The Rules Were Never Real

I spent my life waiting for the moment everything would finally make sense. A spider bite. A transformation. Proof that I wasn’t broken - just becoming. Instead, I became the person who walked every path that wasn’t meant for them. The rebel. The truth-teller. The one who felt too much, gave too much, burned out, rebuilt, and did it all over again. I healed my trauma. I built communities. I held e...

That strange silence. That disappearance. And I want to talk about what’s really happening, why so many brilliant voices aren’t being seen, and why it’s not a personal failure. Why YouTube Is Hiding Creators.  https://www.theruleswereneverreal.com Instagram - / theruleswereneverreal Twitter/X - https://x.com/RulesWereNever Facebook -  https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?.. .

The adult industry is one of the most judged and least understood creative spaces. This week I talk with Evie Rees - award winning - porn actor and OnlyFans creator, about what really happens behind the camera - the community, testing, the financial ups and downs, and whether it’s all worth it. We unpack the balance between empowerment and exhaustion, visibility and censorship, and the emotional r...

Where does religion end and spirituality begin? Does organised faith have room for ecstatic personal experience? In this episode I trace my path from an Orthodox childhood to an unplanned encounter with Kali Ma that shifted everything. I confess I once judged meditation, crystals and talk of energy, and I share how that judgement slowly gave way to curiosity, humility and practice. We unpack the t...

Join me and my friend as we unpack what gender feels like in everyday life. We talk about sex and gender, what being non binary can look like, and how to show up better for trans and gender nonconforming people. Expect personal stories, small practical tips, and plenty of moments that might make you rethink what you thought you knew. Definitions: AFAB - Assigned female at birth. A medical label gi...

In this episode of The Rules Were Never Real, I share my lived experience of planning to end my life and what helped me hold on. This is not therapy or advice, but a true story of survival, suicidal thoughts, feeling alone, calling Samaritans, the reality of NHS waiting lists, and the power of reaching out to friends. If you’re searching for hope, or need to hear from someone who’s been there and...

If you are engaged and something feels off, this episode is for you. I tell the story of calling off my wedding in real time and unpack the noisy pressures that push people toward saying yes. We talk about the subtle signs that your reasons for marrying are not your own, practical steps to slow down, and honest questions to ask your partner and yourself. This is not about shame. This is about givi...

Quitting a stable career and stepping into the unknown. This is the story of how I walked away from what was expected of me, from a life that wasn’t my vision but the path most of us accept as the only option. Self-employment is scary, but it can also be the option you’ve been too afraid to consider.