The Reluctant Parent

Content Warning: Suicide, suicidal ideation, self harm, self harm methods, abuse, depression, substance abuse mentions. Chester Bennington was my hero. Bear with me if you assume this is going to a vapid celebrity obsession piece (even if it were, everyone has a right to do and feel whatever they like when it comes to celebrities!).  No, this is a difficult and very important subject for me,...

Welcome back to the podcast. This week I ponder the question, and talk about my thoughts around, whether or not I consider myself 'Happy'. WeProgress Film: https://youtu.be/wKcEJWdaOkg This podcast is also a YouTube channel! If you want to check out this and past episodes that are also vlogs, follow the link below: http://www.youtube.com/ExercisingDepression Blog: https://mrsmonsterblog.wordpress....

Content Warning: Swearing, suicide, self harm, self harm tendencies, hospitalisation, depression, medication. This week I have a (long!) conversation with my twin sister. I've been wanting to do this episode for a really long time and, with lockdown, my sister and I were able to sit on Skype for a couple of hours and have a catch-up. We've never really sat a talked at length about my mental health...

Content Warning: Swearing, Talk of Suicide and Mental Illness. This week I have a very exciting episode for you; I am talking with my long time friend David Gregory. David has, along with his friend & colleague James and talented writer Craig, created an incredible short film: We Progress.  We Progress is "... a positive and empowering drama focusing on male mental health.  We progre...

Welcome back to Exercising Depression Podcast! I thought it was high time I spoke a bit more exercise and training; I started my Podcast as a Mental Health & Fitness podcast and I intend to talk a little more about the fitness side of it. I have been a little overwhelmed as of late with the Mental Health side and things I have to deal with everyday, talking about my change in training is going...

Content Warning: OCD, BPD, loneliness, medication and crying.  I'm struggling at the moment. Dealing with certain facets of Borderline Personality Disorder and OCD has exhausted me and I'm emotionally wrung out. Sorry, I get a bit emotional near the end, you have been warned. Being in lockdown is hard on everyone, I know. For some reason being confined to my home has amped up my normally cont...

Welcome back to Exercising Depression! This week I have another conversation with my Husband. It was a while ago that I had the first of these conversations for the podcast, but I thought it was time enough for another! This episode we talk about being in lockdown, my mental health and the weather... This podcast is also a YouTube channel! If you want to check out this and past episodes that are a...

Content Warning: Medication, Antidepressants, Mental Illness.  I've been feeling that my current medication has dulled my creativity, it's something that's been bothering me for a number of weeks. This episode I basically muse and think out loud about if I should stop my medication because of lockdown and maybe resume being more creative. This podcast is also a YouTube channel! If you want to chec...

Online Mental Health Help:  https://www.mentalhealth.gov/get-help/immediate-help http://suicidehotlines.com/   Calm: 0800 585858 www.thecalmzone.net  Campaign Against Living Miserably Help and support for young men aged 15-35 on issues which include depression and suicide.   HopeLine UK 0800 068 4141  www.papyrus-uk.org For practical advice on suicide prevention  Lifeline (N.Ireland) 0808 808 8000...

My last episode/blog seemed to get a lot of attention and I think it may have been because of the subject matter. So with that, I’ve decided to help anyone who stumbles across this blog who are struggling with the current situation and their mental health. Stay safe out there.  This podcast is also a YouTube channel! If you want to check out this and past episodes that are also vlogs, follow...

It's scary in the world right now. At least, the uncertainty of what's going to happen, is scary.  Because of the global pandemic of COVID-19, we are all in uncertain times a the moment, this week i reflect a little on how I feel about the potential added isolation and putting my training on hold. Stay safe out there. This podcast is also a YouTube channel! If you want to check out this and past e...

Content Warning: Discussion of weight, weigh gain, weight loss, disordered eating, eating disorders, self harm and working out, This has the potential to be a triggering and controversial topic, but please don't assume the worst in me for talking about my weight. All my opinions about weight gain/loss/in general are all to do with me, my experiences and my opinions and perceived worth of myself, n...

Sorry, Spoiler? Ah, nevermind!  Welcome back to the Exercising Depression podcast, this week I talk about a job interview I had at the beginning of the week. It was something that came out of the blue a bit for me, I've not been looking for an extra job (I LOVE my job!) but it was an opportunity that popped up and i thought I was give it a go. I haven't had a formal job interview for MANY yea...

Welcome back to the Exercising Depression podcast, this week is a part 1 of my talking about my faith.  Having faith is incredibly important to me and is something I've discover, and continue to discover, mainly in my adult years. I was brought up Catholic but it took my real looking into what I did or did not believe in to come to a place i'm relatively happy in. This podcast is also a YouTube ch...

Welcome back to the Exercising Depression podcast, this week I talk about the ending of my EMDR therapy, how I have found the past 8 months and how I feel it has changed me... Watch this episode as a vlog too! YouTube: https://youtu.be/3VlSgmQuT6A  Twitter: http://www.twitter.com/EDepressionPod Instagram: http://www.instagram.com/ExercisingDepression_Podcast Email: exercisingdepressionpodcast@gmai...

This week I have a chat with Shaun from the Mindfulness For beginners Podcast; we talk about Mindfulness, Shaun's podcast and mental health. Check out Shaun's podcast: Apple Pocasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/mindfulness-for-beginners/id1493806566?ign-mpt=uo%3D4 Breaker: https://www.breaker.audio/mindfulness-for-beginners Google Podcasts: https://podcasts.google.com/?feed=aHR0cHM6Ly9hb...

Welcome back to Exercising Depression! This week i have a catch up and chat with my very dear friend JP, who has his own Mental Health podcast Depressed not Dead. We talk about friendship, therapy and running amongst other things :) Check out JP's podcast and website (search Depressed Not Dead or JAMOALKI): http://jamoalki.info/ https://jamoalki.info/category/podcast/ https://podcasts.apple.com/us...

Welcome back to the Exercising Depression podcast.  This week I discuss my reasons for starting weight training.  I started weight training around June 2019, it's something I have found real joy in and some incredible mental health benefits. Feeling strong has never been a familiar feeling to me, it's quite alien but I am learning to feel it with real achievement and it's helping me every day.   E...

Welcome back to the Exercising Depression Podcast. This episode I talk about my Online persona and how I deal with having one whilst living with BPD, anxiety and Depression. I have also recorded this episode as a vlog for my YouTube channel, which will alongside the podcast to reach a wider audience. Check out the channel: http://www.youtube.com/ExercisingDepression First Vlog: https://youtu.be/Fh...

First of all I'm so sorry about the volume difference in the beginning and then the rest of this episode, I'm not sure how that happened and I tried to rectify it! Second of all: CONTENT WARNING - discussion of suicide, self harm & medication. Welcome to 2020! This episode I review the year 2019 before starting this podcast; Jan-June.  My appearance on Pointless:  1st episode https://youtu.be/aJyn...

Kinda something a little different; I'm putting on some makeup (to go food shopping whoo!) and decided to chat with you guys whilst I did it. I'm still figuring out my setup and trying out what best audio quality I can get with my new doodad (Zoom H4n Pro) so bear with me!  Contact me!  Email@ exercisingdepressionpodcast@gmail.com  Twitter: @EDepressionPod  Instagram: @exercisi...

Welcome to the Exercising Depression Podcast, this is a little update episode where i talk about my training for a 10k, a new tattoo, lapse in gym/training and how I've dealt with the reemergence of hallucinations. tattoo artist Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/damianhopeellams/ Relax My Cat Podcast (I Co-Host): https://open.spotify.com/show/7hb9bfQtaT9CNd454gRG0K Please feel free to contact m...

Welcome back to the Exercising Depression podcast. This episode I sit down with good friend and Vicar Richard, who is the vicar of the church I attend and has been for the past 10 years. We discuss his role and how he has experienced his own mental health in regards to his job but also having to be a guide and counsellor to others. We have a lovely, relaxed conversation in his home with coffee and...

Welcome to the Exercising Depression podcast, this episode I have a very special guest; my Husband! We have a conversation about our relationship in regards to my mental health problems and diagnoses, from when we started dating to long distance issues and our marriage. Plus our cat makes a debut and purrs sporadically into the mic! Please feel free to contact me: Twitter: @EDepressionPod Instagra...

Welcome to the Exercising Depression podcast, this episode I talk about my recent EMDR therapy session and other updates. Massive thanks to Rosie & Ryan over at the Voice of the Victim podcast who gave me a shoutout and played my promo. You guys are fab! Check out their podcast:  https://vovpodcast.podbean.com/ https://www.stitcher.com/podcast/voice-of-the-victim-podcast/voice-of-the-victim https:...