The Hummingbird Prayer Podcast

Suicide, illness, and miscarriage — all variations of how death can greet us, initiating a pilgrimage of grief. Death arrives without a knock, claiming life whether we are ready or not… Today, I am joined by a dear friend who has walked alongside death for most of her life with profound intimacy. From navigating the suicide of her mother at age 4, then the death of her step-mother a few years afte...

Here sit two women, two mothers — who have both walked the path of freebirth, each with vastly different outcomes. One, cradling her daughter in her arms; the other, with her son’s ashes on upon her altar. — Welcome to an honest afternoon conversation with my dear friend Eden as she offers transparent reflections about her choice to freebirth her daughter in November of 2023. This is the first tim...

Walking the path of pregnancy together as friends then coming out of the birth portal as mothers; we would continue our walk as sisters, one nursing her daughter while the other mourned her son with empty arms. This brought a challenge: how could we show up for one another through such contrast and deep pain? For us that looked like: ceremony and allowing . Allowing there to be space for grief, an...

This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit ahummingbirdprayer.substack.com I don’t do trigger warnings for what I share in this space because life doesn’t come with a trigger warning. Nature doesn’t wrap things in a digestive bubble and honestly, it doesn’t feel correct for me to put a warning on my lived experiences. If you’re here with me in this corner of the internet, you’ll...

Today, we're talking about grief , not just as an emotion or a season of life, but as a portal — a gateway to profound transformation. Join me for an intimate chat where we not only discuss how grief impacts us, but we explore how we can choose to actively engage with our grief. portal /pôr′tl/ noun * A doorway, entrance, or gate, especially one that is large and imposing. * An entrance or a means...

How can I learn to hold both life and death in my heart in a good yet grounded way? This is a question I’ve been asking myself since my son passed away in childbirth March 2024. — In this audio file you will find my ponderings surrounding birth and death in relationship to the time of The Spring Equinox. Gazing at the cedar trees, their branches catching the late winter rain drops, I sat down to r...

Since loosing my son in childbirth a year ago I have been asked so many questions — the most common being: “Do you advocate against freebirth?” After 3 days of labouring at home we transferred to the hospital where I continued to labour for 8 more hours. I spent the next two days on life support, in a coma fighting off a rare blood infection while the ICU doctors worked around the clock to bring m...

Welcome to this recording that I’ve entitled: The Winter Solstice: A walk with darkness & death as the most holy Medicine Woman Intimate shares, musings, poetry, reflections from the past year on darkness and light as a mother in mourning. This year has been the ceremony I never wanted to sit in, sacred songs that sound more like sobs,mothering that feels more like mourning,and healing that looks...