The Monet Noctaris Podcast

What happens when a spiritual belief that once helped you survive no longer feels true?   In this episode, I trace my gradual disentanglement from the frameworks that shaped my spiritual life—from growing up in an unconventional spiritual place of worship, to immersing myself in past-life regression and New Age spirituality, to eventually questioning one of the beliefs I had clung to most tig...

What happens when you finally reach the milestone you were taught would make you feel safe, successful, and free — and instead, your whole body says no? In this episode, I’m talking about disillusionment with success: the kind that comes when the business works, the numbers grow, the goal is reached… but the life underneath it is no longer sustainable. I share the story of building a six-figure sp...

In this episode, Monet Noctaris explores disillusionment through the lens of polyamory, ethical non-monogamy, bisexuality, coercion, and the quiet ways we can use “expanded” frameworks to betray our own knowing. This is not an episode about why polyamory is bad. It is an episode about what happens when a relationship structure becomes a place where boundaries are crossed, needs are distorted into...

In this episode, Monet begins breaking down the first stage of the Sovereign Human Pathway : disillusionment. Disillusionment is the moment when an old story, belief system, relationship pattern, or way of living stops making sense. It can feel like grief, anger, confusion, a dark night of the soul, or a quiet internal realization: I cannot keep doing this anymore. Through a deeply personal story,...

In this episode, Monet introduces the Sovereign Human Pathway: a free audio journey and workbook created as a map back to yourself in a time when so many people are feeling the old ways of living, relating, working, and surviving no longer fit. Building on the previous episode’s exploration of the collective return to coherence, Monet names what many are feeling internally: the inability to keep p...

In this episode, Monet bridges her personal story of leaving self-abandonment and coming home to sovereign coherence with the larger collective shift so many people are feeling right now. If life feels harder to tolerate, if the old coping mechanisms no longer work, if the systems and relationships you once accepted as “normal” now feel absurd, painful, or impossible to participate in, you are not...

Sometimes the life you built to survive becomes the life you’re invited to outgrow. In this episode, Monet shares the story of returning home to Encinitas for the first time in years — alone, unstructured, and open enough to feel the ocean call her back to herself. What began as a simple trip to sing at an old friend’s wedding became a profound moment of clarity around home, family, embodiment, mo...

In this episode, Monet shares a personal reflection on dating again after a year of healing, and what it means to enter connection without abandoning yourself. From there, she opens a deeper conversation about sacred rage: the anger that rises when we have spent years overriding our own knowing, abandoning ourselves for love, and trying to be “easy” enough not to be left. This is an episode about...

In this episode, Monet reflects on growing up in the open-hearted spiritual landscape of Encinitas, the quiet grief of returning to a hometown that has changed, and the deeper meaning of sanctuary. She shares, for the first time, part of her story of living inside a marriage shaped by religious control, lack of bodily autonomy, and the slow erosion of her own inner knowing. Through memories of con...

Episode 1: Welcome Home Welcome to The Monet Noctaris Podcast — a space for honest conversations about spirituality, embodiment, healing, creativity, and what it means to come home to yourself after years of living in survival, performance, or disconnection. In this first episode, Monet opens the door to the world of the podcast: a grounded, human, and deeply intuitive space for exploring the unse...