The Truth I Could Not See

Welcome to  The Truth I Could Not See  Bookcast —where I read my book,  The Truth I Could Not See , chapter by chapter, sharing the raw and deeply personal journey that changed everything for me. For years, I was consumed by a relentless battle—an eating disorder, crippling mental health struggles, and the devastating loss of my mom. But in the midst of my brokenness, one question refused to be ig...

Chapter 23 - The Simple Gospel The gospel is a free gift—available to anyone who comes to Jesus. Yet, we often complicate it, believing we must earn salvation through our efforts. The Apostle Paul warned the Galatians against this distorted thinking, reminding them that righteousness comes by faith, not by works. Jesus' sacrifice established a new covenant, replacing the old laws with one base...

Chapter 22: The Heart of the Matter In this episode, we dive into  The Heart of the Matter , a chapter that explores the deep, transformative journey of faith. Using the metaphor of an artichoke, I reflect on peeling back the layers of my own misconceptions and struggles, only to realize that true healing and transformation come not from uncovering my own heart, but from connecting with God’s hear...

Chapter 21: The Cost In this episode, I share one of the most difficult moments of my journey—choosing between my lifelong religion and the undeniable truth of Jesus Christ. After my radical encounter with God, I knew I could never return to the life I once knew, but telling my family was another challenge entirely. With a heavy heart, I wrestled with the cost of following Jesus. Would I be disown...

Chapter 20: Every Thought Captive In this episode, I explore the power of disciplining the mind and the journey to true mental and spiritual freedom. After overcoming the spirit of suicide, I realized that healing wasn’t just about deliverance—it required a daily renewal of my thoughts. The battle was in my mind, and I had to take every thought captive, as Scripture commands. I share how I learned...

Chapter 19: Lingering Spirits In this episode, I dive into the reality of spiritual battles even after salvation. While my encounter with Jesus brought freedom and transformation, I soon realized that lingering spirits from my past still tried to hold me captive. I share my struggles with intrusive thoughts, moments of despair, and the unsettling question:  If I’m saved, why am I still being torme...

Chapter 18: Be of Good Cheer In this episode, I share how my growing relationship with Jesus not only transformed my faith but also brought unexpected healing. For the first time in years, I was free from the struggles that had once consumed me—self-harm, grief, and spiritual confusion. But with this newfound clarity came deep questions: What about my family? Had they truly known Jesus? A powerful...

Chapter 17 - The Gift of Jesus As the holiday season ended, the narrator found herself consumed by her newfound faith in Jesus but unsure how to move forward. Returning to the Mormon Church for the last time on her birthday, January 4, 2009, she experienced an undeniable realization—this was not the Jesus she had encountered. A deep unease settled in as she listened to testimonies and worshiped in...

Chapter 16 - A New Start After her transformative encounter with Jesus, the narrator experiences a newfound joy and freedom from past struggles. She eagerly dives into the Bible and begins exploring Christian community, despite initial hesitation. When a snowstorm hits Portland, an unexpected invitation to a Christmas party leads her to new friendships and a deeper sense of belonging. Stranded for...

In Chapter 15,  Authority , I share a pivotal moment in my faith journey—realizing that my authority came from Jesus alone, not from any church or man. After my encounter with Jesus, I sought guidance at a Christian church, only to be dismissed by the pastor. In that moment of disappointment, God spoke clearly:  I am your authority now; you only go through Me, not through man.  This revelation sha...

In Chapter 14,  Trinity , I share how my encounter with Jesus led me to a deep hunger for the Bible, ultimately bringing me to a profound revelation of the Trinity. As I read about Jesus' crucifixion, I was overwhelmed by the weight of His sacrifice and the depth of His love—something I had never fully grasped before. In a powerful vision, I saw the unity of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, r...

In Chapter 13,  My Sheep, Hear My Voice , I reflect on my lifelong desire to hear God and my evolving understanding of the Holy Spirit. Growing up in the LDS Church, I believed I had received the Holy Ghost at baptism, feeling His presence in moments of guidance and spiritual experiences. However, everything changed the night I audibly heard God call my name—an encounter that transformed my faith...

Podcast Episode Summary: Chapter 12 – The Encounter In this episode, we dive into  Chapter 12: The Encounter , a powerful and deeply personal account of a divine moment that changed everything. I reflect on the words of Isaiah 61:1—how Jesus came to bring good news to the brokenhearted, freedom to the captives, and release to the prisoners. At that moment in my life, I was all of these things: bur...

In Chapter 11, Heather reflects on the profound grief of losing her mother while revisiting the impact of past losses. As she confronts her emotions, she grapples with faith, spiritual rebirth, and the meaning of eternal life. Through her journey, she questions long-held beliefs and searches for deeper understanding. The chapter builds to a powerful final moment—her mother’s parting words,  “Be of...

Episode Title: "An Unexpected Friend" In this episode, I share a pivotal conversation that challenged my understanding of faith: "Your Jesus is not the same as my Jesus." When a new friend made this bold claim, I was frustrated and confused. Wasn’t Jesus the same for all believers? This chapter takes you through the unexpected friendship that followed, the night I cried out to...

Chapter 9: Diagnosis In this chapter, life takes another unexpected turn as I receive the news of my mom’s cancer diagnosis. At first, the updates seem reassuring, but something deep down tells me there’s more beneath the surface. As I struggle with whether to leave Utah, where I’ve finally found stability, or return home to be with my mom, I wrestle with the reality of what truly matters. When I...

Chapter 8: Unlocking the Past In this chapter, I take you back to a time when I returned to Portland, hoping for a fresh start. I landed a job at a chiropractic office, thinking it would be just another job, but it turned out to be something much more. It was there that I was introduced to a therapy that finally helped me unlock the trauma buried deep in my past. For so long, I had been trapped in...

Chapter 7: In Search of Healing In this chapter, I take you inside my time at the eating disorder clinic—a place I had hoped would finally give me the breakthrough I so desperately needed. I walked in thinking this was my chance to regain control, to finally fix what felt so broken inside me. But instead, I found myself surrounded by a system that treated the symptoms without addressing the deeper...

In  Pandora’s Box , I share how what started as a small decision quickly spiraled into something I could no longer control. At first, binging and purging felt like a secret escape—a way to relieve the pressure, to quiet the noise in my mind, and to regain some sense of control. But instead, it opened the door to something much darker. Like Pandora’s Box, once it was unleashed, I couldn’t just shut...

This chapter marks a breaking point in my journey—a moment when the weight of doubt, fear, and inner turmoil became too much to bear. Desperate for control in a world that felt like it was slipping through my fingers, I turned to binging and purging, unknowingly stepping into a cycle that would take years to break. I share the thoughts and emotions that led me down this path, the hidden pain behin...

What does it really mean to be  saved ? In this chapter, the author unpacks the religious jargon of high school—where "being saved" meant something entirely different in the LDS faith than it did for Christians. As she wrestles with these conflicting definitions, a deeper question emerges:  What does salvation truly require? Get a physical copy of the book here https://a.co/d/iitcde2

In this chapter, the author wrestles with a fundamental question:  What is the true nature of humanity?  Growing up in the LDS church, she was taught that the Fall was a necessary step toward godhood—but the Christian view paints a different picture, one where all are born in sin and separated from God. Through a childhood memory—the first time she told a lie—she begins to question her own nature...

In this chapter, the story shifts back to childhood—to the foundation of belief and identity. The author explores how the family, culture, and circumstances we are born into shape what we accept as truth. How does trauma, environment, and upbringing influence the lens through which we see the world? And what happens when that lens begins to crack? Listen as the journey continues. Buy book here htt...

In this first chapter, you are brought into the moment where everything starts to unravel—the point where she begins questioning everything she has ever known. The certainty she once had is now clouded by doubt, and the mental confusion is overwhelming. This chapter sets the tone for the entire journey—a raw, honest search for truth in the midst of uncertainty. Purchase book here https://a.co/d/01...