The Orange Tapes

OT. Episode 11: "I Love God... But I'm Still Traumatized" For too long, many Christians have believed that loving God should erase emotional pain, traumatic events and mental health struggles. But what if healing looks different than we imagined? Nicole J. welcomes licensed therapist Dorene Kyando for an honest conversation about trauma, faith, therapy, attachment, and the journey toward wholeness...

OT. Episode 10: " Dear Sister," This is a close one. In “Dear Sister,” Nicole J sits down with her sister, Monique Akisanya, for one of the most honest and layered conversations they’ve ever shared. What unfolds is a deeply reflective dialogue on sisterhood—unpacking comparison, conflict, grief, faith, and identity. Together, they explore the unspoken reality that siblings can grow up under the sa...

Season 2 kicks off with Nicole J and Olu Akinwande exploring a world divided by polarization, politics, and Christian nationalism, where viral tragedies dominate our feeds and emotions run high. In this episode, we dig into why society feels increasingly extreme, why people are so quick to pick sides, and how these pressures impact the way we think, feel, and respond to one another. We discuss how...

Welcome to season 2 of The Orange Tapes with Nicole J. This season, we’re going a little deeper and having the conversations that are often felt but rarely spoken out loud. From navigating the political climate to unpacking mental health, unhealthy family dynamics, the realities of being a woman in today’s world, and what healthy relationships and marriages truly look like, nothing is off the tabl...

OT Ep. 8 – It took me 32 years to understand this (Part 2) In this conclusion of season 1 and the second installment of It Took Me 32 Years to Understand This , I continue sharing the 32 lessons that have shaped me over 32 years. In this episode, we dig into some of the most transformative lessons like releasing offense before it becomes a prison, refusing to let one chapter define your whole stor...

OT Ep. 8 – It took me 32 years to understand this What does 32 years of life really teach you? In part one of a two-part series, Nicole J. reflects on 16 lessons that shaped her life, faith, and everything she’s still learning, from imposter syndrome and anxiety to identity and growth. Join her as she peels back the layers and uncovers lessons we can all relate to and learn from. OT Socials Follow...

OT Pod Episode 7 – The Biggest Lie We Believe About Men with Corey Farrow| Hosted by Nicole J. In this episode, Nicole J and Corey Farrow debunk some of the most damaging myths about men. Together, they challenge cultural narratives and explore what true masculinity looks like through the lens of faith, life, and authenticity. Corey's Socials IG: @Corey.farrow_ OT Socials Follow us: Host: @ByNicol...

OT Pod Episode 6 – I’m Creative, But Do I Belong Here? with Pastor Yaw | Hosted by Nicole J. Nicole J. sits down with Pastor Yaw to talk about the often unspoken tension between creatives and the church. As he prepares to launch his new book Anointed but Accountable . Together, they unpack what it feels like to be deeply creative but unsure if you fit into traditional church spaces. From the inter...

OT Ep. 5 – God, Culture, and Diddy In this solo episode, Nicole J. takes a deep dive into the Diddy trial and opens up a bigger conversation about why God cares about culture—and why believers should, too. With honesty and insight, she unpacks how headlines reflect deeper spiritual realities and why culture isn't something Christians should ignore. Whether you're wrestling with how to process curr...

OT Pod Ep. 4 The Good, the Bad, and the Influencers: How Social Media Shapes Our Faith and Discernment Welcome back to The Orange Tapes —a safe space where we peel back the layers of life, culture, and faith. In this episode, Nicole J. sits down with guest Lordley to unpack the growing wave of prophetic voices on social media. Together, they explore the good and not-so-good sides of digital minist...

OT Pod Ep. 3 In this heartfelt episode of The Orange Tapes , Nicole J. sits down with her brother, Isaiah, to discuss their personal reactions to public scandals within Christian leadership. Isaiah opens up about the deep emotional impact of being part of a church where Mike Bickle, former director of the International House of Prayer (IHOP), was accused of sexual allegations and other scandals. H...

OT Pod Ep. 2 In the second episode of The Orange Tapes , Nicole J. is joined by guest Olamide Iyanda as they dive deep into the transition from the twenties to the thirties. Together, they explore the idea of “growing up” versus “growing into yourself” — discussing the changes they've experienced and the shifts in their mindsets. Both share personal stories about how they’ve evolved over the years...

The OT Pod Ep. 1 In the trailer episode of The Orange Tapes , host Nicole J. introduces herself and sets the stage for an honest and open conversation about faith, culture, and life. With a tagline of “A safe place to peel back the layers of faith, culture, and life,” Nicole invites listeners into a space where no topic is off-limits. In this brief but insightful episode, Nicole shares the inspira...