The Hate Love Podcast - A Journey of the Self

A reflection on how healing changes us in ways our past selves might not even recognize. This episode explores the shift from cynicism and disbelief into spiritual openness and self-compassion, as old versions of us appear simply to remind us how far we’ve come. A story about growth, self-love, and finding humor in who we used to be.

What if the ick you feel isn’t just emotional or mental, but energetic? In this episode, I share how energy healing first came into my life. Why I used to scoff at it. And how it helped me start clearing the muck I couldn’t even see before. There’s more going on than we’re taught to believe.

From disconnection to redefining what ancestors truly are. What do ancestors mean to you? There is no wrong answer.

In this episode, I’m sharing how the way we want to treat others is often a reflection of what we haven’t been giving to ourselves — and how starting to notice that can change everything.

Trigger warning: suicidal ideation When I found Gate 10, Line 3 in my North Node, it was like a punch right to in the face. In Human Design, this gate speaks to self-love through alignment—through how you treat yourself. In this episode, I talk about what it’s been like to grow into that energy. As a lived process. Through setbacks. Through recovery. Through remembering what I’m here for. If you’v...

Trigger warning: suicidal thoughts This one might be a little choppy… This episode is what it feels like when you’re climbing and suddenly it feels like you’ve fallen. But maybe it’s just the next step.

This episode explores the Warrior archetype—what it means to embody its strength with presence, alignment, and purpose. We also look at how this energy can show up unbalanced in our lives through reactivity, overdrive, or burnout. When integrated, the Warrior becomes a steady force, guided by clarity instead of chaos.

An impromptu episode spurred on by a wild dream. I believe it meant something more. The video referenced in the episode is called Quantum Jumping Guided Meditation by Your Youniverse on Youtube. https://youtu.be/nTYITNfKlRc?si=US45OBlnsiHko7LX **I do not promise or promote any specific experiences and advise you move forward with discernment and caution.

TRIGGER WARNING: This episode includes mentions of suicidal thoughts. Please listen with care. In this episode, I walk through how childhood imprints shape our adult behavior—from a science and energy perspective. I share a pivotal hypnosis session from my healing journey that helped me reconnect with my inner child in a way I never had before. This is about understanding where our patterns come f...

A desert. A four-day fast. One mosquito that would not quit. I thought I was there to wrap up a healing chapter. Instead, something else showed up. This episode is about what happens when the discomfort gets loud, and the message finally comes through.

In this first episode, I’m talking about what it’s really like to live in defense mode — the mental spirals, the tension in the body, the constant need to prove or protect yourself, even when nothing’s happening. I share part of my story, how self-hate shaped my thoughts, and what I’ve been doing to shift out of those patterns.