The Journey of the Solo Man

Bending yourself into a pretzel to fit someone else’s mold is an easy trap to fall into. Fresh out of therapy, I’m breaking down the 'job description' template my therapist and I built to filter future connections. Looking back at past romantic interests through this lens, it suddenly clicked why those connections vanished like a puff of smoke. From non-negotiable deal-breakers to a vital...

This week’s therapy session forced me to look at how I manage—or rather, restrict—my emotions. I’ve realized that I habitually cap both ends of the emotional scale, preventing myself from feeling too happy or too low in an effort to keep the peace and avoid being a burden to others. But holding it back turns those emotions into a champagne bottle waiting to pop. ​My therapist introduced the concep...

This episode is about the work required to build a stronger internal foundation, normalizing the progress of others without letting it diminish my own value, and focusing on self-improvement before trying to catch up to a timeline that isn't mine yet.

In this entry, I'm unpacking a pattern I find myself in constantly: navigating the 'friend zone' and trying to be okay with accepting a platonic connection because I value the person too much to lose them. But it brings up a tough question: is that connection healthy for me, or is it doing more harm than good? I'm also working through a task assigned by my therapist this week. Instead of waiting f...

This isn't a structured podcast, a conversation, or a strict schedule to keep up with. It's an audio journal. I'm starting this space as a personal journey to hold myself accountable-a place to voice my thoughts, document my processes, and map my psychological state in any given moment. I've never been great at keeping a daily written diary, so this won't be an everyday habit either. There are no...