The Permission Portal w/ Paulmarq & Laz

In this episode, Gabe Pressman joins us and shares his journey of leaving his high paying tech job, stepping outside societal expectation, trusting his own path, and building something that reflects who he truly is not what the world told him to be. This conversation dives into identity, self-trust, and what opens up when you stop outsourcing your direction and start moving from within.  You might...

In this episode, Fredricka “Free” Kinlow joins us for another dope conversation. She is a spiritual teacher, intuitive guide, author, and creator of the Freedom Love Experience. Free takes us through her journey from exploration, sensuality, and self-discovery… ...into embodiment, celibacy, and reclaiming her power from the inside. This episode is your invitation to stop waiting.  The Permission P...

In this episode, Mimi D. joins us.  We talk about healing, transformation, and the power of Palo Santo. Mimi is the founder of Maison Palo Santo, a sound healer, and the creator of luxurious meditation experiences rooted in ritual, nervous system regulation, and joy. She shares how Palo Santo became more than just a product for her... ...it became part of her path, her healing, and her mission to...

In this episode, our special guest is Jodi Green. She is the Executive Director of the Greater Woodbury Chamber of Commerce, and a longtime leader in community health and maternal wellness. She also happens to be and one of Paulmarq’s closest friends of decades.  Jodi shares how a life-changing birth experience led her to become a doula more than twenty years ago, and how that turned into training...

In this episode, we sit with Chef Arturo Urquidi, founder of Crepeology Café. We talk about what it means to honor a dream, even when it seems the odds, timing, and circumstances say otherwise. Arturo shares his journey from El Paso to Las Vegas to Austin, working in high-stakes kitchens, and eventually creating a space that honors his late father’s dream.  A space that blends joy, connection, and...

In this episode of The Permission Portal, we sit with spiritual business strategist, and energetic architect, Alexandra Leigh.  We talk about what it means to follow your destiny. Alexandra helps creatives and spiritual entrepreneurs build soul-aligned businesses that honor their energetic blueprint instead of someone else’s formula. We explore: – Astrology, Human Design, Gene Keys & Destiny M...

In this episode, we welcome Padmavati Wylde. She's an musical artist, mystic, and aerialist. We discuss all kinds of things from Mennonite ancestry to barefoot living in the Canadian forest,and how Padmavati’s life is a living invitation into nervous system regulation, sensuality, and creativity.  This is a conversation about walking barefoot with beauty, building altars with intention, and dancin...

In this episode, we sit with Nydia Zamorano-Torres — The Serpent Sage. She's former physical therapist turned ceremonial practitioner. We dive into reverent cannabis use, nervous system repair, and snake venom as medicine. She shares how her journey from “Ganja Clergy” to “The Serpent Sage” and mirrors a larger collective path of shedding religious shame, reclaiming feminine wisdom, and learning t...

In this episode, we sit with Dawn Ellinwood – Master Coach, Sacred Venoms practitioner, and hair healer to explore what it means to reclaim radiance from the inside out. Dawn shares how a trip to her salon becomes a ceremony, how grief leaves the body through the crown, and how beauty isn’t a performance, it’s a pulse of sacred truth.  We touch on the energetic power of presence, the mysticism of...

In this episode, our friend Taylor Davis, an intuitive business strategist and satisfaction architect, joins us for a conversation about reprogramming the nervous system from hustle, burnout, and performative achievement into deep satisfaction, success, and self-trust. Taylor supports the feminine-energy inside of entrepreneurs and creators in designing intuitive, pleasurable, and sustainable busi...

In this episode, Rachel Muwanga (aka The Art Midwife) joins us for a conversation about identity, lineage, and her experience with reclaiming power through connection to her roots.  Rachel shares about  traveling to Uganda for the first time, meeting her grandmother and connecting with her father’s side of the family for the first time in person after 31 years of life. She speaks on what it means...

In this episode, we've got Kimber Hardick joining us. We talk about people-pleasing, how boundaries can shift instead of staying rigid, how a yes today can be a no tomorrow as well as the flipside of a yes turning into a no.  Kimber is the author of "An Invitation to Shine" (her book that comes out soon). In it she's written about releasing inherited conditioning to remember who you are under proj...

In this episode, our friend Tah Whitty joins us for a conversation about the courage to cry with witness. Tah is a master emotional navigation coach who helps high achievers break through plateaus that traditional therapy doesn't hold a candle to.  He’s the co-founder of The Condor Approach, creator of EmotionAll, Sistah Sanctuary and Free Bra.  He's been a nurse for over 33 years, spent 16 years...

In this episode, our friend Kelly Morgan joins us for a conversation about making business personal. Most of us have heard it... “It’s not personal, it’s just business.” And we talk about what makes that idea is one of the biggest misfires in entrepreneurship and business culture. Kelly is a business coach who blends somatic awareness, trauma-informed leadership, and practical consulting to help f...

In this episode, our friend Mandy Witters joins in a conversation about disintegrating perceived separation of sacred and sexual in our own experiences and how you could do the same if it's something you'd like... Mandy is a trauma-informed integration coach, beginner /novice Tantrika and space holder for curious souls at the beginning of their awakening. Mandy shares about how ayahuasca and Kunda...

In this episode, we dive into the world of kink with Mxter Xero (Xir). He’s a rope artist, former Mr. Maryland Leather, psychedelic guide, hypnotist, and teacher. A little over two years ago, Laz volunteered to be tied up Shibari-style by Xir in a room full of people.  During that experience, remnants of old judgments and condemnation left his body. We talk about how kink becomes a healing space f...

In this episode we have Toy Guy, the founder of Platinum Treasures Adult Novelties and Lingerie as our special guest.  He's a Baltimore native who grew up in an environment where men were shamed for wearing open toed shoes. It's a real, raw conversation that a lot of people shy away from.  And in our experience, especially black men.  We talk about how he went from stripping to slangin' sex toys,...

In this episode, we dive into permission to visit the past without livingi there.  From old addresses and childhood memories to past relationships and unfinished stories, this conversation explores why nostalgia can be both powerful and dangerous, and how to honor the past without letting it control the present.  There are: Tools to revisit memories without retraumatization Funny and raw stories a...

In this episode of The Permission Portal, Paulmarq and Laz sit down with the electrifying Goody Howard - a sexologist, educator, and pleasure activist, to talk about what it really means to give yourself Permission to Seek Pleasure. We unpack the myths, shame, and conditioning that keep people disconnected from their own bodies and desires, and how reclaiming pleasure is not only a right, but a ra...

In this episode we explore how shame, family rules, and cultural scripts can cause us to hide what we want and how to allow ourselves to want them with clarity, worthiness, forgiveness, following intuitive “pings,” and how to make your wants sacred, not secret. The Permission Portal Podcast is for all people who are ready to release shame, reclaim their voice, and live fully expressed. The intenti...

What if you didn’t have to be polished to be powerful? In this episode, Paulmarq and Laz dive deep into what it means to show up fully while still in process. We explore how shame, performance, and perfectionism can block us from being seen, heard, understoodand how giving yourself permission to be visible mid-journey changes everything. We speak on how to move through it to stop hiding if you hav...

In this episode of The Permission Portal, we're diving into “The Power to Choose.” We talk about about how shifting identity can be funky and freeing and how we’re both navigating letting go of the boxes we were conditioned to stay in. From parenting to pronouns, from old beliefs and labels, we explore how choosing a new identity a part of creating the life, relationships, and anything else you wa...

In this trailer episode, we introduce The Permission Portal, a podcast for the parts of you that were told to stay quiet. We open up about our journeys: from religious conditioning and family projections to breaking out of every box we were put in. We share the core belief that you’ve always been good enough. That the permission you’ve been waiting for is already inside of you. This is a space to...