The Mormon History Hoedown

This is one of those conversations that changes how you see your entire life. Leah Young shares what it actually feels like to have your belief system collapse in real time and what it takes to rebuild from the ground up. From reading the CES letter to nearly losing her marriage, this episode goes deep into identity, fear, control, and the moment you decide to trust yourself. If you’ve ever questi...

Why is the U.S. bombing Iran? Why is it that we are seeing a sudden, frantic surge in apocalyptic rhetoric coming from the highest levels of our government? Is it possible that the people currently steering our military into a conflict with Iran are operating from a "prophetic blueprint"? Let's discuss. All the Carah Burrell links 🔗 https://linktr.ee/nuancehoe Carah Burrell Substack: https://subs...

Buckle up to use your brains; we're talking neuroscience. Before I share how my 30 days of Mormonizing went, I wanted to open up about some big-picture ideas. I’m joined by Mat Sillito to talk about why belief isn’t just ideas in your head, it’s what your body rehearses. We get into the brain’s default mode network, how environments trigger responses before you “choose” them, and why rituals can f...

In this episode, I chat with Elena Bridgers, science writer and author of Motherhood Until Yesterday to talk about the lie most moms are living under: that motherhood should feel natural, effortless, and fulfilling on its own. Instead, we uncover why modern motherhood feels so hard and why it’s not your failure, it’s the mismatch between how humans evolved to raise children and how we’re expected...

What are the chances of a guy like Jesus and a girl like me ending up together? Not good. But I'm throwing my life into the turmoil of holiness anyway to get some data! I'm making my way through a year-long course on secular spirituality, and now it's time I introduce my project for 2026, working title: Mormonize Me. In this first episode, I introduce my ideas and talk to experts and friends like...

CONTENT WARNING: This episode includes frank discussion of racism, domestic violence, religious trauma, online harassment, and threats. Today, we dive into de-radicalization, Christian nationalism, and the real human cost of propaganda, featuring Jennie Gage from Life, Take Two a former white supremacist and ex-Mormon. Jennie rebuilt her life through community, accountability, and hard truths. We...

My first working title for this episode was: "Leaving Mormonism and Flying Frontier: What I Wish I Had to Survive." I think that sums it up! Storytimes are always fun, so sit back and let me tell you the tale of the girl who had to rebuild a nervous system from scratch. "That doesn't sound fun." What if I include my newest lore and hijinks without end? Great. All my links 🔗 https://linktr.ee/nuan...

Everyone be nice. It's a heavy time. All my links 🔗 https://linktr.ee/nuancehoe Help me continue making important, hilarious content by becoming a one-time or monthly donor! 🤝 DONATE VIA DONORBOX! https://donorbox.org/thanks-for-the-amazing-content-carah-let-me-help-you-keep-it-funded 👩‍💻 Join the Hoetown community on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/nuancehoe 🍯 Tip Jar (Venmo: CarahB): https...

You'll never guess who I ran into at the local "Fuck Nazis" rally in Utah. That's right, Kwaku El. The face of Ward Radio and Mormon apologetic videos sits down with me for a deep dive on the history and viewpoints of this funky, new brand of white supremacy that bowie knife-wielding involuntary celibates are calling "DezNat". Why? Because the Nazis are here and no one, least of which the LDS chur...

In today's episode of the podcast, Carly Bingham gives us the low down on the hoedown as we discuss all the aspects of her faith journey. Carly, best known for her viral ex-Mormon related content across Instagram and TikTok, shares her raw, funny, and thoughtful reflections on leaving the Mormon Church, navigating motherhood, sexuality, and personal growth. Whether you're in the middle of your own...

Join me, Carah Burrell, for two hours of joy as I sit down with comedian Adam Broud, known for his hilarious and thought-provoking stand-up show "Comedy Church". You'll either laugh your ass off or say "Get thee hence, Satan." No further explanation is needed. Check out these links to see where Adam Broud is performing next: https://www.adambroud.com/upcoming-shows Adam Broud's Instagram: https://...

Howdy y'all, I’m back and ready to share and care. In this episode, I'm answering questions and unpacking a whole bunch of stuff about my Mormon life and what I believe now. Haters get lost cause I'm getting honest about the good, the bad, and the divorced. Thanks to everyone who've been lovely sweethearts and followed my journey! All my links 🔗 https://linktr.ee/nuancehoe Help me continue making...

The ultimate Ex-Mormon sex Q&A is here! If you've heard of sex or tried it, hold off going at it until you watch me and my guest Faith Erickson answer listeners' burning questions and give our million-dollar advice. Faith's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/faith_ironically/ Mormon Stories: Redefining Sexuality and Body Autonomy - Faith Erickson's THRIVE Story: https://www.youtube.com/live/...

Welcome to a recap of the multi-part series on The Mountain Meadows Massacre with historian, author, director of Signature Books, content editor of the award-winning "Massacre at Mountain Meadows" and co-author of "Vengeance Is Mine, The Mountain Meadows Massacre and Its Aftermath" Barbara Jones Brown! In this live steam we ask Barbara the quick facts on the Mountain Meadows Massacre, a tragic eve...

On today's episode, me and John Dehlin @mormonstories tackle our top reasons Mormonism falls on its face. No messing around, no games, just one: Jenga. We heard you like metaphors so we got you 54 of them delicately stacked, then SACKED. You'll have to watch and see who wins! (Rationality) And who goes home the loser! (Anyone who can't finish this video masterpiece) All my links and info on the gr...

Welcome to the video that Mormons wish was just clickbait. We're embarking on a thought-provoking analysis, featuring an exclusive interview with Ryan Fisher, @NephiteExplorer. It's an honor to have Ryan join us again to provide deeper insights into the complex narrative of Tim Ballard. We are connecting dots and making enemies with doomsdayers and 100 billion dollar corporations. Shocking blessin...

Welcome Nephite Explorer to the podcast! In part one, we're diving deep into the mind of Tim Ballard, founder of Operation Underground Railroad, with Ryan Fisher, former confidant of Tim Ballard, esteemed videographer, ex-Heartlander, and journalist. Get ready for an eye-opening multi-series interview with Ryan. From where Tim Ballard's controversial journey began in the conservative Mormon demogr...

Join me for the Tim Ballard podcast to end all Tim Ballard podcasts. All my links and info on the group trip to Greece! 🔗 https://linktr.ee/nuancehoe 👇 👇 👇 I live and die on donor support! So, great news! The Nuance Hug Foundation is up and running as a 501c3 nonprofit. All donations to ✨Donor Box and Venmo✨ are tax deductible in the US! More podcasts and shorts are coming full-time as long...

Join me and the amazing Radio Free Mormon from Mormon Discussions for a very special episode where we dive into Steve Densley's leaked speech "Proving The Church Is True". One lawyer versus another! Radio Free Mormon: https://radiofreemormon.org/ All my links and info on the group trip to Greece! 🔗 https://linktr.ee/nuancehoe 👇 👇 👇 I live and die on donor support! So, great news! The Nuance Hu...

In this special second episode with Brittney Hartley, we dive into her insightful book, "No Nonsense Spirituality." Brittney takes us through topics such as deconstruction and reconstruction, the tools we choose for ourselves to keep from religion and how to bust out and develop new rituals that we can build off of. We're getting into some deep stuff, from necklace symbols to reintegration and ang...

In today's vid, we're diving deep into some real talk with the amazing Faith Erickson! How does Faith describe the difference between dangerous and righteous desire? Let's discuss. We kick things off with Faith explaining her lifelong curiosity about sex and her journey from fearing it to owning it like an A+ boss. Faith drops some wisdom bombs on us about finding a new understanding of morality a...

Welcome to the live stream with two gals whose post-Mormon path wasn't giving life . Is your religion not true for you like it used to be? Are you tired of the mental gymnastics? If you won the prize and the trophy wasn't a trophy at all, but a black hole of nihilistic angst, then dismount into this thought-provoking and life-saving interview with Brittany Hartley. Britt is an atheist spiritual di...

Welcome to this soon-to-be legendary episode of The Mormon History Hoedown in which I interview Kwaku El, known for his staunch defense of Mormonism on Ward Radio, Saints Unscripted, and Jubilee’s Mormons vs. Exmormons! In the ring with Kwaku today, we kick it off with his conversion, liberal background, and perspectives as an apologist in the Mormon space. How did he make that shift, what's his d...

Speaking my peace on peace-ing out until someone tells me to shut up. 👇 👇 👇 I live and die on donor support! So, great news! The Nuance Hug Foundation is up and running as a 501c3 nonprofit. All donations to ✨Donor Box and Venmo✨ are tax deductible in the US! More podcasts and shorts are coming full-time as long as I can keep it funded. Help me and my team continue making important, hilarious...

In this episode, I interview the wise and delightful Suzy Baker, co-founder of The Psychedelic Assembly. We explore her life in Mormonism in Alabama, Utah and New York City, as well as the dark side of dating her zone leader on her mission and the events that led her out of the church. Cozy up with Carah with Suzy for this special reveal of Suzy's mission experience. Serving the Lord? And serving...