this story gives yo...

And there it is-- another beginning of an end of a beginning. A new year's entry that straddles the end of our 2023 race season and boots us into 2024 if we're ready or not. See you soon for Season Five! ******* TheWholeStory is a podcast about my family’s journey to follow Ellis’s singular passion for racing during a global pandemic. The episodes are audio recordings of the journal I’ve been keep...

Explicitly American holidays like Thanksgiving are always a bit odd in Germany, but we make the best of it. It also always conjures up any remaining existential dread that's wandering about. Yay. Holidays. ******* TheWholeStory is a podcast about my family’s journey to follow Ellis’s singular passion for racing during a global pandemic. The episodes are audio recordings of the journal I’ve been ke...

And there it is... always sneaking around a corner, a deep, existential questioning, taking you down. Well, here it is, post-race-season-life-questioning-moment, on the page for all to see. ******* TheWholeStory is a podcast about my family’s journey to follow Ellis’s singular passion for racing during a global pandemic. The episodes are audio recordings of the journal I’ve been keeping since the...

Your kid only turns 18 once, and even when you try to do nice things, they don't always pan out. Cancelled races, visits to a legend's memorial, and endurance kart birthday parties, we made the best of it. ******* TheWholeStory is a podcast about my family’s journey to follow Ellis’s singular passion for racing during a global pandemic. The episodes are audio recordings of the journal I’ve been ke...

Back at the laundrymat, reflecting on the end of Ellis's NXT Gen Cup championship, and finally realizing how you could be disappointed with a top 3 finish, and the beautiful and crushing moment of bearing witness to your child evolving their interior self. ******* TheWholeStory is a podcast about my family’s journey to follow Ellis’s singular passion for racing during a global pandemic. The episod...

Once again outside the laundrymat, I'm wondering if I should write about 'what' or 'how and why,' and once again recognizing the parallel reality of existing in Germany or Hoboken, or anywhere else on the planet. ******* TheWholeStory is a podcast about my family’s journey to follow Ellis’s singular passion for racing during a global pandemic. The episodes are audio recordings of the journal I’ve...

It's clear in this entry I'm still working to regroup from the last few rounds of the NXT Gen Championship, make sense of what might be next, and attempt to set some boundaries on our time, energy and value. ******* TheWholeStory is a podcast about my family’s journey to follow Ellis’s singular passion for racing during a global pandemic. The episodes are audio recordings of the journal I’ve been...

Two back to back race weekends, no trophies. A series of mechanical failures made for some tough realities during this part of the season, and once again, my least favorite idiom--- 'That's racing!' launches me into a bit of a tirade on luck. ******* TheWholeStory is a podcast about my family’s journey to follow Ellis’s singular passion for racing during a global pandemic. The episodes...

Laundry, again. Halfway through a 6 week blitz on the road, I'm reflecting on where we're at with the season, how Grandfather's passing has impacted the past few months, and of course, the nitty gritty logistics of living on the road and schlepping along. ******* TheWholeStory is a podcast about my family’s journey to follow Ellis’s singular passion for racing during a global pandemic....

Sandwiched between two race weekends, the moment arrived that we all knew was inevitable. Grandfather passed away on August 1st, 2023. We did exactly what he would have wanted and we headed directly to the next race weekend and made it count. ******* TheWholeStory is a podcast about my family’s journey to follow Ellis’s singular passion for racing during a global pandemic. The episodes are audio r...

Value. Sponsors. Taking care of parents and worrying about, well, just about everything. And while the plate of life is full, Ellis finally gets his start of the NXT Gen Cup season and absolutely crushes it. ******* TheWholeStory is a podcast about my family’s journey to follow Ellis’s singular passion for racing during a global pandemic. The episodes are audio recordings of the journal I’ve been...

I've often said that I feel like I have multiple existences, happening simultaneously, and this particular week felt this way in spades. I go on a bit of tangent here talking about life with Grandfather before we left on the Age of Light Tour, and some of my myriad multiverse of feelings about it. ******* TheWholeStory is a podcast about my family’s journey to follow Ellis’s singular passion f...