The Naked Puppet

Why do I keep falling for gay men? Why do I treat men like casual fun and women like future wives? And how much of that is actually me... and how much was it just trauma trying to keep me safe?  In this intimacy episode, I unpack the hella invisible rules my brain created around attraction, intimacy, and vulnerability after years of trauma and dissociation. Through parts work and a lot of uncomfor...

On today’s sex episode of The Naked Puppet… we’re getting very personal. I’m talking masturbation, celibacy, sexual awakening, and a realization that completely unraveled my understanding of my own body. After going on a few dates and almost breaking my celibacy, I discovered something that sent me into one of the biggest trauma epiphanies of my healing journey. Turns out I had spent 30+ years fol...

Season 2 of The Naked Puppet is here… and everything is changing. I've been gone for a few months, continuing to heal but also starting a new job... one that’s helping me heal in ways I didn’t expect. What started as a simple brand ambassador role turned into something much deeper: real-life exposure therapy for my brain. If you’re new here, I’ve spent the last few years navigating dissociati...

I got boho braids for the first time and unlocked a whole new personality because of it! But what started as a cute, carefree hairstyle quickly turned into a full-blown hair horror story... one that had me genuinely contemplating shaving my entire head… and unexpectedly unraveling my identity as a mixed girl. In this episode of The Naked Puppet , we dive into the unique grief of having mixed hair...

Years ago I told my Youtube friends how I ended my 8-year long relationship, but it wasn't the entire story. For years, I believed that I was the villian in the story... but that's not quite the truth. Not even close. In this episode of The Naked Puppet , I sit down with one of my own OSDD parts, Housewife Jacy , to unpack what really happened behind closed doors: the subtle emotional ma...

I just got back from a fun and flirty trip to Germany for Oktoberfest! What started as the most sexually liberating night of my life turned into one of the most confusing spirals I’ve ever had. I felt confident, powerful, and finally safe being seen... until I saw the photos of myself the next morning. Suddenly, my brain flipped the script. The memory changed. The confidence vanished. In this epis...

I’ve never been sexually attracted to… anyone. Physically attracted? Sure. But that innate jump-your-bones impulse based on looks alone? Never. But now as I navigate my healing journey and awaken my lady bits from a lifelong coma, I'm starting to feel... tingles. Could this be my first time feeling truly horny? In this episode of The Naked Puppet , I rebuild my Hinge and run a full-blown desi...

I got new boobs! And not through a cosmetic procedure or plastic surgery, but the au natural way - healing my trauma 🤪 I’m sharing how my chest became ground zero for my healing journey, where I would eventually get inches taller, develop a new spectrum of emotions, and finally face my reflection after years of avoiding it. Hips, hormones, period pain, and a newfound libido.. We’re talking all th...

I used to think I was broken. Magazine articles and TV shows said sex would be explosive with acrobatic pleasure and undeniable excitement! So what was I doing wrong? I couldn't tell if I had a low sex drive, if I just hadn't found the right kink, or if maybe I wasn’t the kind of person who would ever enjoy sex. So I spent most of my sex life performing, completely dissociated and numb f...

🎙️ Welcome to opening night of The Naked Puppet. In this debut teaser episode, Jacy steps into the spotlight to explain why she’s launching a podcast now — and why she’s interviewing herself to do it. Is this the end of her YouTube era? Or just the next act? She unpacks the show’s format, the stories she’s finally ready to tell, and how repressed trauma rewrote everything she thought she knew abou...