The Last Thoughts of a Busy Mind

Content Warning: During the last third of this episode, I experience a live anxiety attack. It's nothing serious but if that makes you uncomfortable, proceed with caution. There are a lot of things, little and insignificant, that can add up to the amount best exemplified in a mythical mountain such as doom. When that tends to happen, it's easy for a week to pass by like nothing of significance was...

The strict British nanny once told the world that the word "Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious" is used when one doesn't know what to speak of, and sometimes that is what happens to one. When a week is filled with apathy and a sense of uselessness, and there are a myriad of issues overwhelming every hour of every day; sometimes the best thing one can do is to say "Supercalifragilisticexpialidociou...

To end a relationship can be an arduous task, filled with an unhealthy amount of emotions pouring in from all sides. But sometimes that outpour of emotion can lead to words that not only hurt, they scar. When words that were given in confidence are used to humiliate and attack; the result may not just be termination of a relationship, it may be termination of a friendship.

Education is a historically fundamental part of youth and early adulthood. You are enrolled in a school to learn the basics, and you enroll in a university to continue those basics. Ideally, this historically fundamental part is a mixture of hard work and enjoyment for following a passion or a desire; but as time and time shows the world is far from ideal. Check out my appearance on "Story-Power":...

A new year approaches and with it comes the gratuitous task of looking back to what has conspired through the past year. What plans and what promises were kept and what was lost in the march of time; and what came without no plans and what is hoping to come still. A new year approaches and with it comes the plans, the retrospectives and the resolutions. Check out my appearance on "Politically Ente...

A new year approaches and with it comes the gratuitous task of looking back to what has conspired through the past year. What plans and what promises were kept and what was lost in the march of time; and what came without no plans and what is hoping to come still. A new year approaches and with it comes the plans, the retrospectives and the resolutions. Politically Entertaining with Evolving Rando...

In this episode, I sit down (in person!) and talk with a friend who I've known since 2018, Siavash. We met each other through friends and acquaintances in our Art University, and hit it off with an obsession with certain movies and certain YouTube personalities. So we decide to discuss those YouTube personalities, an array of different movies, the end of 2021 and how the year was, and Siavash's ba...

When one's life goes through cycles of depression and mediocrity, it might be often hard to ponder what is coming and anticipate that with glee and joy. But life is nothing if not unpredictable. Sometimes, out of seemingly no plausible place, there will be an occasion where one will look forward to what is coming on. For once in a long time, one will look forward to the passage of time. Wait, I've...

In a desire to dedicate a significant amount of time to one's favorite genre in filmmaking, it's good to orchestrate ways of integrating that genre into one's life for a full month. That may come as catching up on one's watch list, or organizing watch parties, or creating a self-inflicted challenge. This is the third option, this is "Western August in November". Download the PDF here: https://driv...

The residual emotional turmoil of a situation piled on top of another one can result in apathy and misery, and it very well can cripple any working mind. So it might be fair for one's brain to try and look at some surface level desires and short term happiness goals to try and soothe the ache. To ignore the bad is foolish, to ignore the good is destructive. Check out my appearance on "Broken Bulbs...

Emotions are sometimes hard to keep under control. As life spins more out of control and insecurities and fears start to show their ugly heads, one's emotions start to wreak havoc on one's life. When these emotions get too rowdy, it seems like one's life is in dire need of a miracle, even one that would look like a disaster at first. TGTBTI - Sweeney Todd: https://youtu.be/9W42ECCBSo0

The world has changed no doubt, and there are many cries of a return to the world before the changes. As humanity slowly tries to return to that world, whether smartly or out of impatience, there's a sense of anxiety. When the world has been a locked down experience for a couple of years, is it odd to feel a bit of unease to leave that state fairly soon?

Sometimes, when the air is quiet and the desire is satiated; one can look up and dream on. One can dream of flying in the air, one can dream of living happily ever after, or one can dream of what they would do given the opportunity to do anything in the field they love. Sometimes, when the air is quiet and the desire is satiated, one can dream of that one project they'd give anything to create. Bo...

What will happen when one lives under the eyes of a repressive feeling that will crush many joys and desires at once through intimidation and years of subjugation? The results are never pretty, and often times maybe living in this state will create a monster of sorts. A giant behemoth of anxiety and frightfulness, sitting atop one's chest, looking down in one's eyes. Send me an audio message from...

With the world moving at such a pace that no one man can get a hold of it, there's sometime a faint feeling in the air as one looks around and sees all that is done and all that is need to be done. That faint feeling can be quite devastating if left unchecked, and if checked it can bring a sense of shame to one. But why is that? Why does one feels shame when comes to grasp with overwhelmtion? Chec...

When one's accustomed to the feeling of despair, or resentment, or the simple broad concept of "unwell"; sometimes to feel good is somewhat of an unnerving experience. When life seems to be working well, and when everything is in order, sometimes one's brain tries hard to find irregularities (or in their absence, conjure them up out of nothing) just to bring that shine down and make everything the...

As one walks through life, one gathers interests and some of those are in the world of fandoms. But when one enters the fandom, the desire to share that fandom and that universe with the world is intensified, and if one's lucky, they will influence other beings of indulging in those fandoms. Such is the tale of a little known fandom who don themselves "Trekkies", and one's friend who gave his word...

One's formative years of childhood is utilized to develop skills and puts them to use for the rest of one's life, but sometimes there are hiccups in that development. When one is alone for most of one's formative years, some skills develop faster and some don't develop at all, and as many things in life, unbalance can have rather uneasy consequences as the years pass by.

The feeling of being judged based on a merit that is not anything other than a desire to recognize and cheat the game, should not be a contributing factor for mental unease; but even if the authority is rejected, the feeling of getting an official statement that your work lacks any value is not a pleasant feeling either. It's not a good day for one to have to endure the possibility that he might b...

When one falls into the same holes over and over again, is it the definition of stupidity? Or a bit of hope? What is hope, if not a way for one's brain to look at all that is wrong and all that is broken and say with a whisper: "this time it'll be different". Hope can be such an aphrodisiac for life, but also a good reminder of all that isn't right.

There are passages of time in anyone's life, where they lay there unmotivated and waiting. The world around them is going swimmingly, in a brisk pace and with not upheaval; but something does not feel right. There's anticipation, there's a sense of wrongness, above all, there's no emotions left. That's when one's emotions are so tired that they leave the body as a whole, that's when one is f--ked...

It's the return, and the hopeful constant continuation of one's quest to keep talking against all odds and purposes. The glorious comeback, and the hope that there must be better days ahead, and the realization that the past days were fruitful as well. Maybe in conversing about these topics, misunderstanding is apt; but one can only implore the lord that they will not be misunderstood. Specia...

In this episode, I sit down to talk with an old friend that I have known for six years at this point, starting from our university years, Parsa. We met each other on the hallowed halls of our Art University, and our bond has grown more recently with our shared love of certain movies and ideas. So we discuss therapy, life under covid, Parsa's headline-breaking news and Mark Manson's "The Subtle Art...

With every end, there's a possibility for a promise; the promise to return, or not to. With every going, there's the possibility for a promise; the promise to come back one day, or not to. When a journey comes to a stop, it leaves one with an array of promises, some spoken and some unspoken; for as long as life goes on, there's a promise of some kind. My Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/AKhams...

To live for one year is an achievement in and of itself, and humanity celebrates it by a birthday, or an anniversary for one's birth; since to be alive for a full year is hard enough. So, this marks the one year anniversary of one's quest to speak to anyone and everyone being alive; and it went through much highs and lows, but stands here in front of an audience, one year older.